UP has been my dream school since God knows when and I was so damn lucky to be given the chance.
Nung pumasa ako, everything was still surreal and at first I didn't want to believe it's really true. Everything just slowly got into me when I recieved my admission letter and the attached forms. GRABEEEE! SOBRANG SAYA TO THE POINT NA NABABALIW NA KO SA KAKATAWA AT KAKATALON. HAHAHAHAHA. Saka iba pa yung feeling ko kasi nakapending case pa ako bago na resolve. So thankful.
Then today was my enrollment.
Mahirap kasi ang daming pila, dumaan pa sa medical na pagkatagal tagal para sa requirements. Ang daming requirements na nakakaasar pa dahil may hindi ako alam at nabubwisit ang nanay ko. Ang init. Nakakapagod. Pero nung nakuha ko na yung schedule at class cards, heaaaaaaven :)
Everytime I go to UPLB, am mesmerized. Pero siguro mawawala din to sa pagdaan ng panahon. I am really happy I am now an official "Iska" XD
YAY, I wanna start this year right by trying to revive my blogging spirits. First stop is that I've finally changed my layout and my default pic. hoho :) I'll also change my about me sections as soon as I can.
So this post will be about our Christmas Party Celebration.
Dec 13-15: It's our Periodicals and we had a very long line-up of deadline but as usual, it seems that I'm the only one who's too stressed about it in our group. Can you imagine to have your Social Studies deadline at the exact day of your Christmas Party? FML. So those days were cram cram cram :))) I have one very effective technique in cramming. `Sleep is all you need` coz if you study when you're sleepy, nothing goes into your head. :D So I was like `fuck this. I'm gonna finish this project then sleep` :))) Tapos kinabukasan na ako magrereview :D Thank God I'm exempted in some subjects as incentives to our recent activities.
On the last day of exam, I was too pissed with Lorielle and Crystel who was acting all so great in decorating and planning about our Christmas Party and almost forgot that I'm the president of the class, so yeah, I gave them the privelage of carrying that responsibility. Bahala sila, wala akong pake. So I went home early because I still have nothing to wear. It was a day of dissapointments. Really, but I don't want to tell it anymote :)
Dec 16; We woke up early because my mom and I attended the Simbang Gabi. I was the first to get up - because of excitement, maybe - then my mom. At the Church I was so sleepy very sleepy that I slept almost half of the mass but of course I listened to the homily. On our way home my mom and I just walked because we still have to drop by the market and buy ingredients for carbonara which was my assigned dish for the party. When we got home I excitedly took a bath and did all the rituals and bla bla bla for the party.
I arrived at the party early and it wasn't what I was expecting, really. It screams boring all over the place :)))) then I told the one in charge, Crystel, what was the agenda for the day and she told me she hasn't made any and all of those excuses. Kesyo hindi na nga siya nakatulog ng ayos and bla bla bla, so my usual self got pissed and rant and rant at the back of my mind. I was thinking `what the hell was that excuse? you volunteered to organize this, now you're complaining that you haven't slept yet?` So she'll just sabotage the party? ugh! I tried to pull some strings, make some plans and thankfully the videoke already arrived so we decided to start. Then at the climax of our Adrenalines, it suddenly blocked out! YEAH, and we found out that the office cut the main power because there's too many videokes and the outlets might not accomadate all of it. We were like `what the hell? It's not the first year to bring Videokes in and how can you call this a Party without electricity? :(
we went outside and tried to proceed to our games, but again, walk out queen Crystel did it again, got pissed and just shooed off. What a bitch, you gonna take it all then spit it out? tss, so who's gonna clean that mess? ME! but that day I didn't wanna ruin my mood because our adviser was there. Haaay. Fortunately after the game they brought back the electricity so Ma'am Pam our adviser told me that we should proceed to the exchange gifts because we're already hungry. :D
I recieved a watch and a necklace that I haven't uploaded yet because I can't find my Camera's charger. ugh. :)) after Exchange gift was eating time. yum :D
After Kainan, we were talking about `what are we gonna do? should we go somewhere?` I asked Ann, the Gala among us if they're gonna go anywhere and she said she wasn't sure and that it depends who's gonna come so I said I would like to but I haven't brought money with me. We talked and discussed and planned and ended up going to Festival, It was kinda sad that only a few were able to come because some of us our parents disagreed.
The usual Barkada Gala. WAIT WAIT WAIT. TEXT TEXT TEXT. PIC PIC PIC :)) the original 11:30 plan happened to be 1:00 :)) We arrived at Festi around 1:30 and then viola, kanya kanyang gala :DD We enetered shops ans looked at those tag prices and our eyes just went $_$ because we don't have that much money to shop. hrhr.
We ended up riding the roller coaster and they were all sort of afraid and had partners and I don't so I was in front alone. hahaha :))) and I was teaasing and laughing at their faces during the ride. :D We bought books worth 10 to 20 php :)) then went home around 5:30 because we might be caught in traffic. I arrived home smiling and surprisingly my mom wasn't mad, she didn't even preach. yahoooo :)) I bought her a present too :D
So that was it. It was still awesome at the end of the day no matter how my mood literally screwed up :)
One bad quality I'm aware of myselft is my lack of patience. I mean I'm moody at times and I don't like it.
I get pissed easily by stupidity and I hate it when people or my classmates don't get things at one try. I'm aware of it and even though I badly want to hold my temper, I just can't.
Then one day, I realized I have to do something about it, most specially that I was never fond of complications and conflicts. I just thought it will do no good to anyone. I also tried to think things through because I have this habit of always hating something about a person, or an act. I always have a comment on it although most of the time I just keep it on myself, and then I realize I'm just stressing myself and wasting my mind thinking about it. I realized that a good leader isn't perfect, he just makes way to work things out. A good leader isn't always right, he just consider things and broaden his mind. I realized that to work things out, I should stop complaining and rant and rant on things I don't like. Instead, I should look at the good side of it, if it's not what I expect to turn out, maybe I should think of an alternative, maybe I should be the one to compromise and try to understand more because I want things to work out with less drama and `kampihan`. I don't want to divide a group into a group. We're one section, a family, we should not get into each others nerves.
I ended up with this though through a help of a very good friend, Therese. We had this group activity in Mapeh involving everyone in class. It's a dance number mixing different kinds of ballroom, at first I got pissed of those `nagmamagaling` and you know how things happen in the first section, there's always competition.
But that day, I was so pissed and offended and tired and everything that I tried to calm myself. The usual me would rant and tell every bad things I hate about it, but instead of ranting I approached Therese and ask what should I do, she simply said `wag mo lang pansinin` and I tried. It worked. I got home, ate then slept, then the next morning I was okay again, as if nothing happened.
Therese was right, we were never united, that's why we always lost. We always get into each others nerves, the three of us. Then I told myself if I'm better than them, there's no need to compete, there's no need to quarrel. Because at the end of the day we still end up needing each other, so I tried to think things through again and I realized maybe I'd just compromise, try to understand them. Try to let things through, sabi ko sa sarili ko dapat di ko na patulan mga drama nila kasi mapapagod lang ako. Arguing with them would lead me to nowhere, it would just make us uncomfortable with each other and that kind of feeling have no place when you're inside one room always seeing each others face.
If I want us to be united, then if they can't compromise with us, then maybe we can. We should. We've been together for three years and it's already becoming a cycle. Away bati. Backstabbing, kung ano ano sinasabi sa isa't isa pero lumilipas din naman. I thought that maybe we should not let our words harm our relationship, specially when those words are results of spur of the moment anger.
I realized that hate or inis is just as normal as our breathing, considering the fact that nobody's perfect. All we can do is let it pass, don't let it harm anyone's feeling by crule and rude words. The world is beautiful, we just can't see it the moment we open our eyes. Just like babies, when they came to this world their eyes are still close. Just like when we wake up, everything has to be blurry first and let it pass until we see clearly.
Howdy bloggers? :) I hope there's still someone out there visiting my blog. lol :) it just seems that everyone already moved :(
I seriously missed blogging and I was on hiatus for a month because honestly, I don't know what good can I express anymore. I got tired of stuffing my frustrations here. So there's been a lot that happened and it was like a blur for me, everything for this year is just so fast we can't even savour the moment. Everything's like a routine. Everyone's busy and tired and stressed out yet no one's enjoying anything >.<>
I know that my last post was about our acquaintance party and I was sort of emo. haha =))) after that was the month of September and we had our intramurals and alam naman natin na kapag intrams ang daming activities :) so the week before that was loaded, practice and preparations everywhere and actually, at some point of the past events I was genuinely honest that I wasn't elected for the school council. It's a lot of work and you'll still get to be blamed. ugh :D The side effects of being in charge. hrhr :D
I don't have lots of pics because I wasn't that happy during the 4 days of free time because I had a period. hah~ It sucks =)) and I was a total KJ for that event. :D
But even though everything's getting into our nerves this year, we still try to catch up and escape from stress with friends :) October and September is birthday month! yay :) and we celebrated Lep's birthday hilariously. :DD
We had our swimming lessons before the party so I sort of look wasted. :)))
Then last week was our United Nations and celebration for World's Teachers Day and all I can say is that it's lame and a major failure, everything this years seems so rush. HAPIT =)))) That's why everytime I arrive home all I crave for is sleep. All I can think about is how many hours can I rest, how many things shall be done the next day. Then the next day I woke up I always want to skip school, but whenever reality wakes me up I realize how much I would miss if I'd skip school, then when I'm at school all I can think is `boring naman~ sana di na lang ako pumasok` =)))
Bottomline is, everything this year sucks. ALMOST :( It's so different from last year. This year is so busy, so loaded, so hard :|
K. Enough of school stuffs =)) tomorrow'a my big day and I don't know what to feel. This is the last day of my 14th year of existence and I'm starting to think of things that made me better, made me different from who I was a year ago. I can still even remember everything last year, I can still remember what I did a day before my Birthday. I can remember what happened exactly a year ago :) It's Ironic, I haven't even realized I'm fourteen until now, until there's one remaining day before I get a year older. hay.
Funny how time flies, sometimes we want to skip the days and jump in to the future, but when we get there, it's when we realize how much we missed. How many chances of making change we let go. I'm turning fifteen tomorrow, and I'm not sure of what's gonna happen. :)
I just hope I could get through this teenage years in one piece, and with lots of memories I'll either regret of laugh at when the time of wrinkles come :)
I miss blogging, but I'm back on the state of not knowing what to blog again. hihi :))
Last week was one of the memorable weeks of my HS life so far because it was our Periodical week and also our Acquaintance Party.
Ayun, emo na naman ako :))) there's just a lot of things going on my mind right now, on what's happening on my life and I'm just sort of missing something. I badly want something I can't have. :) Oh well, siguro meron ako pero hindi ko pa napapansin :) I just miss the feeling :D
I'll kwento more further when I'm on the mood :D The Party was fun but I wasn't happy :)) I laugh, I smile, it was good but It wasn't the happy me :D
These past few days, or I mean since the classes have started I have felt nothing but stress.
My last entries shows how pissed and annoyed I am on what's happenning everyday inside the class and I think It's still as is. Everyday would be ordinary bla bla bla and I'm often pissed and starting to get tired of the same routine and attitude everyone else keep on doing.
Minsan pagpasok ko tatamarin ako, lahat nagtatanong anong assignment, may quizz ba or bla bla bla. Eh minsan badtrip din ako at wala sa mood sumagot or magentertain ng mga masyadong obvious question kaya ayun, nakakatamad. Pagdating naman ng uwian lahat maingay magtatanungan ng kung anong meron bukas. Hay.
Ewan, may topak ako lately, I want something new with my life, madalas din ako emo kasi parang na o-OP na naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko pero hindi naman. Haaaaay.
There's just a lot of things that happened and I was hesitant to blog about it because I don't want to reread by blog and see negative thoughts of events that happenned. Pero kahit naman stressful may mga consolation pa din :) last friday was Jamaica's Birthday so kahit sobrang HAGGARD na pumunta pa din kami. Meron kasing SABAYAN :( and it's another frustration to blog about. haaay. These last days I was just trying to distract myself by playing BAKING LIFE and MILLIONAIRE CITY at FACEBOOK. hehe :)
Minsan kahit nakakainis sila, nakakatuwa pa din. Minsan talaga may sumpong ako. Lalo na pag pagod badtrip kulang sa tulog tapos kukulitin pa :)))
P.S.
I'll try to update this again as often as I can :) nakakatamad din kasi minsan kapag wala ng nagbabasa and everyone seems to be so busy too :)
Nagsasawa na ako, may mga times kasi na paulit ulit ulit at ulit na lang. Nagsasawa na ako sa tanong ng tanong ng tanong. Napapagod na ako kasasagot sagot sagot. Hay, bat ba hindi nila gamitin common sense nila? GRABE! Minsan gusto ko dn ng katahimikan. Hay
Badtrip na araw to, elaborate ko na lang kapag di ako tinamad.
Birthday pala kahapon ng brother ko, 13 na siya tapos mas malaki na sa`ken. AJUJUJU =))))
This day was an opposite of yesterday. I was in a bad mood since this morning because of irritating Jamaica. Naiwan daw kasi niya yung Homework niya kahapon samen eh yung kay Ann lang naman yung nakita ko. ughh! kainis.
Next is the seating arrangement :( nalipat na naman lahat! pumanget! tapos ako na lang yung hindi pa nagpapalit ng chair. aw aw aw.
Then at dismissal, a teacher called me and told me to join the Vincetian'c Chronicles so I just nod tapos sakto naman na nandun na naman yung dalawang magaling; si Lorielle at Crystel. Ayun :)) I don't know, nagsisimula na akong magsawa sa mga taong nagmamagaling, I mean they want everything, they want to do this, do that, they love being an utusan. Tapos dahil nanalo nga si Lorielle doble doble yung position niya sa clubs then sabi niya kanina nag quit daw sila. I mean, eff, just like that? :)) mag reresign ka na lang bigla sa responsibility.
