Template : HELL WEEK
Sunday, December 13, 2009 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
The previous week was full of drama and really Hell! so I'm so sorry I wasn't able to update my blog.Monday; Normal day. it was the deadline of our project in T.H.E and we discussed on Computer. Nainis lang ako kay Crystel after lunch kasi it was our report day on Social Studies pero wala akong idea about sa details kasi when our teacher announced it, wala ako sa classroom because of some SBO stuffs.
The report was intended to be our remedial Quiz, nainis kasi samen yung SS teacher namin so he didn't attend class kaya wala kaming Quiz. I was pissed because weekend pa lang I told her na sya na lang mag assign ng designated topics sa girls because I wasn't able to bring my book home. I told her to lend me her book to research about the topic pero hindi niya ko pinahiram. sabi niya sya na daw bahala. So when Monday came, naiinis ako because almost everyone was aking me `Zaira, ano irereport ko?` they kept on asking me until lunch tapos may quiz pa bigla sa T.H.E and hindi pa ko nagrereview. Tapos nalaman ko bigla na wala pa palang irereport, na ang gulo gulo pa pala. I told her to do so something then bigla niya sabi `di ba ikaw na bahala?` kasi ako daw yung nagresearch and parang wala siyang pakealam, tuloy tuloy pa rin siya sa pag rereview. Eh pano naman ako? ni hindi pa ko nakapagbubuklat dahil lahat saken nagtatanong? I didn't have a choice so I just fixed everything. nakakainis! Considering na siya pa yung Top 1.
Tuesday; I cried :| I swear, bihira ako umiyak because I don't want people to pity me or look at me as a weak person, pero last tuesday napuno na talaga ako. Super sumama yung loob ko towards everything that happened plus the pressure na din siguro :| Ayun nga, nainis samen yung Adviser namin dahil sa usual section stuffs: masyado na kaming maingay, matigas ang ulo, bastos and everything at kahit naman ako nainis na nun kasi hindi naman lahat involve sa mga kalokohan na yun pero dahil nga section kami; Miss one Miss all. Kaya ako naiinis kasi ang daming insensitive, hindi man lang nila naisip yun na may nadadamay sa kanila at dahil nga galit yung adviser namin, nagpaquiz siya ng lesson na hindi pa nadidiscuss :| first period pa yun :|
After that, yung adviser namin nagpaiba ng seating arrangement tapos yung mga maiingay/makukulit nilagay niya sa isolated chairs, then he told us to stand up and occupy the seats we want but no one followed. Then dahil dun, he told me to make a new seating arrangement so ako naman, I asked kung pwede bang bahala na sila kung san nila gusto umupo then he said ok.
Ayoko na kasi ng conflict ayoko ng saken magrereflect lahat ng side comments kung ako gagawa nung seating arrangement. saka HINDI NILA AKO TITIGILAN.
When our adviser left the room, ang dami sa kanila nagsasabi `Zaira tabi mo ko kay ano ha`.I felt irritated, nung binigyan sila ng chance na lumipat hindi nila ginawa then ako yung kukulitin nila about the seat plan? eh hindi pa nga ako gumagawa, ano ako? ROBOT? tss :| because I was so pissed, hindi na ko nag entertain ng questions and I just wrote on the board na after lunch pumasok sila ng classroom for the seating arrangement. Kasi napapagod na ko magsalita ng magsalita then no one will listen, so sinulat ko na lang.
Pagkatapos ng lunch, I arranged the chairs tapos pinapasok ko na sila, pero ayun. konti lang sumunod. So I closed the door and told the ones who followed to choose their seats, kasi wala atang balak pumasok yung mga nasa labas.
When everyone was already inside, I told them `ok! pumunta na kayo sa gusto niyong upuan` then after that ang daming vacant seats tapos yung iba nakatayo so I asked them `ayaw niyo ba dito?` blah blah blah and It was so gulo~ kasi habang nagsasalita ka nakikipagsabayan sila, tapos yung iba gusto magkakatabi sila kahit wala na ngang seats, so what I did was compromise them and told them to transfer kung gusto talaga nilang magkakatabi, pero ayaw naman nila sumunod kasi gusto nga nila sa pwesto na yun, EH HINDI NGA PWEDE NA YUNG PAREHONG GUSTO NILA ANG MASUSUNOD. I was already angry that time so I told them `Ano ba? Ano ba talaga gusto niyo? gusto niyo ako na lang gumawa?` but most of them is still talking. Naiiyak na ako nun dahil sa inis, Ikaw na nga yung nagbibigay ng favor sa kanila tapos ganun pa yung ugaling ipapakita nila sayo? WTF right? I told them `Alam niyo abuso kayo, kaya maraming nagagalit saten eh`. Buti na lang sumunod na sila.
after everything was ok and arranged, I called Therese then told her to come with me at the locker's area. Ayun, dun na ko umiyak :( I told her everything I feel.
