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Sembreak
Saturday, November 7, 2009 ? 4 Watchasay? ?
Sorry, I had to cut my entry because it would be so long :D

Ayun, Sembreak was BITIN but it's kind of FUN.
We went home to Pampanga (my father's province) to visit my lola and my grandfather's grave too.

It was Friday evening when SANTI arrived at our place and he was totally CRAZY, I even though that our trip would be postponed because of the heavy rain and strong wind.
I was spending the night at tumblr and facebook that time because there's no internet connection there, when the rain and wind started to get crazy I decided not to sleep.
It was nearly 2 am in the morning when it started to creep me out. The water is slowly rising and the rain won't stop, My window is nearly crack because of the wind so I decided to wake up my mother and we waited until our sundo arrived.

They arrived nearly 4 am and we waited until Santi calmed down before going and it was about 8 am already.
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During the sembreak, I realized something.
I realized na mas malalim masugatan ang mga lalake and it's true that Men are physically stronger but women are emotionally capable.

Sometimes guys just can't let it out because they think with their minds and they often think that crying makes them weak. So we don't have the right to blame boys in general when we get hurt because all is fair in love and war, and sometimes we think na tayo na lang nahihirapan because we don't see them suffer.

Honestly, I grew up mostly with boys because I don't have a sister and my girl cousins and I have huge age gaps and with my father's side, she just too aloof with me, considering there's just two of us.

At the last day of our vacation, I had a convo with my two elder cousins, We are both Panganays and have stubborn brothers too so yeah, we're the ones who understand each other in the family and it's just too sad that we grew old and apart from each other.

We talked about their Ex-es and our Frustrations with our parents, And I've notices that everything seemed to change since our lolo died :(
We seldom have family gatherings, my tito and tita are fighting, my dad went abroad and we are not kids anymore :( I just miss the old days, the days when we would exchange gifts and my lolo would portray as Santa during Christmas and the Fireworks and the sleepless nights and everything :( The pillow pillow fights and hide and seek games :(

I missed being a kid. No problem and No worries and I sympathize my two cousins, they are both not-so-over with a girl who left them for someone else., even if they had tons of girlfriends after that, It's still one girl they want to be with :(. I wonder what could've happen if my lolo is still here, I wonder if my cousin would still get pregnant and commit abortion if he's still here, I wonder if my tito and tita would still fight over non sense things :( There's just too many things that happened since he died of Cancer :(



me and my brother :)

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