Si Lorielle, sabi nga ni Therese, walang ka humble humble sa katawan. Yes, you know the answer, do you have to boast and rub it in everyone's face? Sabi ko sa kanya she talks to much na hindi siya aware sa mga nagiging apekto ng sinasabi niya and she just answered kaya naman daw niyang panindigan. TSK.
Nakakainis. Nagsasawa na ako sa kanila, lahat alam nila, lahat gusto nila, LAHAT LAHAT LAHAT napupuna nila. There's nothing wrong with being a grade conscious student as long as you're still sensitive enough with what people around you may feel. Nakakainis. ANG YABANG.
I just feel like sharing what I feel. Dahil madaling araw na naman at wala akong gaanong ginagawa. Hell week is over and elections too so yeah, I have time to waste again.
Wala lang, para kasing namimimiss ko na naman siya you know who dahil gaano man ako kasaya sa mga kaibigan ko ngayon, gaano man nagevolve ang pagsasamahan namin, iba pa rin kapag may special someone ka.
Hindi naman ako basta basta pwedeng pumasok sa isang relasyon dahil gusto ko lang. Iba kasi kapag iba yung nararamdaman mo sa tao, ewan ko, parang gusto ko ng bestfriend/boyfriend figure.
Kahapon kasi, Friday, in the middle of nowhere bigla akong nasenti. Kasi election, at di ko man aminin kinakabahan ako lalo na sa magiging feedback manalo man o matalo na okay lang sa`kin kahit ano. Alam mo yun, wala kasi yung close friends ko, eh syempre hindi naman pwedeng lagi akong may constant kausap. Bigla kong naisip na iba pa rin talaga kapag may someone special ka kahit marami kang close friends o barkada. Iba pa rin yung sense of security na alam mong hinding hindi ka ma i-isolate sa isang tabi kasi may reserve ka na.
Iba pa rin pag special o nagiisa yung mahal mo. Yung walang katulad. Yung boyfriend na bestfriend na close friend. Yun yung hanap ko, ayoko sa basta basta na lang para may matawag na boyfriend. Gusto ko yung ganun, hindi man pang level up, alam mong may isang taong hinding hindi ka iiwan dahil mahal ka. Okay lang na magaway kami o tampuhan, basta nanjan pa rin siya.
Ang senti ko. Basta. Narealize ko lang na iba talaga.
Gusto ko lang i-blog to, kinakabahan kasi ako sa results although either way is fine with me. Sabi nga namin ni Angel parang ayaw namin manalo, kasi nabasa niyo naman last year kung gaano ka stressful saka sa ngayon ang hirap lumiban sa klase lalo na sa Math. Pamatay. Saka ayun, nagpaparamdam na naman siya, tapos ang dami kong crush, pero hangang dun lang yun. Iba pa rin talaga siya, kahit LDR kami. IBANG IBA >.<>
Kinakabahan ako sa results. Kasi pag natalo ayoko ng loser figure, ayoko ng kaaawaan. Pero masaya ako sa nakikita kong suporta ng mga schoolmates at teachers kahit di maiiwasan yung mga walang modo at bastos na studyante masaya pa rin ako sa obvious na kami yung gustong manalo :) Pero pag talo okay lang, siguro 1 week lang yung init ng issue, after nun back to normal na. Mag fofocus na lang ako sa classroom at sa mga kaibigan ko ngayon :) Pag naman nanalo, mas mahirap. Mas matagal na isipan at stress at sa bandang huli sa`min pa ang sisi. Either way would be okay :)
Ang labo. Basta sa mga nanliligaw ngayon wala, after ng bolahan wala na, sandaling kilig lang. Kaya parang ayaw ko. Wala. Wala talaga :( hay.
Yes, I'm running for SBO and since Thursday, I have seen support from people I don't even expect. It's overwhelming, it's flattering, their words of wisdom is heart warming. Hindi ko ineexpect na may mas madaming taong naniniwalang kaya ko. Pero meron ding tao na super nakasakit saken :(
I ran because of my friend's support and encouragement, pero 1 special person yung talagang inasahan ko. I cried last Thursday because of her. Sabi niya kasi saken `Zaira tumakbo ka tapos kunin mo ko sa partylist mo para hindi na tayo magkalaban` so I held on to her word. Inasahan ko yun kasi sa kanya nanggaling, I ran because I was confident she'll stand by my side tapos nung balikan ko sya, bigla ko nalaman na nakuha na siya sa kabila.
My heart broke, feeling ko lobo akong pinalobo tapos biglang pinutok. Right that moment hindi ko na napigil yung iyak ko, I was already feeling helpless dahil ang lakas na ng kalaban and no one seems to like me or running with me. I mean it was a shock for me, nanginginig pa nga ako habang humahanap ng pwedeng ka-partlylist. Of course inuna ko yung lower years kasi confident na ko sa mga kaibigan ko, confident na ko na tatakbo siya with me, tapos biglang BOOM :( Ang sakit sakit nun. I was not myself last friday, kaya na delay yung meeting namin, nakalimutan ko pa ngang magbayad dun sa tricycle driver sa kakaiyak. Hay. Iyak tawa ako nun with my friends habang naguusap tapos paguwi ko sa bahay ayun. Haaay.
Kahit nag sorry siya masakit eh, akala ko nga ok na nung araw na yun pero pagpasok ko sa classroom kahapon :(( eto na si parinig. Haaaay. I can't understand why I was to blame even though I was the one hurt. I mean lumalabas na ako pa yung masama dun sa group of friends niya, Can't she just cut it out? Masakit pa saken yun paparinig pa sya! Haaay. If it was a different situation, if she didn't marked her words and promised, It wouldn't hurt this bad.
The issue would have been through, I would just let it go and move on, madali lang yun kung hindi niya ipapamuka at ipapamuka na ako ang masama. Kanina nag gm pa sya ng Goodluck daw samen, I mean, yeah the objective was good but it was damn insulting.
Sana man lang kahit hindi bilang kaibigan, bilang tao na lang irespeto niya ako at tigilan yung pagsasabi ng kung ano ano, wala na nga akong ginagawa eh. Nilululon ko na lang yung mga insulto niya, hindi sana masakit eh, kung hindi ko sya kaibigan :(
THIS DAY WAS OH MY GOD. I THINK THE MOST EMOTIONAL DAY IN MY 2010.
As expected, I'm running for SBO, and not just a position, BUT THE TOP POSITION :( It has been both overwhelming and emotional for me.
I've already said on my previous blog that if possible, I wouldn't want to run, pwede siguro kung lower positions but being a President isn't a joke. I mean okay, kaya ko kung sa kaya but it's not where everything counts, most of all I'm not that popular, I'm still a junior tapos kalaban ko Senior, tapos matagal na siya dun sa school. I mean WTF =))))))))) I can see the results already. haay.
But I'm so overwhelmed, I even cried kanina >.<>
I won't elaborate anymore. I'm both happy and sad for today. I'm not afraid to lose, I'm afraid to hurt those people who trusts me so much to put me in this position :(
Next friday would be the election so It would be busy days for me starting tomorrow.
Please pray for me :( or talk and give me advice right this time. I really need a helping hand. Thank you fellow bloggers.
Today was our unexpected Election day and it was supposedly held on Friday, but guess what? :D
I was re-elected as the President again. YIEEEE =))) It's overwhelming, really, being elected consecutively for president for three years in my HS life. Haha, it just means my classmates trust me. Aww =)) Or maybe they see me as more considerate than some of my competitors.
So because it was classroom election today, tomorrow would be the meeting for SBO offcials, it was a tradition since last year that SBO officials would come from class officers. Kaya ayun, maraming nag-uudyok na tumakbo daw ako, even some of my teachers say so.
I'm still undecided yet because as much as I can, I want to focus on my studies and avoid complications by this year and our Guidance Counselor already asked me for his Peers Councilor Club, so yeah, I don't know If I would be running again because it would be a lot of work and it depends on the SBO adviser for this year. Kasi nga nasabi ko na din dito sa blog na yung Adviser last year wala namang nagawa, edi pati kami walang nagawa.
During Lunchtime, a friend asked me or rather talked to me. Si Obsequio, yung Boy trying not to be Gay na nai-blog ko. Haha. He asked me 'sino bago?' so syempre obvious na yung tanong niya, sabi ko naman wala but he still insists na may tinatago daw ako. LOL =)) sabi ko naman pano niya nasabi na meron nga? eh kasi lagi daw ako online tapos lagi daw ako nakasmile tapos lagi daw akong blooming. echos. haha. Ganun lang talaga ako, I hate complicated things and frowning won't lessen the problems in the world.
Pero actually meron, hindi ko lang feel kung meron pa ba talaga, parang wala na lang. Edi much better kung hindi ko na lang intindihin, Isa lang naman talaga yung inintindi ko eh =))) And I think he still thinks about me because of that `relationship request' on facebook. HAH =)) but we haven't talk for a long time now. So ayun, dahil ayaw ko naman sabihin at wala naman talaga akong sasabihin, we end up shooting clues about our crushes :"> syempre I won't blog about everything na kasi mahaba saka madetalye, but it was super tawa scene :"> Kasi adik ako eh, lol.
I know I'm a private person, some people even see me as mysterious. LOL =)) Pero siguro I just don't want too much people in my personal life, I just give high regard for my privacy and I'm also aware that not every people can understand you, so to avoid misinterpretations and complications, I'd rather not let anyone carry my cross. It would be useless and can be a problem for me. If I would have a special someone in the future, I would probably share it on my blog instead on the real people in my life. I don't want people minding my business that much, It may cause bankruptcy. Haha, specially in high school. I don't want everyone talking about US =)) I don't want too many people know about us because It may be used as a weapon against me, lalo na kapag mag competition sa classroom :D So ayun lang, only a few people knows majority about me, and it doesn't also mean that what I show people as me is Fake, It's true, but not the whole true me. I hope you know what I mean :)
Another shitty thing about school is the competition, lalo na pag sa first section, I mean it's already normal pero sana naman walang personalan di ba? =)) Typical of us filipinos, we don't want anyone better than us even its your friend or fellow citizen. Db sana be happy for each other na lang? Aware naman siguro sila na we have our abilities and liabilities, nagkataon na mas magaling lang ako sa kanila =)) chos. haha. Pero ayun nga, since they are/were my friends, I tried not to always participate para hindi masabihan ng kung ano, for their sake, pero alam mo yun? Wala na nga ako masyadong ginagawa, hindi na nga ako naka full effort grabe pa rin sila makapuna sakin. ): Included na yung position ko sa classroom since 1st year. TSK =)) Oh well, Maybe they get more irritated when I seem unaffected by their stare and issues about me. I still laugh hard and it seems to annoy them more =))) lulz. Okay, ano naman kasi mapapala ko kung papansinin ko yung mga reklamo nila saken? as far as I'm concerned is just I'm doing my best and It's not my fault if I seem dominant around the class. tsk.
I'm not boasting, I just know how to accept things mildly.
kthnxbye :) I have lots of research, reports and HW, just wish me luch for tomorrow :) GOOD DAY BLOGGERS :)
I have been receiving awkward compliments since Summer.
Most of my mom's friends have been saying na `Yan na ba yung anak mo? Pumayat siya` tapos ako mag s-smile na lang :)) Lalo na nung before recognition tapos pagsasabi ng nanay ko na top 2 ako edi syempre ganun. Tapos sa school, a lot of new faces have been greeting me tapos some of my friends nag cocomment ng magaganda sa facebook, tapos pati teachers :))) lol talaga.
I mean, it's not that I hate receiving compliments, I'm just afraid with the consequences it might bring. Kung sasabihin ko naman na di ako natutuwa sa napapansin nila kalokohan na yun, natutuwa ako syempre, pero ayoko lang masyado tumaas yung expectations ng tao saken. I don't want other people or people around me to see me as lucky or perfect, yung ibang Parents ng classmates ko sasabihin `Ayan tingnan mo si Zaira, dapat ganyan ka din` ayoko ng ganun kasi minsan mahirap maging role model ng iba, kasi hindi naman ako perfect, saka ayoko ng may qouta palagi, minsan nakakapagod na din magisip everytime may gagawin ka kasi baka biglang mag iba yung tingin ng tao sayo.
Ayoko din masanay sa ganito, na laging proud yung tao saken, kasi baka biglang bumagsak sa isang iglap na pagkakamali ko. Ayoko masanay sa ganito kasi pano pag nag College ako? :) Ayoko lumaki ulo ko :)) I mean minsan kasi di maiiwasan na umakyat yung iba dun, ayoko masanay. Ayoko masanay na inaabot lahat ng expectations. Ayoko masanay na lahat ng gagawin ko bilang. Minsan nasosobrahan na ako sa perception ng mga tao saken.
I'm not that perfect, lalo na ngayon. Ayoko mawalan ng karapatan maging mahina.
I wasn't able to blog days before the school starts because my Dad arrived, so it was just the time we prepared everything. He arrived 5 days before school and he had lots of plan so it was a total rush hour.
We went to MOA to fix the iPod and my Laptop and bought some things. Wala lang, napagod lang kami, It was really big na mabibitin ka lang. Ang daming sosyal =)) I was sight-seeing most of the time. Hah! Ayun, we also went to my lola in Pampanga and I saw my cousins again tapos ayun, puro kwentuhan lng over the weekend. We got home Monday morning tapos derecho bili ng school supplies kaya ayun, super puyat before tuesday. >_<>
First Day - I was undecided whether to wear uniform or civilian so I was texting with some of my classmates the last minute >_<>
I arrived a little late at school and the gym was already crowded. It was irritating, The assembly, the line ups and everything, I hope it was just like last year that we would go directly to our classrooms and start the `kaekekan` inside. It was obviously unorganized because the lines were broken and of course, students are enthusiastic and noisy and crazy chit-chatting with friends they missed. They should have known it would happen and they shouldn't mixed us up with the elementary pupils.
