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Why do I blog?

Thursday, May 3, 2012 ? 2 Watchasay? ?

I blog because it helps me relieves what I feel. I blog because it lets me express myself and what I feel. I blog because I think a blog is the best place to share my burdens and joy without completely affecting anyone in particular. I blog because here, I have my own world. I have something to share who I am without being judged. If people do judge blogs, then I can't do anything about it. Blog is just so much better than letting anyone know so much about you. And turning out being too vulnerable.

I blog because everytime my dad rants about my mom and tells me about it, I get frustrated. I get frustrated because I don't know what to do. well, I sort of do know what to do, I just don't know how to do it or say anything because my opinion doesn't matter that much. They are the parents, I'm just the child. I feel trapped between the two of them, between their sentiments. My mom says one thing then my dad another. I try to understand both sides till I end up being confused whos side to agree with.

These past few days, I'm more in favor with my dad because I sort of understand what he feels about the situation. And it just makes me more frustrated because I can't talk my mom out of it, and I can't really tell her my opinion about agreeing with my dad because she easily gets emotional.

Then I thought that they both tell me their frustrations but how about me? How about my frustrations? I have no one to pass it on. My brother doesn't care much. He sees things too simple and whenever I say "it's not just simple" my argument just becomes invalid.

People thinks that when you open up to them, tell them your problems and frustrations, they think that you want help. They think that you need an advice, a way out. They don't understand that sometimes, when you talk too much, you just want someone to listen. To try to understand what you feel. They don't understand that you just want it all out. You don't need their opinion. You need them.

This is why I like Crystel out of all my friends. Because she listens, she tries to understand me without getting me confused. Without telling me what to do, she's just there for me. When we talk, I talk about this and she listens. She talks about this and I listen. We're not entirely the same. We don't have the same opinions, but we know how to respect each others feelings.

I blog because my blog listens. I blog because when there's too much in me, I have something to put it on. I blog because it starts no argument. When I talk to someone about what I feel, I specifically do a monologue, I'm not after the dialogue. And when that someone tries to act smart pants, I get annoyed.

I was exactly like that back then, assuming to know what to do and what my friend feels and tell them what to do. Then I realized I don't really have to tell them what to do, they know what to do. They just don't know how to. And even if I know what they should do, I don't completely know because I'm not in their shoe. So yeah, I blog because technically, my blog doesn't talk back.

I am thankful that I have a blog. I help myself and maybe help someone out there who reads because it gives them this idea that there's always someone who feesls the way they do. And I don't `promote` my blog in my other accounts because it's like making myself open to the public I personally know. lol

So how about you, Why do you blog?

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