Since the start of this school year, I tried my best to have no enemy or any kind of conflict towards anyone because I don't want last year's event to happen again. I tried my best to consider everyone first before I proceed with a decision that will affect us as a Section. Pero alam mo yun? I just bursted out last Tuesday kasi ako na nga yung Nageeffort para sa lahat then at the end of the day ako pa yung masama? I do think of all of them and what they would think before I make a decision kasi I hate to hear negative feedbacks na masama ako and blah blah blah. Pero ganun pa dn eh, I do all my best for the sake of my HS life and friends without expecting anything in return. I just want them to atleast APPRECIATE AND RESPECT me as a friend and kahit hindi na bilang President nila. Pero anong sinsusukli nila? negative feedbacks? na ganito ganyan ako? tss. :| I just felt so betrayed that time. I just felt so down. I felt na lahat sila plastic, that's why I just told Therese alone.
Wednesday; It was our dissecting day, umaga pa lang our classroom was already loud kasi ang daming malalandi ~x(. Takot sila sa palaka tapos paglalaruan pa nila? then they would shout? irritating db? saka hindi pa mabuti yung pakiramdam ko, I still feel out of placed that time.
While we are dissecting, yung first steps parang maiiyak na ko sa takot at pandidiri :| kasi we have to paralyze the frog first by stabbing its head, so while I was holding the frog na pumapalag pa :| I can feel it on my hands so I was like `OH MY GOD, DI KO NA KAYA` :| but when the frog was already on the pan, I felt a little bit fine and already amazed. Specially dun sa heart, kasi It was still beating kahit naremove na siya sa body nung frog. :D
After Lunch, nagulat kami kasi may nagsabi na galit daw yung teacher namin sa T.H.E kasi may pinapagawa pero marami pa ring nasa labas, kaya ayun.
Bottomline; yung homework/experiment namin sa Bio ay naging Thursday ang deadline, so all of us was like WTF! tatlo yun ah? may Project pa tayo sa Values, SS and English `ano kala nila saten?` and everyone was complaining but I kept quiet, kasi kami rin naman may kasalanan so we don't have the right to complain at the first place, I just talked to our Values teacher to move our deadline for Monday so we can held the Interview on Saturday. So luckily, he agreed.
Thursday; I was already irritated early in the morning, kasi nung wednesday, nagusap usap kami ng classmates ko na magkakalapit to do the homework ng sama sama para hindi kami mahirapan, so while we were looking for the needed materials, nakasalubong namen yung adviser namin who is also our teacher in Bio. Sabi naman sa kanya na ang hirap maghanap nung materials at mahal kung mag iindividual kami so sabi niya `sige pwede na kayo mag group, kahit ilan kayo. Pero kailangan niyo inform lahat ng classmates niyo para fair, kung hindi niyo maiinform, hindi pwede` so we were happy. Ginawa namin lahat para mainform sila tapos ang nangyare, when everone was already informed. Ang daming nagsabi na `Zaira pwedeng sa inyo na lang ako?` so out of pity, I agreed. Kawawa din naman kasi saka sabi kahit ilan daw.`
tapos kinabukasan kami pa yung may pinakakulelat na grade? kasi biglang ang dami na naming kagroup kahit wala naman sila natulong? tapos nakakainis lang kasi kami yung nageffort para mapadali kahit papano yung homework tapos kami pa yung kulelat? Nakakainis.
The rest of the day was BUM. wala ako sa mood eh.
Friday; the DEADLINE day.
It was our project making in Bio about the compilations of what we did last wednesday. pero dahil may flag ceremony tapos nag sermon pa yung prefect of discipline, nabawasan yung time namin. We told our adviser na hindi namin matatapos yun within the period but he was already decided na hangang period niya lang pwedeng gumawa. Everything was RUSH.
English time; our project was about reporting pero I was not feeling well so I prayed the whole period na sana hindi kami abutin and luckily, natupad naman :)
Nung gabi, we had our Caroling pero nainis ulit ako :| yung iba kasing kasama last week hindi na pwede tapos yung mga dumagdag pasway na, late pa :| tapos yung ruote namin nakakatakot :| madaming aso tapos inabutan pa kami ng ulan :( so yung iba nag decide na umuwi pero nung tumila yung ulan, I told them to proceed sa safer place kaya kahit papano naka 200+php kami.
Prince Charming. Haha
HELL WEEK