The number of students are surprisingly many. So many faces and new teachers, I actually felt like a transferee if I haven't seen my friends. The first year consists of 6 sections, so Imagine, around 200 estimated new students plus transferees from the higher levels. There were a lot of repeaters too. Our section was also mixed up, some of my classmates last year were transferred to other sections and other section to us but they made arrangements na wag na sila ilipat, so we ended up with 6 new classmates. 4 girls, 1 from C. 2 boys, 1 from B.
The flag ceremony was boring. I mean for us old students, It's not that FUN anymore, plus the HEAT! OHMYGOD, I know you would agree that it's very very abnormal. Nakakamatay, kahit nakaupo ka lang tutulo pawis mo. Literally. I wasn't paying attention most of the time, all I did was laugh, hug, shout and poink my friends. HOHO =)))
Second Day - It was subject orientation day, some of the new teacher already gave their requirements and grading system, but not all of them were able to enter our class. So I can say second day was the `Start of the schoolyear`
Our adviser gave us our schedule, and it was okay at first. Ang dami naming break at vacant, hehe. Almost 2 hours ata yun tapos in between classes, last subjects pa ang Chem and History. Pero pagbalik ng adviser namin iba na >_<>Anak ng banak, PAMATAY~ considering na tapat pa kami ng faculty. AS IN.
7:00 - 8:00: Chemistry
8:00 - 9:00: English
9:00 - 9:40: History
9:40 - 10:00: Recess
10:00 - 10:40: Computer (W-TH)
10:40 - 11:40: Math
11:40 - 12:20: Filipino
12:20 - 1:00: LUNCH
1:00 -1:40: T.L.E
1:40 - 2:20: Mapeh
2:00 - 2:40: VACANT
See? IT'S SO UGH! CHEMISTRY SA UMAGA. walanjo! Tapos sino ba may gusto mag break ng uwian? =))) We realized it was so lame nung nagovertime yung Filipino teacher namin, edi syempre konti na lang yung lunch time. Nakakainis yung teacher na Late, tapos overtime pa. Ang lupit mangain ng oras yun. Masaya na sana yung una naming sched para may time kami magkopyayan sa umaga tuwing M, T, F. Di ba ang saya nun? LOL =))) Nakakainis yung vacant namin. Wala, tunganga lang kami niyan dahil bawal naman umuwi ng wala pang 3. Hay nako. SOBRANG INIT PA. Tapos super daming requirements, I mean kung ganun sana after na ng first day namili =)) ang te-arts pa sa Cattleya, may kulay na kailangan pa coveran ng colored paper. Haaaaay.
Third Day - MAJOR BV. Nagpa assignment ng bonggang bonga, buti na lang hi-tech na magkopyhan ngayon, via Facebook at Y!M na. =))
Ayun, the same routine. Thank god for bloopers because I'm major sabaw =))) I mean parang sobra sobra yung adrenaline ko na automatic yung jokes at humor ko. So not me, the serious look type na umeenglish pa =D Haay, I mean yun yung masaya eh, yung hindi sinasadyang joke or yung singit na mga banat :D Laughtrip. Minsan I feel stupid, yung kapag nag mumulti task, lalo na kapag puyat feeling mo talaga groggy. We had this grouping on English, syempre counting yun di ba? so nag count in eh may ginagawa ako, kaya pagabot saken nagkamali =)))) Instead na 1 ulit nasabi ko yung kasunod na number which is 7, eto naman si Jayvee tawa agad. LOL =)) Okay na din, sabay sabay kaming magugutom at naghihiraman ng pamaypay.
Fourth Day - TGIF :D today was okay, ewan. Most of us feels like it's already the middle of the schoolyear, pano ba naman may quizz na. Tapos BV sa MATH =))) I SWEAR, nahihirapan ako. It's effin confusing. Parang umiikot ikot lang yung rules, Imagine sasabihin mo lang kung Function or Not major nakakalito. Hay nako.
Then ayun, Lunch tumambay lang kami sa hallway tapos laughtrip, bawat dumadaan magtatawanan kami. Ang dami talagang bago, =))) may kamuka pa yung ex ko. LULZ =)) I mean it feels like so different yet familiar. We tried to play volleyball nung uwian pero ewan, hindi na ako sanay kasi wala na si Gillian :( wala na din yung adviser namin. Haaay. Nakakamiss, yung mga wala na. Major nakakamiss kasi honestly once upon a time nag wish ako na umalis na sila, Last memory na namin yung swimming nung March at yung Fieldtrip. It feels odd to see new faces sa dati mong classroom. IDK, maybe I just attach myself so much to things that occupied a special phase in my life. TGIF!
Being a Junior, It still feels like the same. Siguro I would say that the best year was Freshmen year, kahit may mga conflicts it was the most enthusiastic and unexpected and exciting year, alam mo yung feeling na your just so full of it :)) Haaaay, I wish this year would be fun and smooth for all of us, despite the changes.
Goodluck to us for SY: 2010 - 2011
And It was also my blog's first birthday last June, 12. Independence Day :D Sorry if I wasn't able to blog anything about independence.
I MISS BLOGGING :D I don't know how to start and end an entry anymore :D so since my last update which was March 5, tons of things happened :D
March 11: NAT - grabe =)) seriously, NAKAKAANTOK :|
the exam started around 7:30 with the first 3 subjects, English, Filipino and Biology. I was super sleepy. English was just about reading comprehension tapos lots of common sense, basta nakaantok :D yung katabi ko pa ang bilis bilis matapos, nasa Filipino pa lang ako kalahati na siya ng BIO :D kaya ayun, I didn't take it too seriously :)
It was AP and Math after Lunch :D I answered AP first so I could balance my time for math, AP was more sleepy than English considering that we just finished eating LUNCH :D ang sarap matulog nun, plus it was mostly opinion, ang hahaba pa so I was never sure of anything there. Math was pretty easy, it doesn't include too many hard equations and most answers are alreadt obvious with the choices.
bottomline: 3 lang ata yung sumama sa nireview namin :D
March 16 to 18: FINALS. It was easy, I would say :) siguro kasi tinamad na yung teachers na gumawa pa ng mahirap na exams kung nag pinetensya na kami sa clearance at semi-finals.
We didn't have much time to prepare for finals because they decided to have the clearance signing first for us to take the exam. It was a total failure :| they flooded us with out of this world requirements for just a WEEK! tapos meron pa kaming shooting for RHGP. If it's really possible to die of stress, we already died :\
March 19: we were told to come back for the completion of our clearance and our practical exam on MAPEH. It was FUN :D most of free time and bonding bonding moments, It was also the day when Crystel and Lorielle told us about our Advisers plan to held a party, sort of a despedida party for him.
I told them it is not practical kasi wala ng class, marami ng wala. tapos mahirap na i-plano dahil wala na kaming regular meetings. Some of my friends suggested to have a swimming party instead but it's more expensive and will eat a lot of time. But Crystel and Lorielle still insisted so I told them `kayo bahala, basta out ako jan ha` I didn't like the plan and I know they would seek my help considering that I'm the president. HAH! matatapos na lang ang SY sasakit pa ulo ko? =))) ASA.
Throughout the weekend, they announced na pumasok kami ng monday para sa contribution and everything for the party, pagdating ng monday na pumasok kami :| ayun! we just got upset =)) kasi syempre yung iba nag expect na pinapunta na kami dun kasi ok na lahat, kumbaga final touches na lang taos ayun, wala pa pala silang plano, naupset pa ata sa mga suggestions ko. NAMAN! ngkasagutan pa sila ni Jayvee dahil biglang nag walk out. BV. so ayun, dahil sa inis namin, kumain na lang kami ng halo halo at nag siomai tapos out of the blue nagsuggest sila `tayo na lang kaya mag-plano` then saktong tumawag dad ko, sabay `TING` an idea popped in my head, bakit kaya hindi na lang ako gumawa ng paraan? :D ayun! I told my dad na mag blow-out ako kasi may place ako =)) then he said, OKAY! then VIOLA! sagot ko na yung pool pero KKP kami :D kanya kanyang pagkain.
March 28: SWIMMING :D It was heaven =))
ang sarap sarap ng feeling ko, it was like a self-fulfillment because I hitched the second top :D tapos iba din yung feeling na `most people wants you to be on the top` ang sarap ng feeling na kahit hindi ka best, best naman yung feeling mo :D I can say that all my hard words paid off. lahat ng sama ng loob, lahat ng luha at pawis the whole year nag paid off, specially with th matter of friendship :D una pa lang kasi ng pasukan, goal ko na iwasan ang conflicts and to bring us `tighter` ayun :DD NATUPAD ((((: I can say that my life is already complete. May online at offline life ako, yung lovelife ok din naman, yung FRIENDS to the highest level :D I can not ask for more :D
This summer I promise to catch up with my teentalk and cyber friends :D
Can you feel the pressure? It's getting closer now.
Yeah, we're getting so CLOSE that's why they're pouring us their final shits :| I don't know, sometimes I wonder kung bakit matatapos na lang ang lahat kailangan pa tayo pahirapan :| although not pure stress because you stil have to strive and be happy or at least enjoy what you are doing to lessen the Pressure.
Time flies so fast because it's March already and we haven't even absorbed February yet. I know the people who feels this pressure most are the graduating students :) They will enter a new chapter with doubts, excitement and anticipation on what awaits for them, and even for us and my friends.
Another school year is about to end again and we'll be turning Juniors :( I can't believe it, our Freshmen days are still lingering in our memories but we can't be just bystanders, even we like it or not, we GROW UP and sometimes it also means a heavier load of responsibilities and everything. It's just scary sometime because we don't know what might happen :| our adviser already told us that he'll be leaving and there's a large possibility that some of my classmates would be transferred to other section, a switch swatch might occur :| some of my friends are even consider to transfer schools :|
As March approaches we had our Regional Test and another two more exam to come :| Finals and NAT :| I think NAT would we a lesser concern because I'm not even planning to focus on it, It's just another kaekekan of our Government to make students suffer :| Intelligence nor personality can never be measured on how you shade A,B,C or D :) and we all know that :D so bahala sila sa buhay nila, I don't care if I don't get perfect or a high grade, maybe I'll give more concern for NCAE or any other Entrance exam when I reach 4th year.
Before Finals, they gave us the different requirements for our Clearance signing, and for teachers :| it's PAYBACK time :( some of them even require the impossible :| We even have to compile our testpapers and projects :| so most of us think `where the hell will I look for them?` kasi yung iba malamang tinapon or na misplace na :| so It's really really a big problem :|
I'm sorry if my updates are getting more and more out of date, blogging just became boring for me these past few days, even surfing the net bored me :| I just wanted to sleep and sleep and wait for the next day to go to school and bum most of the time =)) because I can sense that even the teachers feel lazy to have a lesson proper, considering the school year is about to end :|
As for Summer, I'm not that very much excited, because I'm sure :| I'll just rot here at home or tumblr and teentalk all day :) I even missed foruming =))))) I wish my mom would have plans :| because my dad moved his vacation on June :| so it is a major BV.
So this is all for now fellow bloggers :) I hope you're all doing fine and goodluck for everything :) I hope we can survive till the end of March.
I haven't blog for a long time already, and it's because of the mixed up events that happened.
Why do I still blog? :) maybe because blogger is a lot different than any of my accounts in the Internet World, for a short span of time I've already found home and comfort here. I don't want to leave yet even if I have a Tumblr because I consider blogger as more likely to a Diary.
With my stay in Tumblr, I've noticed some things that would help me to stay here, I've noticed that the way of blogging there is based on popularity, followers and your Typo`s rather than on the content of the entry and the personality of the person itself. Not that I'm criticizing it or what, I just noticed that most of the bloggers are transferring there already because It's said to be easier, and I agree, everything is easy there, just a click then you blogged already :| so the sense of online journal is somewhat changed, It's already changed of typos and haters everywhere :|.
I don't care whether I still have a reader or not, I'm blogging to express myself and not to impress others of what I blog :) I love blogger as what it is even though Tumblr is easier. There are just things that is better on the way it is and it becomes lame when over improved :)
So going through, I'm planning to change my layout and I just don't have the time to do it and also to blog. There are so many things that Happened since I last blogged so I won't narrate all of it.
Last week, We had this film making for values as a substitute for our pre-finals, and it consumed so much of my time plus stress plus pressure plus sakit sa ulo :D
Originally, our teacher assigned one College Student for each groups our section was divided into two and it will stand as their project, but unfortunately, our college instructor contributed NOTHING, we waited alsmost a week for him to act but still nothing, so we suggested that we better start the film because we're running out of time. Then ayun, instant sakit sa ulo :| kasi we're still noobs on this field and we don't know what to do at first, ilang beses tuloy kami umulit :| plus the editing. nainis pa ko dun sa kagroup namin :| kasi he's asking us to pay kahit kaya naman niya dahil siya yung nagedit, ang laki pa nung hinihingi :| kesyo ganyan ganito daw :| I just thought na sana yun na lang yung contribution niya sa buong film :| saka nainis ako dun sa leader ng kabilang group :|
My exam results was awesome :D compared to the previous quarter, I can say that I'm back to normal :) maybe because I was determined to regain my grades :| Biology was a total b*tch, we had genetics and it waaaaaaaaaaaas HARD :| but luckily I passed for the grade of 82%, tapos 4 lang kami pumasa. :| highest was 83 :)
So SUMMER is fast approaching :) but before we get there, we have to go through hell :D there's still finals and the NAT exam, then we have to approve our clearance before we can take the finals. talk about requirements :| eh madalas nirerequire pa yung MASS CARDS saka TESTPAPERS :| I don't even know where to find them anymore :|
I promise to update more often specially if I have time :) I miss you dear bloggers :) I miss my teentalk friends too :(( pero hindi na ako makapagopen sa kanila.
I still have so maaaaany things to say but I don't know where to start :)
It had been a very Stressful Week for most of us, and I have so many things to rant about. I'm apologizing in Advance :) Sorry/
It's ironic that people never gets SATISFIED. When you gave 99.9 percent of what you have and you saved just 1% for yourself, at kapag dinemand nila yung 1 percent na yun kailangan ibigay mo, dahil kung hindi. MASAMA KA!
It's fvking hilarious! lalo na sa ibang classmates and groupmates ko, they NEVER appreciate anything I DO! :|
Last Friday was our fieldtrip then we had so many deadlines last Monday, and It was also the day that they announced the upcoming literary contest. We were like `WTF! gusto niyo talaga kaming patayin`? then they told us the possible contests which were Impromptu, Declamation, Essay, Poem Making and Speech choir.
The rest was just fine because It's an Individual game and do not requires practices except the speech choir and we only have four days! IMAGINE :o you have to memorize the piece first before you can to practice, ang HIRAP nun. yung sabayan nga namin inabot ng 1 month. 0.o Fortunately, they realized how hard it was so they changed it to Story Telling. I was like,`anong konek?` edi parang yung Story Teller lang yung may silbi kasi LITERARY CONTEST nga and it's ENGLISH WEEK. pero ayun, wala naman kaming magagawa kasi hindi naman kami pwedeng `hindi sumali` dahil mapapahiya ang section namin.
So here comes the STRESS. It's mainly Me, Lorielle and Crystel who manages and organizes everything kasi wala namang pakealam yung iba. They just want everything without even helping.
Day 1: Monday
They gave us the Piece entitled NUTCRACKER AND THE SEVEN MOUSE KING and the number of maximum participants was just 20 and it would be Section VS. Section. We asked them `sino gustong sumali`? konti lang nagtaas ng kamay, siguro mga 15 yun kasi yung iba tinatamad, edi sinulat na ni Crystel lahat, sabi niya `wala na ba talaga? sige, bahala kayo` then after a few subjects, Lorielle spilled the bean, sabi niya `sino pa gusto humabol? may incentive na additional grade to` edi sh|t DUMAMI bigla.
See? most of them are .... UNDESERVING.
Another Conflict was; the number of people who wants to join exceed more than 20, eh yung mga hindi na makakasali `nagtatampo, nagagalit at nagrereklamo` sa amin dahil daw bakit sila ay hindi kasali. kahit anong explain namin na `kasi 20 lang talaga yung maximum` ayun, KAMI pa rin ang masama. :| We figured and figured and figured out how to solve that thing, yung makakapagsimula kami ng practice without conflicts, so we talked to some of them na sa ganito na lang sumali, so yung iba ok na. pero we're still more than 20 :| edi nagusap kaming tatlo na kung pwedeng kami na lang yung mag give way kasi may iba pa naman kaming sinalihan, :| we chose the students qualified to the character pero may nagsabi pa na `kailangan ba maganda para makasali`? NAKAKAINIS, they're so close-minded, makitid ang utak, gusto nila yung gusto nila ang masusunod kahit hindi naman tama, gusto nila sila na nga isasali sila din yung lead role. BWISIT.
That's also the fact that they're throwing at me. `ako din naman daw eh, gusto ko dn naman daw yung KAILANGAN lagi nasusunod` oo nga, nandun na tayo, gusto ko yung plano ko nasusunod, pero ang point ko `HELLO! yung TAMA ko ba NAKASAMA sa kahit kanino sa inyo?` HELLO, hindi ba kayo nakinabang sa mga GUSTO ko?` db? nakakainis, the plans I'm making is not only intended to BENEFIT ME, I sort out so many plans just to fit for everyone! tapos ako MASAMA? tss, ayun, si Lorielle at Dacuyan kinausap na lang yung English Teacher na gawing 25 yung maximum participants, buti na lang pumayag. FIRST CASE SOLVED.
DAY 2: Tuesday, Practice Proper.
No specific time or free time was given to us so we have no choice but to practice after class hours. The intended time was 3:00 - 4:00 pm for practice. Pero bago yun, some of them are already asking me `may practice ba talaga`? yung simpleng tanong na yun nakakainis na eh, kasi naman, determinado sila masyado masali dun si play pero ayaw nila magpractice? WTF db? :(((
DAY 3: Wednesday
Almost nangangalahati na kami ng piece. Para hindi masyadong exhausting, we have 10 minutes break every after 3 scenes, pero nung araw na yun, lumabas sila ng campus para bumili ng pagakain, pero 30 minutes na wala pa sila :||||| BWISIT. so kaming mga naghihintay naiinis na, may isa pa dun nagsabi na `blah blah blah` haay, I was furious that time pero hindi na lang ako umiimik, kasi when I start ranting, I won't stop until you cry. >:| nakakainis, parang gusto ko sabihin na `anong karapatan mo magreklamo kung wala naman pumilit sayong sumali dito? extra ka lang magrereklamo ka pa, hindi ka nabibilad sa araw nagrereklamo ka? wala ka na ngang ginagawa magrereklamo ka? putangina mo umalis ka na kung ganyan lang din gagawin mo` bwisit :| feeling pa importante pa sya.
eto pa mainly nakakainis, nagpapraktice kami and sinasabi ko yung scene, yung gagawin nila and bla bla bla, pero alam mo yun? tatahimik at makikinig na lang ang gagawin nila hindi pa nila magawa, kailangan pa sawayin. BWISIT :|| nakakapagod sumaway ng taong hindi marunong sumunod, rereklamo sila na `ANG INT` eh bakit sila lang ba naiinitan? :((
DAY 4:Thursday
Props making. fail pa nga yung props namin compared sa iba, kasi hindi na kami nag contribute or gumastos dahil madalian yung event, saka ayoko na ng maraming satsat, alam mo naman ang tao pagdating sa pera. tsk tsk, so LAHAT ng props tinapos na then assign ng lahat ng costume na isusuot. Also tinapos na lahat ng pending scenes para konting polishing na lang after. Hindi ako masyado napagod this day kasi ok na, bahala na sila sa buhay nila kung hindi sila susunod :| pero deep inside, gusto ko sila sumbatan lahat. :| na SUNBURN pa nga kami ni Angel eh :|
DAY 5: Contest Proper
Wala ng klase this day kasi super practice na talaga, edi polishing na lang. naka isang practice lang kami that morning dahil ang TAMLAY nila, walang gana bla bla bla, then every scene na matatapos sila umaalis sila, KAYA NAKAKAINIS! kasi magtatawag ka pa ng nawawalang tupa everytime na sila na. nakakainis ulit :| tapos kasali pa ko sa Impromptu pero sa kanila ako nag fofocuse kahit wala silang mga pakealam. I'm just thankful dun sa mga hindi sumali na MAS MARAMI pa natulong, saka kay Gillian, Ann, Lorielle, Angel and Crystel na hindi nagpasaway at super tumulong.
Before the program started napaiyak talaga ako. nakakainis na kasi talaga, we had one LAST practice na namin yun with all the costume and props pero yung mga MALALANDING BABAE make up ang inaatupag, sabi ko naman `3rd to the last tayo, bago tayo mag perform, lusaw na yang make up na yan` saka hello? mga 30 seconds nga lang sila dun eh BWISIT eh, FEELING SILA. tss, hindi na lang ako nagsasalita kahapon dahil ayaw ko na ng away.
Luckily, my performance was good daw, yung Story telling naman ok din, kahit papano nakaraos kami. tapos kanina may REVIEW kami ng NAT tapos Birthday ni Aerian. Talk about STRESS :|
Respect others opinion.
Know when to be SENITIVE
SHUT UP when you have to
Learn to Listen
Accept your Mistakes
Know you LIMITATIONS
Put FIRST things FIRST
Stand with your decision.
Mean what you SAY
Act first before you COMPLAIN
So okay, Lesson Learned. Even though I went through hell.
As I've promised, I'll post about this right after the exact day but I was too tired last Saturday and the coming days would be so hectic because of the upcoming literary contest on Friday so I'll just rant about it now.
It was so FUN although I thought it would be BORING.
Right after the last day of exam which was thursday, We had an orientation about the should and should not to do`s at the fieldtrip and also about the 98% percent incentive in our exam and as a result many of us was pissed off because there are so many `BAWAL` so we though `WTF, nag pa fieldtrip pa sila` and the seating arrangement was messy. :|
When Friday came, we had a 5 am assembly at the gym because the supposed time of departure is at 5:30 but because of latecomers, we were able to depart at almost 6 am.
Our bus was FULL kasi kami lang yung bus na puno ang jumpseat :) we were with first year. I was quiet at the beginning of the trip because I was thinking of my brother, nagaalala ako kasi baka hindi sya okay dun and bla bla bla, plus my camera's flash is broken so I wasn't able to capture photographs at the bus. But as the trip went on, ang ingay na =))) kasi our seating arrangement is yung pahaba, isang pahaba kaming second year, from front to back then everyone was passing food all over the bus =)) laging `pasa mo to` then babalik dun na owner na wala ng laman =))) Hindi ko nga nagalaw yung mga baon ko dahil pasa sila ng pasa =))
Me, Jayvee, Angel
First Destination - our first destination was the Bangko Sentral, but before we got there, a super FUNNY scene happened =)). Ayun nga, on the way kami papunta dun kaya syempre may mga sasakyan kaming nakakasabay, but one Bus caught our eye, kasi ka bus number namin sila which is BUS #6 =)) eh malalakas ang trip nung iba, kaway dito kaway dun, tapos may nakapost na number pala dun sa bintana ng kabilang bus =)) edi ako naman sabi ko `kunin niyo kunin niyo, ang gwapo nung nakasakay oh` =))))))) eh kinuha naman nila :D kaya ayun, instant textmate daw. haha =)) It was so Hilarious!
When we were already inside, camera's are not allowed so wala, BORING. tapos napahiya pa ko :D GRABE! kasi I was looking for my brother, so nung nakita ko yung classmate niya kinalabit ko `ui, nasan si Edrian` then nung hindi siya sumagot, I realized na kamuka lang pala niya yun =))))) edi strike 1 na yun kaya ang ginawa ko, niyakap ko yung nasa unahan ko sa sobrang pagkapahiya. sabi ko `shit! nakakahiya.!` tapos nung lumingon siya saken. GAAAH! first year pala yun~ akala ko classmate ko =)))) grabe. :D I apologized immediately then walked away. LOL =)) tawa tuloy kami ng tawa ng classmates ko habang pabalik na sa Bus.
2nd Destination - The National Museum, out tour guide told us na isang ikot na lang daw kami dun then balik na agad sa bus kasi nag exceed yung time namin sa BPS. Nothing much happened, nakita lang namin yung Manungul Jar =)) LOL
3rd Destination - we went to fort Santiago to have Lunch, so eto na yun =)) picture taking then we rode kalesa :)
Crystel and Me
Cathy, Crystel, Me
muka kaming tanga dito :D
(L-F: Angel, Crystel, Ann, Me. Lorielle,Joanne)
4th Destination - Malacanang Palace. as usual, camera's are not allowed inside so wala lang =)) namangha lang kami dun sa laman ng museum.
Final Destination -STAAAAR CITY =)) so eto na, eto na yung pinakahihintay namin pero dahil KJ ang driver, ang tagal pa namin naghintay dun kasi hinintay pa yung ibang bus para daw sabay sabay. tss. tapos sa bus pa lang nagsisigawan na na lahat daw sasakyan, may minus ang hindi sumakay =))
It was so Fun kasi sama sama kami =)) akala nga namin hindi ganun ka crowded kasi nga January na, pero unfortunately ang dami ring students kaya ayun. We decided na Gabi ng Lagim muna kami =)) GRABE =)) tsansing time daw kasi grabe magkapitan tapos tulakan, may mga nadapa pa. LOL. Next was the Anchors Away, This time hindi na kami complete kasi nag back out si Crystel =)) umiyak pa kasi hindi daw niya kaya, so ayun =)) eh ang haba ng pila kaya super tagal namin naghintay saka in order na sabay sabay kami, ang dami naming napauna T_T :D pero GRABE, laughtrip kami habang nakapila kasi nakikita namin yung expression ng ibang nakasakay =)) yung iba ang yabang pa kasi nasa dulo pa sila =)) pero pag baba namumutla. haha =))
Tapos ayun, naaawa ako kay Angel kasi dun siya sa dulo napwesto kasi wala ng iba, ayun tuloy =)) hindi na siya sumakay sa iba kasi baka daw masuka na siya =)). 3rd was the SKY FLYER =)) dito 2 na lang kami ni Jamaica sumakay, kasi yung adviser namin sumingit sa pila kaya nauna tuloy siya :| eh ayaw naman nung iba kaya kami na lang ni Jamaica yung pumila ng halos isang oras =)) pero it was worth it =)) GRABE. =)) then pagbaba namin saktong yung iba nakapila sa Surf Dance =)) eto naman yung ride na super laughtrip =))) namutla talaga yung adviser namin dito =)) pinagtatawanan niya pa kami nung una pero siya namutla na =)) Last was the Wild River :) kasama ko dito yung Crush ko kaya ayun =)) todo kapit ako. LOL =)) pero ayos lang, walang masyadong thrill tapos amoy suka pa yung tubig =))
It was already almost 9pm after the wild river kaya sabi ng adviser namin, mamili na daw kami or kumain para makaalis na =)) So it was ALL :D nag consume kasi ng maraming time yung haba ng pila. But overall it was fun :) kasi sama sama kami :) and it was so different from last year's Trip.
Tapos eto pa pala, kasi si Ex told me days before the trip that he might come that time so ako naman mejo na-excite :D pero nung almost 8 na he texted me na may lakad daw sila kaya di siya matutuloy. At first I was disappointed kasi once in a blue moon chance na yun, pero hindi ko na din pinansin, I was too happy to be sad that time saka naisip ko din na anong sense na magkita pa kami kung wala na rin naman db? :) So again, It's just positivity. LOL.
When we were already at the Bus, our adviser announced that we will not have out NAT review that coming Saturday kaya masaya na =)) Super Sakit ng braso at katawan ko pagdating ng Sat =)) I just slept and slept and slept :)
Mejo Masaya na ulit ako :) because I realized that maybe being positive was all I ever needed to be happy :) pero syempre, all of us can't stop feeling down/negative sometimes.
Positivity started last Monday.
I was really down during the weekend because our adviser already broke the news about the top ten last friday so I was really bothered during the weekend - kaya hindi ako nakapagblog - it was Crystel's birthday last Saturday so mejo hindi ako emo =)) but I really wanted to cry while singing videoke that day. Basta~ sama sama pa kasi yung issue tungkol kay ex tapos yung grades ko pa. I just sang my heart out that day even though I'm a horrible songer. LOL
Monday came and our adviser gave us our Card and Class picture. upon seeing my grades, I was like `ok naman pala eh` :)) and of course I looked at the difference and it was good overall :D malinis pa rin yung records ko.
In Math, I got 87 out of 91 from last grading and 90 out of 95 for MAPEH. Bio became 90 out of 88 and Makabayan from 92 from 91 and the rest was just 1 point higher/lower. Overall, I only got one line of 8 and the rest is 90-92 :D
That time I already felt relieved kasi wala pa rin naman akong mababa, I just dropped to rank 7 because some of my classmates excelled this grading, pero nung inisip ko ulit yung average nila at average ko, I told myself `babawi na lang ako` kasi my average was about 90.24 tapos yung top two 90.88 or something, yung nauna naman saken .2 points ahead lang =)))) kaya that time pag uwi ko sabi ko agad sa mom ko `babawiin ko na lang ha` tapos ayun, no reaction na :D pero I was already happy kaya hindi ko na pinansin =)) tapos ewan ko, my quizzes are almost perfect, more or less 2-5 mistakes lang =)) siguro nga `failure is the best motivation` kasi kung tao yung magiging motivation mo mahirap dahil `people change` so you don't have stability on your mind, kaya okay na rin to :) determined akong bumawi.
Second; This day was BLOOPERS DAY :)
I had so much fun plus the COOOOOLD WEATHER and it's FRIDAAAAAAAY =))
So ayun, I was really in a good mood today kasi mahaba yung tulog ko.
Biology - our topic was the great REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM and of course it involves FAMILY PLANNING so you know the drill when discussions trigger the `curiosity` of the students. The period was so ALIVE =)) walang tulog. HAHA
English - we have a new teacher since Monday so she conducted a new seating arrangement for her time and the thing is, my seatmate was the GUY pretending to be a GIRL I told you about on my previous entries. I was so annoyed and irritated to him kasi ang INGAY!~ echosero, feelingero at pakielamero pa kaya naiinis ako. Ayun, I was passing notes with Lorielle the whole period kasi ayoko siya pansinin.
MAPEH - we had a quiz then our teacher discussed about baseball/softball. We should have played it today but our teacher said we don't have enough equipments plus it's a little bit dangerous, kaya ayun =)) the Boys played Volleyball instead. SUPER LAUGHTRIP <3.>ang lalakas kasi ng trip nila :D
Values - our values teacher who's also our guidance counselor was busy so he just announced something and gave us the remaining time to PLAAAAAAY.
Math- we had a quiz about quadrilaterals, ratio and proportion and of course, IT WAS BLOODY =)) kasi alam mo yun, kahit pagaralan mo pa, pagdating sa Geometry may mga bagay talagang mahirap intindihin, lalo na pag yung problem parang impossible i-solve saka yung mga basic math operations kasi nakalimutan na namin, specially FRACTIONS! yung how to convert to decimal, tapos may LCD blah blah pa, tapos transposition and integers pa. EFF =)) db db? nakaka~ masasabi mo na lang na `ha? may ganito ba? b'at may ganito? =)) buti na lang may seatmate ako na alam.
LUNCH - lunchbreak is about 2 hours, kasi undertime yung math namin, then wala kaming Computer because it's Friday.
Out of BOREDOM, Angel told me that she wanted to PLAY pero dahil nga wala na yungbola ng volleyball samen ayaw sumali nung iba =)) kaya sabi niya `taya-tayaan na lang tayo, ako taya` =)) ayun, dalawa kaming parang tangang naghahabulan, pero nung mejo tumagal :D marami ng sumali, naging 5 ata kami =))))) then nung super pagod na kami, AYAWAN NA. LOL. After magpahinga, nagyaya na sila mag volleyball kasi may bola na nga kaya sumali ako :D Ayun, BLOOPERS ulit kasi mostly samen hindi naman magaling maglaro =))) madalas pang tamaan. haha
T.H.E - nag recitation lang. Yung isa isa pupunta sa Faculty alphabetically, so buong period petiks lang kami :D laro ulit
Social Studies - masyadong mabait yung sir namin kaya nagsabi lang ng Coverage ng Exam tapos `do-anything-what-you-want` ulit :D
Filipino - eto yung sir namin na PINAKAMABAIT =))) ito yung adviser ng last section saka yung kinwento ko na bantay namin nung sobrang kopyahan kami during exam. Dahil last subject na, almost lahat kami nasa field at naglalaro =)) kaya nung dumating siya ang ingaaay namin sa classroom =)) ayun, dahil 15 minutes na lang, nagbigay na lang siya ng exam =)))))
Everything happened with a blaaaaast =)) tapos may period pa ko. BV =)) pero di ko na inisip, minsan lang naman :D saka malamig eh, ang sarap sarap ng weather =)) parang airconditioned pa yung buong paligid :D
I wish everyone is Happy, even in their own ways :)
She loves life. She loves herself <3 She keeps in mind her positive thoughts because it makes things easier. She loves daydreaming & Rainbows. She Smiles. Always.
She's the type of girl who's cheerful and playful and topakin but keeps herself in a shell of seriousness and maturity.
She used to be careless of what others might feel with what she says, but one day she decided to SHUT up and BLOG it all <3 She knows that the people who reads her blog are one of a kind and doesn't judge.
She Blogs because when she grows old and have her own family. She'll have a token of how she lived her life.
Fast facts Angelyn Zaira Monarca Morales
Known as ZAI. Don't call me Angelyn! ;D 16 years young.
Filipino ♥
A certified Iska in UPLB studying Development Communication I love blogging, reading, sleeeeping and eating ;D
My favorite sport is SURFING... SURFING THE NET ;D Contact Me:
Wishlish ♥
▪ A Prince Charming. Haha ▪ A trip to Paris
▪ iPhone 4 iPad 2 :)
▪ PURPLE ROOM
▪ Learn how to use the Photoshop :|
▪ Adobe Photoshop CS4 :D
▪ I want to pass the UPCAT. ▪ Pink scooter =))
▪ Baby sister :((
▪ PEPPER SPRAY,
▪ Condominium unit.
▪ A Wardrobe full of new clothes.
▪ Happy Ending.
UP has been my dream school since God knows when and I was so damn lucky to be given the chance.
Nung pumasa ako, everything was still surreal and at first I didn't want to believe it's really true. Everything just slowly got into me when I recieved my admission letter and the attached forms. GRABEEEE! SOBRANG SAYA TO THE POINT NA NABABALIW NA KO SA KAKATAWA AT KAKATALON. HAHAHAHAHA. Saka iba pa yung feeling ko kasi nakapending case pa ako bago na resolve. So thankful.
Then today was my enrollment.
Mahirap kasi ang daming pila, dumaan pa sa medical na pagkatagal tagal para sa requirements. Ang daming requirements na nakakaasar pa dahil may hindi ako alam at nabubwisit ang nanay ko. Ang init. Nakakapagod. Pero nung nakuha ko na yung schedule at class cards, heaaaaaaven :)
Everytime I go to UPLB, am mesmerized. Pero siguro mawawala din to sa pagdaan ng panahon. I am really happy I am now an official "Iska" XD
YAY, I wanna start this year right by trying to revive my blogging spirits. First stop is that I've finally changed my layout and my default pic. hoho :) I'll also change my about me sections as soon as I can.
So this post will be about our Christmas Party Celebration.
Dec 13-15: It's our Periodicals and we had a very long line-up of deadline but as usual, it seems that I'm the only one who's too stressed about it in our group. Can you imagine to have your Social Studies deadline at the exact day of your Christmas Party? FML. So those days were cram cram cram :))) I have one very effective technique in cramming. `Sleep is all you need` coz if you study when you're sleepy, nothing goes into your head. :D So I was like `fuck this. I'm gonna finish this project then sleep` :))) Tapos kinabukasan na ako magrereview :D Thank God I'm exempted in some subjects as incentives to our recent activities.
On the last day of exam, I was too pissed with Lorielle and Crystel who was acting all so great in decorating and planning about our Christmas Party and almost forgot that I'm the president of the class, so yeah, I gave them the privelage of carrying that responsibility. Bahala sila, wala akong pake. So I went home early because I still have nothing to wear. It was a day of dissapointments. Really, but I don't want to tell it anymote :)
Dec 16; We woke up early because my mom and I attended the Simbang Gabi. I was the first to get up - because of excitement, maybe - then my mom. At the Church I was so sleepy very sleepy that I slept almost half of the mass but of course I listened to the homily. On our way home my mom and I just walked because we still have to drop by the market and buy ingredients for carbonara which was my assigned dish for the party. When we got home I excitedly took a bath and did all the rituals and bla bla bla for the party.
I arrived at the party early and it wasn't what I was expecting, really. It screams boring all over the place :)))) then I told the one in charge, Crystel, what was the agenda for the day and she told me she hasn't made any and all of those excuses. Kesyo hindi na nga siya nakatulog ng ayos and bla bla bla, so my usual self got pissed and rant and rant at the back of my mind. I was thinking `what the hell was that excuse? you volunteered to organize this, now you're complaining that you haven't slept yet?` So she'll just sabotage the party? ugh! I tried to pull some strings, make some plans and thankfully the videoke already arrived so we decided to start. Then at the climax of our Adrenalines, it suddenly blocked out! YEAH, and we found out that the office cut the main power because there's too many videokes and the outlets might not accomadate all of it. We were like `what the hell? It's not the first year to bring Videokes in and how can you call this a Party without electricity? :(
we went outside and tried to proceed to our games, but again, walk out queen Crystel did it again, got pissed and just shooed off. What a bitch, you gonna take it all then spit it out? tss, so who's gonna clean that mess? ME! but that day I didn't wanna ruin my mood because our adviser was there. Haaay. Fortunately after the game they brought back the electricity so Ma'am Pam our adviser told me that we should proceed to the exchange gifts because we're already hungry. :D
I recieved a watch and a necklace that I haven't uploaded yet because I can't find my Camera's charger. ugh. :)) after Exchange gift was eating time. yum :D
After Kainan, we were talking about `what are we gonna do? should we go somewhere?` I asked Ann, the Gala among us if they're gonna go anywhere and she said she wasn't sure and that it depends who's gonna come so I said I would like to but I haven't brought money with me. We talked and discussed and planned and ended up going to Festival, It was kinda sad that only a few were able to come because some of us our parents disagreed.
The usual Barkada Gala. WAIT WAIT WAIT. TEXT TEXT TEXT. PIC PIC PIC :)) the original 11:30 plan happened to be 1:00 :)) We arrived at Festi around 1:30 and then viola, kanya kanyang gala :DD We enetered shops ans looked at those tag prices and our eyes just went $_$ because we don't have that much money to shop. hrhr.
We ended up riding the roller coaster and they were all sort of afraid and had partners and I don't so I was in front alone. hahaha :))) and I was teaasing and laughing at their faces during the ride. :D We bought books worth 10 to 20 php :)) then went home around 5:30 because we might be caught in traffic. I arrived home smiling and surprisingly my mom wasn't mad, she didn't even preach. yahoooo :)) I bought her a present too :D
So that was it. It was still awesome at the end of the day no matter how my mood literally screwed up :)
Thursday, October 14, 2010 | 3:51 AM | 0 Watchasay?
One bad quality I'm aware of myselft is my lack of patience. I mean I'm moody at times and I don't like it.
I get pissed easily by stupidity and I hate it when people or my classmates don't get things at one try. I'm aware of it and even though I badly want to hold my temper, I just can't.
Then one day, I realized I have to do something about it, most specially that I was never fond of complications and conflicts. I just thought it will do no good to anyone. I also tried to think things through because I have this habit of always hating something about a person, or an act. I always have a comment on it although most of the time I just keep it on myself, and then I realize I'm just stressing myself and wasting my mind thinking about it. I realized that a good leader isn't perfect, he just makes way to work things out. A good leader isn't always right, he just consider things and broaden his mind. I realized that to work things out, I should stop complaining and rant and rant on things I don't like. Instead, I should look at the good side of it, if it's not what I expect to turn out, maybe I should think of an alternative, maybe I should be the one to compromise and try to understand more because I want things to work out with less drama and `kampihan`. I don't want to divide a group into a group. We're one section, a family, we should not get into each others nerves.
I ended up with this though through a help of a very good friend, Therese. We had this group activity in Mapeh involving everyone in class. It's a dance number mixing different kinds of ballroom, at first I got pissed of those `nagmamagaling` and you know how things happen in the first section, there's always competition.
But that day, I was so pissed and offended and tired and everything that I tried to calm myself. The usual me would rant and tell every bad things I hate about it, but instead of ranting I approached Therese and ask what should I do, she simply said `wag mo lang pansinin` and I tried. It worked. I got home, ate then slept, then the next morning I was okay again, as if nothing happened.
Therese was right, we were never united, that's why we always lost. We always get into each others nerves, the three of us. Then I told myself if I'm better than them, there's no need to compete, there's no need to quarrel. Because at the end of the day we still end up needing each other, so I tried to think things through again and I realized maybe I'd just compromise, try to understand them. Try to let things through, sabi ko sa sarili ko dapat di ko na patulan mga drama nila kasi mapapagod lang ako. Arguing with them would lead me to nowhere, it would just make us uncomfortable with each other and that kind of feeling have no place when you're inside one room always seeing each others face.
If I want us to be united, then if they can't compromise with us, then maybe we can. We should. We've been together for three years and it's already becoming a cycle. Away bati. Backstabbing, kung ano ano sinasabi sa isa't isa pero lumilipas din naman. I thought that maybe we should not let our words harm our relationship, specially when those words are results of spur of the moment anger.
I realized that hate or inis is just as normal as our breathing, considering the fact that nobody's perfect. All we can do is let it pass, don't let it harm anyone's feeling by crule and rude words. The world is beautiful, we just can't see it the moment we open our eyes. Just like babies, when they came to this world their eyes are still close. Just like when we wake up, everything has to be blurry first and let it pass until we see clearly.
Howdy bloggers? :) I hope there's still someone out there visiting my blog. lol :) it just seems that everyone already moved :(
I seriously missed blogging and I was on hiatus for a month because honestly, I don't know what good can I express anymore. I got tired of stuffing my frustrations here. So there's been a lot that happened and it was like a blur for me, everything for this year is just so fast we can't even savour the moment. Everything's like a routine. Everyone's busy and tired and stressed out yet no one's enjoying anything >.<>
I know that my last post was about our acquaintance party and I was sort of emo. haha =))) after that was the month of September and we had our intramurals and alam naman natin na kapag intrams ang daming activities :) so the week before that was loaded, practice and preparations everywhere and actually, at some point of the past events I was genuinely honest that I wasn't elected for the school council. It's a lot of work and you'll still get to be blamed. ugh :D The side effects of being in charge. hrhr :D
I don't have lots of pics because I wasn't that happy during the 4 days of free time because I had a period. hah~ It sucks =)) and I was a total KJ for that event. :D
But even though everything's getting into our nerves this year, we still try to catch up and escape from stress with friends :) October and September is birthday month! yay :) and we celebrated Lep's birthday hilariously. :DD
We had our swimming lessons before the party so I sort of look wasted. :)))
Then last week was our United Nations and celebration for World's Teachers Day and all I can say is that it's lame and a major failure, everything this years seems so rush. HAPIT =)))) That's why everytime I arrive home all I crave for is sleep. All I can think about is how many hours can I rest, how many things shall be done the next day. Then the next day I woke up I always want to skip school, but whenever reality wakes me up I realize how much I would miss if I'd skip school, then when I'm at school all I can think is `boring naman~ sana di na lang ako pumasok` =)))
Bottomline is, everything this year sucks. ALMOST :( It's so different from last year. This year is so busy, so loaded, so hard :|
K. Enough of school stuffs =)) tomorrow'a my big day and I don't know what to feel. This is the last day of my 14th year of existence and I'm starting to think of things that made me better, made me different from who I was a year ago. I can still even remember everything last year, I can still remember what I did a day before my Birthday. I can remember what happened exactly a year ago :) It's Ironic, I haven't even realized I'm fourteen until now, until there's one remaining day before I get a year older. hay.
Funny how time flies, sometimes we want to skip the days and jump in to the future, but when we get there, it's when we realize how much we missed. How many chances of making change we let go. I'm turning fifteen tomorrow, and I'm not sure of what's gonna happen. :)
I just hope I could get through this teenage years in one piece, and with lots of memories I'll either regret of laugh at when the time of wrinkles come :)
I miss blogging, but I'm back on the state of not knowing what to blog again. hihi :))
Last week was one of the memorable weeks of my HS life so far because it was our Periodical week and also our Acquaintance Party.
Ayun, emo na naman ako :))) there's just a lot of things going on my mind right now, on what's happening on my life and I'm just sort of missing something. I badly want something I can't have. :) Oh well, siguro meron ako pero hindi ko pa napapansin :) I just miss the feeling :D
I'll kwento more further when I'm on the mood :D The Party was fun but I wasn't happy :)) I laugh, I smile, it was good but It wasn't the happy me :D
These past few days, or I mean since the classes have started I have felt nothing but stress.
My last entries shows how pissed and annoyed I am on what's happenning everyday inside the class and I think It's still as is. Everyday would be ordinary bla bla bla and I'm often pissed and starting to get tired of the same routine and attitude everyone else keep on doing.
Minsan pagpasok ko tatamarin ako, lahat nagtatanong anong assignment, may quizz ba or bla bla bla. Eh minsan badtrip din ako at wala sa mood sumagot or magentertain ng mga masyadong obvious question kaya ayun, nakakatamad. Pagdating naman ng uwian lahat maingay magtatanungan ng kung anong meron bukas. Hay.
Ewan, may topak ako lately, I want something new with my life, madalas din ako emo kasi parang na o-OP na naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko pero hindi naman. Haaaaay.
There's just a lot of things that happened and I was hesitant to blog about it because I don't want to reread by blog and see negative thoughts of events that happenned. Pero kahit naman stressful may mga consolation pa din :) last friday was Jamaica's Birthday so kahit sobrang HAGGARD na pumunta pa din kami. Meron kasing SABAYAN :( and it's another frustration to blog about. haaay. These last days I was just trying to distract myself by playing BAKING LIFE and MILLIONAIRE CITY at FACEBOOK. hehe :)
Minsan kahit nakakainis sila, nakakatuwa pa din. Minsan talaga may sumpong ako. Lalo na pag pagod badtrip kulang sa tulog tapos kukulitin pa :)))
P.S.
I'll try to update this again as often as I can :) nakakatamad din kasi minsan kapag wala ng nagbabasa and everyone seems to be so busy too :)
Nagsasawa na ako, may mga times kasi na paulit ulit ulit at ulit na lang. Nagsasawa na ako sa tanong ng tanong ng tanong. Napapagod na ako kasasagot sagot sagot. Hay, bat ba hindi nila gamitin common sense nila? GRABE! Minsan gusto ko dn ng katahimikan. Hay
Badtrip na araw to, elaborate ko na lang kapag di ako tinamad.
Birthday pala kahapon ng brother ko, 13 na siya tapos mas malaki na sa`ken. AJUJUJU =))))
This day was an opposite of yesterday. I was in a bad mood since this morning because of irritating Jamaica. Naiwan daw kasi niya yung Homework niya kahapon samen eh yung kay Ann lang naman yung nakita ko. ughh! kainis.
Next is the seating arrangement :( nalipat na naman lahat! pumanget! tapos ako na lang yung hindi pa nagpapalit ng chair. aw aw aw.
Then at dismissal, a teacher called me and told me to join the Vincetian'c Chronicles so I just nod tapos sakto naman na nandun na naman yung dalawang magaling; si Lorielle at Crystel. Ayun :)) I don't know, nagsisimula na akong magsawa sa mga taong nagmamagaling, I mean they want everything, they want to do this, do that, they love being an utusan. Tapos dahil nanalo nga si Lorielle doble doble yung position niya sa clubs then sabi niya kanina nag quit daw sila. I mean, eff, just like that? :)) mag reresign ka na lang bigla sa responsibility.
Si Lorielle, sabi nga ni Therese, walang ka humble humble sa katawan. Yes, you know the answer, do you have to boast and rub it in everyone's face? Sabi ko sa kanya she talks to much na hindi siya aware sa mga nagiging apekto ng sinasabi niya and she just answered kaya naman daw niyang panindigan. TSK.
Nakakainis. Nagsasawa na ako sa kanila, lahat alam nila, lahat gusto nila, LAHAT LAHAT LAHAT napupuna nila. There's nothing wrong with being a grade conscious student as long as you're still sensitive enough with what people around you may feel. Nakakainis. ANG YABANG.
I just feel like sharing what I feel. Dahil madaling araw na naman at wala akong gaanong ginagawa. Hell week is over and elections too so yeah, I have time to waste again.
Wala lang, para kasing namimimiss ko na naman siya you know who dahil gaano man ako kasaya sa mga kaibigan ko ngayon, gaano man nagevolve ang pagsasamahan namin, iba pa rin kapag may special someone ka.
Hindi naman ako basta basta pwedeng pumasok sa isang relasyon dahil gusto ko lang. Iba kasi kapag iba yung nararamdaman mo sa tao, ewan ko, parang gusto ko ng bestfriend/boyfriend figure.
Kahapon kasi, Friday, in the middle of nowhere bigla akong nasenti. Kasi election, at di ko man aminin kinakabahan ako lalo na sa magiging feedback manalo man o matalo na okay lang sa`kin kahit ano. Alam mo yun, wala kasi yung close friends ko, eh syempre hindi naman pwedeng lagi akong may constant kausap. Bigla kong naisip na iba pa rin talaga kapag may someone special ka kahit marami kang close friends o barkada. Iba pa rin yung sense of security na alam mong hinding hindi ka ma i-isolate sa isang tabi kasi may reserve ka na.
Iba pa rin pag special o nagiisa yung mahal mo. Yung walang katulad. Yung boyfriend na bestfriend na close friend. Yun yung hanap ko, ayoko sa basta basta na lang para may matawag na boyfriend. Gusto ko yung ganun, hindi man pang level up, alam mong may isang taong hinding hindi ka iiwan dahil mahal ka. Okay lang na magaway kami o tampuhan, basta nanjan pa rin siya.
Ang senti ko. Basta. Narealize ko lang na iba talaga.
Gusto ko lang i-blog to, kinakabahan kasi ako sa results although either way is fine with me. Sabi nga namin ni Angel parang ayaw namin manalo, kasi nabasa niyo naman last year kung gaano ka stressful saka sa ngayon ang hirap lumiban sa klase lalo na sa Math. Pamatay. Saka ayun, nagpaparamdam na naman siya, tapos ang dami kong crush, pero hangang dun lang yun. Iba pa rin talaga siya, kahit LDR kami. IBANG IBA >.<>
Kinakabahan ako sa results. Kasi pag natalo ayoko ng loser figure, ayoko ng kaaawaan. Pero masaya ako sa nakikita kong suporta ng mga schoolmates at teachers kahit di maiiwasan yung mga walang modo at bastos na studyante masaya pa rin ako sa obvious na kami yung gustong manalo :) Pero pag talo okay lang, siguro 1 week lang yung init ng issue, after nun back to normal na. Mag fofocus na lang ako sa classroom at sa mga kaibigan ko ngayon :) Pag naman nanalo, mas mahirap. Mas matagal na isipan at stress at sa bandang huli sa`min pa ang sisi. Either way would be okay :)
Ang labo. Basta sa mga nanliligaw ngayon wala, after ng bolahan wala na, sandaling kilig lang. Kaya parang ayaw ko. Wala. Wala talaga :( hay.
Yes, I'm running for SBO and since Thursday, I have seen support from people I don't even expect. It's overwhelming, it's flattering, their words of wisdom is heart warming. Hindi ko ineexpect na may mas madaming taong naniniwalang kaya ko. Pero meron ding tao na super nakasakit saken :(
I ran because of my friend's support and encouragement, pero 1 special person yung talagang inasahan ko. I cried last Thursday because of her. Sabi niya kasi saken `Zaira tumakbo ka tapos kunin mo ko sa partylist mo para hindi na tayo magkalaban` so I held on to her word. Inasahan ko yun kasi sa kanya nanggaling, I ran because I was confident she'll stand by my side tapos nung balikan ko sya, bigla ko nalaman na nakuha na siya sa kabila.
My heart broke, feeling ko lobo akong pinalobo tapos biglang pinutok. Right that moment hindi ko na napigil yung iyak ko, I was already feeling helpless dahil ang lakas na ng kalaban and no one seems to like me or running with me. I mean it was a shock for me, nanginginig pa nga ako habang humahanap ng pwedeng ka-partlylist. Of course inuna ko yung lower years kasi confident na ko sa mga kaibigan ko, confident na ko na tatakbo siya with me, tapos biglang BOOM :( Ang sakit sakit nun. I was not myself last friday, kaya na delay yung meeting namin, nakalimutan ko pa ngang magbayad dun sa tricycle driver sa kakaiyak. Hay. Iyak tawa ako nun with my friends habang naguusap tapos paguwi ko sa bahay ayun. Haaay.
Kahit nag sorry siya masakit eh, akala ko nga ok na nung araw na yun pero pagpasok ko sa classroom kahapon :(( eto na si parinig. Haaaay. I can't understand why I was to blame even though I was the one hurt. I mean lumalabas na ako pa yung masama dun sa group of friends niya, Can't she just cut it out? Masakit pa saken yun paparinig pa sya! Haaay. If it was a different situation, if she didn't marked her words and promised, It wouldn't hurt this bad.
The issue would have been through, I would just let it go and move on, madali lang yun kung hindi niya ipapamuka at ipapamuka na ako ang masama. Kanina nag gm pa sya ng Goodluck daw samen, I mean, yeah the objective was good but it was damn insulting.
Sana man lang kahit hindi bilang kaibigan, bilang tao na lang irespeto niya ako at tigilan yung pagsasabi ng kung ano ano, wala na nga akong ginagawa eh. Nilululon ko na lang yung mga insulto niya, hindi sana masakit eh, kung hindi ko sya kaibigan :(
THIS DAY WAS OH MY GOD. I THINK THE MOST EMOTIONAL DAY IN MY 2010.
As expected, I'm running for SBO, and not just a position, BUT THE TOP POSITION :( It has been both overwhelming and emotional for me.
I've already said on my previous blog that if possible, I wouldn't want to run, pwede siguro kung lower positions but being a President isn't a joke. I mean okay, kaya ko kung sa kaya but it's not where everything counts, most of all I'm not that popular, I'm still a junior tapos kalaban ko Senior, tapos matagal na siya dun sa school. I mean WTF =))))))))) I can see the results already. haay.
But I'm so overwhelmed, I even cried kanina >.<>
I won't elaborate anymore. I'm both happy and sad for today. I'm not afraid to lose, I'm afraid to hurt those people who trusts me so much to put me in this position :(
Next friday would be the election so It would be busy days for me starting tomorrow.
Please pray for me :( or talk and give me advice right this time. I really need a helping hand. Thank you fellow bloggers.
Today was our unexpected Election day and it was supposedly held on Friday, but guess what? :D
I was re-elected as the President again. YIEEEE =))) It's overwhelming, really, being elected consecutively for president for three years in my HS life. Haha, it just means my classmates trust me. Aww =)) Or maybe they see me as more considerate than some of my competitors.
So because it was classroom election today, tomorrow would be the meeting for SBO offcials, it was a tradition since last year that SBO officials would come from class officers. Kaya ayun, maraming nag-uudyok na tumakbo daw ako, even some of my teachers say so.
I'm still undecided yet because as much as I can, I want to focus on my studies and avoid complications by this year and our Guidance Counselor already asked me for his Peers Councilor Club, so yeah, I don't know If I would be running again because it would be a lot of work and it depends on the SBO adviser for this year. Kasi nga nasabi ko na din dito sa blog na yung Adviser last year wala namang nagawa, edi pati kami walang nagawa.
During Lunchtime, a friend asked me or rather talked to me. Si Obsequio, yung Boy trying not to be Gay na nai-blog ko. Haha. He asked me 'sino bago?' so syempre obvious na yung tanong niya, sabi ko naman wala but he still insists na may tinatago daw ako. LOL =)) sabi ko naman pano niya nasabi na meron nga? eh kasi lagi daw ako online tapos lagi daw ako nakasmile tapos lagi daw akong blooming. echos. haha. Ganun lang talaga ako, I hate complicated things and frowning won't lessen the problems in the world.
Pero actually meron, hindi ko lang feel kung meron pa ba talaga, parang wala na lang. Edi much better kung hindi ko na lang intindihin, Isa lang naman talaga yung inintindi ko eh =))) And I think he still thinks about me because of that `relationship request' on facebook. HAH =)) but we haven't talk for a long time now. So ayun, dahil ayaw ko naman sabihin at wala naman talaga akong sasabihin, we end up shooting clues about our crushes :"> syempre I won't blog about everything na kasi mahaba saka madetalye, but it was super tawa scene :"> Kasi adik ako eh, lol.
I know I'm a private person, some people even see me as mysterious. LOL =)) Pero siguro I just don't want too much people in my personal life, I just give high regard for my privacy and I'm also aware that not every people can understand you, so to avoid misinterpretations and complications, I'd rather not let anyone carry my cross. It would be useless and can be a problem for me. If I would have a special someone in the future, I would probably share it on my blog instead on the real people in my life. I don't want people minding my business that much, It may cause bankruptcy. Haha, specially in high school. I don't want everyone talking about US =)) I don't want too many people know about us because It may be used as a weapon against me, lalo na kapag mag competition sa classroom :D So ayun lang, only a few people knows majority about me, and it doesn't also mean that what I show people as me is Fake, It's true, but not the whole true me. I hope you know what I mean :)
Another shitty thing about school is the competition, lalo na pag sa first section, I mean it's already normal pero sana naman walang personalan di ba? =)) Typical of us filipinos, we don't want anyone better than us even its your friend or fellow citizen. Db sana be happy for each other na lang? Aware naman siguro sila na we have our abilities and liabilities, nagkataon na mas magaling lang ako sa kanila =)) chos. haha. Pero ayun nga, since they are/were my friends, I tried not to always participate para hindi masabihan ng kung ano, for their sake, pero alam mo yun? Wala na nga ako masyadong ginagawa, hindi na nga ako naka full effort grabe pa rin sila makapuna sakin. ): Included na yung position ko sa classroom since 1st year. TSK =)) Oh well, Maybe they get more irritated when I seem unaffected by their stare and issues about me. I still laugh hard and it seems to annoy them more =))) lulz. Okay, ano naman kasi mapapala ko kung papansinin ko yung mga reklamo nila saken? as far as I'm concerned is just I'm doing my best and It's not my fault if I seem dominant around the class. tsk.
I'm not boasting, I just know how to accept things mildly.
kthnxbye :) I have lots of research, reports and HW, just wish me luch for tomorrow :) GOOD DAY BLOGGERS :)
I have been receiving awkward compliments since Summer.
Most of my mom's friends have been saying na `Yan na ba yung anak mo? Pumayat siya` tapos ako mag s-smile na lang :)) Lalo na nung before recognition tapos pagsasabi ng nanay ko na top 2 ako edi syempre ganun. Tapos sa school, a lot of new faces have been greeting me tapos some of my friends nag cocomment ng magaganda sa facebook, tapos pati teachers :))) lol talaga.
I mean, it's not that I hate receiving compliments, I'm just afraid with the consequences it might bring. Kung sasabihin ko naman na di ako natutuwa sa napapansin nila kalokohan na yun, natutuwa ako syempre, pero ayoko lang masyado tumaas yung expectations ng tao saken. I don't want other people or people around me to see me as lucky or perfect, yung ibang Parents ng classmates ko sasabihin `Ayan tingnan mo si Zaira, dapat ganyan ka din` ayoko ng ganun kasi minsan mahirap maging role model ng iba, kasi hindi naman ako perfect, saka ayoko ng may qouta palagi, minsan nakakapagod na din magisip everytime may gagawin ka kasi baka biglang mag iba yung tingin ng tao sayo.
Ayoko din masanay sa ganito, na laging proud yung tao saken, kasi baka biglang bumagsak sa isang iglap na pagkakamali ko. Ayoko masanay sa ganito kasi pano pag nag College ako? :) Ayoko lumaki ulo ko :)) I mean minsan kasi di maiiwasan na umakyat yung iba dun, ayoko masanay. Ayoko masanay na inaabot lahat ng expectations. Ayoko masanay na lahat ng gagawin ko bilang. Minsan nasosobrahan na ako sa perception ng mga tao saken.
I'm not that perfect, lalo na ngayon. Ayoko mawalan ng karapatan maging mahina.
I wasn't able to blog days before the school starts because my Dad arrived, so it was just the time we prepared everything. He arrived 5 days before school and he had lots of plan so it was a total rush hour.
We went to MOA to fix the iPod and my Laptop and bought some things. Wala lang, napagod lang kami, It was really big na mabibitin ka lang. Ang daming sosyal =)) I was sight-seeing most of the time. Hah! Ayun, we also went to my lola in Pampanga and I saw my cousins again tapos ayun, puro kwentuhan lng over the weekend. We got home Monday morning tapos derecho bili ng school supplies kaya ayun, super puyat before tuesday. >_<>
First Day - I was undecided whether to wear uniform or civilian so I was texting with some of my classmates the last minute >_<>
I arrived a little late at school and the gym was already crowded. It was irritating, The assembly, the line ups and everything, I hope it was just like last year that we would go directly to our classrooms and start the `kaekekan` inside. It was obviously unorganized because the lines were broken and of course, students are enthusiastic and noisy and crazy chit-chatting with friends they missed. They should have known it would happen and they shouldn't mixed us up with the elementary pupils.
The number of students are surprisingly many. So many faces and new teachers, I actually felt like a transferee if I haven't seen my friends. The first year consists of 6 sections, so Imagine, around 200 estimated new students plus transferees from the higher levels. There were a lot of repeaters too. Our section was also mixed up, some of my classmates last year were transferred to other sections and other section to us but they made arrangements na wag na sila ilipat, so we ended up with 6 new classmates. 4 girls, 1 from C. 2 boys, 1 from B.
The flag ceremony was boring. I mean for us old students, It's not that FUN anymore, plus the HEAT! OHMYGOD, I know you would agree that it's very very abnormal. Nakakamatay, kahit nakaupo ka lang tutulo pawis mo. Literally. I wasn't paying attention most of the time, all I did was laugh, hug, shout and poink my friends. HOHO =)))
Second Day - It was subject orientation day, some of the new teacher already gave their requirements and grading system, but not all of them were able to enter our class. So I can say second day was the `Start of the schoolyear`
Our adviser gave us our schedule, and it was okay at first. Ang dami naming break at vacant, hehe. Almost 2 hours ata yun tapos in between classes, last subjects pa ang Chem and History. Pero pagbalik ng adviser namin iba na >_<>Anak ng banak, PAMATAY~ considering na tapat pa kami ng faculty. AS IN.
7:00 - 8:00: Chemistry
8:00 - 9:00: English
9:00 - 9:40: History
9:40 - 10:00: Recess
10:00 - 10:40: Computer (W-TH)
10:40 - 11:40: Math
11:40 - 12:20: Filipino
12:20 - 1:00: LUNCH
1:00 -1:40: T.L.E
1:40 - 2:20: Mapeh
2:00 - 2:40: VACANT
See? IT'S SO UGH! CHEMISTRY SA UMAGA. walanjo! Tapos sino ba may gusto mag break ng uwian? =))) We realized it was so lame nung nagovertime yung Filipino teacher namin, edi syempre konti na lang yung lunch time. Nakakainis yung teacher na Late, tapos overtime pa. Ang lupit mangain ng oras yun. Masaya na sana yung una naming sched para may time kami magkopyayan sa umaga tuwing M, T, F. Di ba ang saya nun? LOL =))) Nakakainis yung vacant namin. Wala, tunganga lang kami niyan dahil bawal naman umuwi ng wala pang 3. Hay nako. SOBRANG INIT PA. Tapos super daming requirements, I mean kung ganun sana after na ng first day namili =)) ang te-arts pa sa Cattleya, may kulay na kailangan pa coveran ng colored paper. Haaaaay.
Third Day - MAJOR BV. Nagpa assignment ng bonggang bonga, buti na lang hi-tech na magkopyhan ngayon, via Facebook at Y!M na. =))
Ayun, the same routine. Thank god for bloopers because I'm major sabaw =))) I mean parang sobra sobra yung adrenaline ko na automatic yung jokes at humor ko. So not me, the serious look type na umeenglish pa =D Haay, I mean yun yung masaya eh, yung hindi sinasadyang joke or yung singit na mga banat :D Laughtrip. Minsan I feel stupid, yung kapag nag mumulti task, lalo na kapag puyat feeling mo talaga groggy. We had this grouping on English, syempre counting yun di ba? so nag count in eh may ginagawa ako, kaya pagabot saken nagkamali =)))) Instead na 1 ulit nasabi ko yung kasunod na number which is 7, eto naman si Jayvee tawa agad. LOL =)) Okay na din, sabay sabay kaming magugutom at naghihiraman ng pamaypay.
Fourth Day - TGIF :D today was okay, ewan. Most of us feels like it's already the middle of the schoolyear, pano ba naman may quizz na. Tapos BV sa MATH =))) I SWEAR, nahihirapan ako. It's effin confusing. Parang umiikot ikot lang yung rules, Imagine sasabihin mo lang kung Function or Not major nakakalito. Hay nako.
Then ayun, Lunch tumambay lang kami sa hallway tapos laughtrip, bawat dumadaan magtatawanan kami. Ang dami talagang bago, =))) may kamuka pa yung ex ko. LULZ =)) I mean it feels like so different yet familiar. We tried to play volleyball nung uwian pero ewan, hindi na ako sanay kasi wala na si Gillian :( wala na din yung adviser namin. Haaay. Nakakamiss, yung mga wala na. Major nakakamiss kasi honestly once upon a time nag wish ako na umalis na sila, Last memory na namin yung swimming nung March at yung Fieldtrip. It feels odd to see new faces sa dati mong classroom. IDK, maybe I just attach myself so much to things that occupied a special phase in my life. TGIF!
Being a Junior, It still feels like the same. Siguro I would say that the best year was Freshmen year, kahit may mga conflicts it was the most enthusiastic and unexpected and exciting year, alam mo yung feeling na your just so full of it :)) Haaaay, I wish this year would be fun and smooth for all of us, despite the changes.
Goodluck to us for SY: 2010 - 2011
And It was also my blog's first birthday last June, 12. Independence Day :D Sorry if I wasn't able to blog anything about independence.
I MISS BLOGGING :D I don't know how to start and end an entry anymore :D so since my last update which was March 5, tons of things happened :D
March 11: NAT - grabe =)) seriously, NAKAKAANTOK :|
the exam started around 7:30 with the first 3 subjects, English, Filipino and Biology. I was super sleepy. English was just about reading comprehension tapos lots of common sense, basta nakaantok :D yung katabi ko pa ang bilis bilis matapos, nasa Filipino pa lang ako kalahati na siya ng BIO :D kaya ayun, I didn't take it too seriously :)
It was AP and Math after Lunch :D I answered AP first so I could balance my time for math, AP was more sleepy than English considering that we just finished eating LUNCH :D ang sarap matulog nun, plus it was mostly opinion, ang hahaba pa so I was never sure of anything there. Math was pretty easy, it doesn't include too many hard equations and most answers are alreadt obvious with the choices.
bottomline: 3 lang ata yung sumama sa nireview namin :D
March 16 to 18: FINALS. It was easy, I would say :) siguro kasi tinamad na yung teachers na gumawa pa ng mahirap na exams kung nag pinetensya na kami sa clearance at semi-finals.
We didn't have much time to prepare for finals because they decided to have the clearance signing first for us to take the exam. It was a total failure :| they flooded us with out of this world requirements for just a WEEK! tapos meron pa kaming shooting for RHGP. If it's really possible to die of stress, we already died :\
March 19: we were told to come back for the completion of our clearance and our practical exam on MAPEH. It was FUN :D most of free time and bonding bonding moments, It was also the day when Crystel and Lorielle told us about our Advisers plan to held a party, sort of a despedida party for him.
I told them it is not practical kasi wala ng class, marami ng wala. tapos mahirap na i-plano dahil wala na kaming regular meetings. Some of my friends suggested to have a swimming party instead but it's more expensive and will eat a lot of time. But Crystel and Lorielle still insisted so I told them `kayo bahala, basta out ako jan ha` I didn't like the plan and I know they would seek my help considering that I'm the president. HAH! matatapos na lang ang SY sasakit pa ulo ko? =))) ASA.
Throughout the weekend, they announced na pumasok kami ng monday para sa contribution and everything for the party, pagdating ng monday na pumasok kami :| ayun! we just got upset =)) kasi syempre yung iba nag expect na pinapunta na kami dun kasi ok na lahat, kumbaga final touches na lang taos ayun, wala pa pala silang plano, naupset pa ata sa mga suggestions ko. NAMAN! ngkasagutan pa sila ni Jayvee dahil biglang nag walk out. BV. so ayun, dahil sa inis namin, kumain na lang kami ng halo halo at nag siomai tapos out of the blue nagsuggest sila `tayo na lang kaya mag-plano` then saktong tumawag dad ko, sabay `TING` an idea popped in my head, bakit kaya hindi na lang ako gumawa ng paraan? :D ayun! I told my dad na mag blow-out ako kasi may place ako =)) then he said, OKAY! then VIOLA! sagot ko na yung pool pero KKP kami :D kanya kanyang pagkain.
March 28: SWIMMING :D It was heaven =))
ang sarap sarap ng feeling ko, it was like a self-fulfillment because I hitched the second top :D tapos iba din yung feeling na `most people wants you to be on the top` ang sarap ng feeling na kahit hindi ka best, best naman yung feeling mo :D I can say that all my hard words paid off. lahat ng sama ng loob, lahat ng luha at pawis the whole year nag paid off, specially with th matter of friendship :D una pa lang kasi ng pasukan, goal ko na iwasan ang conflicts and to bring us `tighter` ayun :DD NATUPAD ((((: I can say that my life is already complete. May online at offline life ako, yung lovelife ok din naman, yung FRIENDS to the highest level :D I can not ask for more :D
This summer I promise to catch up with my teentalk and cyber friends :D
Can you feel the pressure? It's getting closer now.
Yeah, we're getting so CLOSE that's why they're pouring us their final shits :| I don't know, sometimes I wonder kung bakit matatapos na lang ang lahat kailangan pa tayo pahirapan :| although not pure stress because you stil have to strive and be happy or at least enjoy what you are doing to lessen the Pressure.
Time flies so fast because it's March already and we haven't even absorbed February yet. I know the people who feels this pressure most are the graduating students :) They will enter a new chapter with doubts, excitement and anticipation on what awaits for them, and even for us and my friends.
Another school year is about to end again and we'll be turning Juniors :( I can't believe it, our Freshmen days are still lingering in our memories but we can't be just bystanders, even we like it or not, we GROW UP and sometimes it also means a heavier load of responsibilities and everything. It's just scary sometime because we don't know what might happen :| our adviser already told us that he'll be leaving and there's a large possibility that some of my classmates would be transferred to other section, a switch swatch might occur :| some of my friends are even consider to transfer schools :|
As March approaches we had our Regional Test and another two more exam to come :| Finals and NAT :| I think NAT would we a lesser concern because I'm not even planning to focus on it, It's just another kaekekan of our Government to make students suffer :| Intelligence nor personality can never be measured on how you shade A,B,C or D :) and we all know that :D so bahala sila sa buhay nila, I don't care if I don't get perfect or a high grade, maybe I'll give more concern for NCAE or any other Entrance exam when I reach 4th year.
Before Finals, they gave us the different requirements for our Clearance signing, and for teachers :| it's PAYBACK time :( some of them even require the impossible :| We even have to compile our testpapers and projects :| so most of us think `where the hell will I look for them?` kasi yung iba malamang tinapon or na misplace na :| so It's really really a big problem :|
I'm sorry if my updates are getting more and more out of date, blogging just became boring for me these past few days, even surfing the net bored me :| I just wanted to sleep and sleep and wait for the next day to go to school and bum most of the time =)) because I can sense that even the teachers feel lazy to have a lesson proper, considering the school year is about to end :|
As for Summer, I'm not that very much excited, because I'm sure :| I'll just rot here at home or tumblr and teentalk all day :) I even missed foruming =))))) I wish my mom would have plans :| because my dad moved his vacation on June :| so it is a major BV.
So this is all for now fellow bloggers :) I hope you're all doing fine and goodluck for everything :) I hope we can survive till the end of March.
Thursday, February 25, 2010 | 3:37 AM | 3 Watchasay?
I haven't blog for a long time already, and it's because of the mixed up events that happened.
Why do I still blog? :) maybe because blogger is a lot different than any of my accounts in the Internet World, for a short span of time I've already found home and comfort here. I don't want to leave yet even if I have a Tumblr because I consider blogger as more likely to a Diary.
With my stay in Tumblr, I've noticed some things that would help me to stay here, I've noticed that the way of blogging there is based on popularity, followers and your Typo`s rather than on the content of the entry and the personality of the person itself. Not that I'm criticizing it or what, I just noticed that most of the bloggers are transferring there already because It's said to be easier, and I agree, everything is easy there, just a click then you blogged already :| so the sense of online journal is somewhat changed, It's already changed of typos and haters everywhere :|.
I don't care whether I still have a reader or not, I'm blogging to express myself and not to impress others of what I blog :) I love blogger as what it is even though Tumblr is easier. There are just things that is better on the way it is and it becomes lame when over improved :)
So going through, I'm planning to change my layout and I just don't have the time to do it and also to blog. There are so many things that Happened since I last blogged so I won't narrate all of it.
Last week, We had this film making for values as a substitute for our pre-finals, and it consumed so much of my time plus stress plus pressure plus sakit sa ulo :D
Originally, our teacher assigned one College Student for each groups our section was divided into two and it will stand as their project, but unfortunately, our college instructor contributed NOTHING, we waited alsmost a week for him to act but still nothing, so we suggested that we better start the film because we're running out of time. Then ayun, instant sakit sa ulo :| kasi we're still noobs on this field and we don't know what to do at first, ilang beses tuloy kami umulit :| plus the editing. nainis pa ko dun sa kagroup namin :| kasi he's asking us to pay kahit kaya naman niya dahil siya yung nagedit, ang laki pa nung hinihingi :| kesyo ganyan ganito daw :| I just thought na sana yun na lang yung contribution niya sa buong film :| saka nainis ako dun sa leader ng kabilang group :|
My exam results was awesome :D compared to the previous quarter, I can say that I'm back to normal :) maybe because I was determined to regain my grades :| Biology was a total b*tch, we had genetics and it waaaaaaaaaaaas HARD :| but luckily I passed for the grade of 82%, tapos 4 lang kami pumasa. :| highest was 83 :)
So SUMMER is fast approaching :) but before we get there, we have to go through hell :D there's still finals and the NAT exam, then we have to approve our clearance before we can take the finals. talk about requirements :| eh madalas nirerequire pa yung MASS CARDS saka TESTPAPERS :| I don't even know where to find them anymore :|
I promise to update more often specially if I have time :) I miss you dear bloggers :) I miss my teentalk friends too :(( pero hindi na ako makapagopen sa kanila.
I still have so maaaaany things to say but I don't know where to start :)
Saturday, January 30, 2010 | 4:51 AM | 4 Watchasay?
It had been a very Stressful Week for most of us, and I have so many things to rant about. I'm apologizing in Advance :) Sorry/
It's ironic that people never gets SATISFIED. When you gave 99.9 percent of what you have and you saved just 1% for yourself, at kapag dinemand nila yung 1 percent na yun kailangan ibigay mo, dahil kung hindi. MASAMA KA!
It's fvking hilarious! lalo na sa ibang classmates and groupmates ko, they NEVER appreciate anything I DO! :|
Last Friday was our fieldtrip then we had so many deadlines last Monday, and It was also the day that they announced the upcoming literary contest. We were like `WTF! gusto niyo talaga kaming patayin`? then they told us the possible contests which were Impromptu, Declamation, Essay, Poem Making and Speech choir.
The rest was just fine because It's an Individual game and do not requires practices except the speech choir and we only have four days! IMAGINE :o you have to memorize the piece first before you can to practice, ang HIRAP nun. yung sabayan nga namin inabot ng 1 month. 0.o Fortunately, they realized how hard it was so they changed it to Story Telling. I was like,`anong konek?` edi parang yung Story Teller lang yung may silbi kasi LITERARY CONTEST nga and it's ENGLISH WEEK. pero ayun, wala naman kaming magagawa kasi hindi naman kami pwedeng `hindi sumali` dahil mapapahiya ang section namin.
So here comes the STRESS. It's mainly Me, Lorielle and Crystel who manages and organizes everything kasi wala namang pakealam yung iba. They just want everything without even helping.
Day 1: Monday
They gave us the Piece entitled NUTCRACKER AND THE SEVEN MOUSE KING and the number of maximum participants was just 20 and it would be Section VS. Section. We asked them `sino gustong sumali`? konti lang nagtaas ng kamay, siguro mga 15 yun kasi yung iba tinatamad, edi sinulat na ni Crystel lahat, sabi niya `wala na ba talaga? sige, bahala kayo` then after a few subjects, Lorielle spilled the bean, sabi niya `sino pa gusto humabol? may incentive na additional grade to` edi sh|t DUMAMI bigla.
See? most of them are .... UNDESERVING.
Another Conflict was; the number of people who wants to join exceed more than 20, eh yung mga hindi na makakasali `nagtatampo, nagagalit at nagrereklamo` sa amin dahil daw bakit sila ay hindi kasali. kahit anong explain namin na `kasi 20 lang talaga yung maximum` ayun, KAMI pa rin ang masama. :| We figured and figured and figured out how to solve that thing, yung makakapagsimula kami ng practice without conflicts, so we talked to some of them na sa ganito na lang sumali, so yung iba ok na. pero we're still more than 20 :| edi nagusap kaming tatlo na kung pwedeng kami na lang yung mag give way kasi may iba pa naman kaming sinalihan, :| we chose the students qualified to the character pero may nagsabi pa na `kailangan ba maganda para makasali`? NAKAKAINIS, they're so close-minded, makitid ang utak, gusto nila yung gusto nila ang masusunod kahit hindi naman tama, gusto nila sila na nga isasali sila din yung lead role. BWISIT.
That's also the fact that they're throwing at me. `ako din naman daw eh, gusto ko dn naman daw yung KAILANGAN lagi nasusunod` oo nga, nandun na tayo, gusto ko yung plano ko nasusunod, pero ang point ko `HELLO! yung TAMA ko ba NAKASAMA sa kahit kanino sa inyo?` HELLO, hindi ba kayo nakinabang sa mga GUSTO ko?` db? nakakainis, the plans I'm making is not only intended to BENEFIT ME, I sort out so many plans just to fit for everyone! tapos ako MASAMA? tss, ayun, si Lorielle at Dacuyan kinausap na lang yung English Teacher na gawing 25 yung maximum participants, buti na lang pumayag. FIRST CASE SOLVED.
DAY 2: Tuesday, Practice Proper.
No specific time or free time was given to us so we have no choice but to practice after class hours. The intended time was 3:00 - 4:00 pm for practice. Pero bago yun, some of them are already asking me `may practice ba talaga`? yung simpleng tanong na yun nakakainis na eh, kasi naman, determinado sila masyado masali dun si play pero ayaw nila magpractice? WTF db? :(((
DAY 3: Wednesday
Almost nangangalahati na kami ng piece. Para hindi masyadong exhausting, we have 10 minutes break every after 3 scenes, pero nung araw na yun, lumabas sila ng campus para bumili ng pagakain, pero 30 minutes na wala pa sila :||||| BWISIT. so kaming mga naghihintay naiinis na, may isa pa dun nagsabi na `blah blah blah` haay, I was furious that time pero hindi na lang ako umiimik, kasi when I start ranting, I won't stop until you cry. >:| nakakainis, parang gusto ko sabihin na `anong karapatan mo magreklamo kung wala naman pumilit sayong sumali dito? extra ka lang magrereklamo ka pa, hindi ka nabibilad sa araw nagrereklamo ka? wala ka na ngang ginagawa magrereklamo ka? putangina mo umalis ka na kung ganyan lang din gagawin mo` bwisit :| feeling pa importante pa sya.
eto pa mainly nakakainis, nagpapraktice kami and sinasabi ko yung scene, yung gagawin nila and bla bla bla, pero alam mo yun? tatahimik at makikinig na lang ang gagawin nila hindi pa nila magawa, kailangan pa sawayin. BWISIT :|| nakakapagod sumaway ng taong hindi marunong sumunod, rereklamo sila na `ANG INT` eh bakit sila lang ba naiinitan? :((
DAY 4:Thursday
Props making. fail pa nga yung props namin compared sa iba, kasi hindi na kami nag contribute or gumastos dahil madalian yung event, saka ayoko na ng maraming satsat, alam mo naman ang tao pagdating sa pera. tsk tsk, so LAHAT ng props tinapos na then assign ng lahat ng costume na isusuot. Also tinapos na lahat ng pending scenes para konting polishing na lang after. Hindi ako masyado napagod this day kasi ok na, bahala na sila sa buhay nila kung hindi sila susunod :| pero deep inside, gusto ko sila sumbatan lahat. :| na SUNBURN pa nga kami ni Angel eh :|
DAY 5: Contest Proper
Wala ng klase this day kasi super practice na talaga, edi polishing na lang. naka isang practice lang kami that morning dahil ang TAMLAY nila, walang gana bla bla bla, then every scene na matatapos sila umaalis sila, KAYA NAKAKAINIS! kasi magtatawag ka pa ng nawawalang tupa everytime na sila na. nakakainis ulit :| tapos kasali pa ko sa Impromptu pero sa kanila ako nag fofocuse kahit wala silang mga pakealam. I'm just thankful dun sa mga hindi sumali na MAS MARAMI pa natulong, saka kay Gillian, Ann, Lorielle, Angel and Crystel na hindi nagpasaway at super tumulong.
Before the program started napaiyak talaga ako. nakakainis na kasi talaga, we had one LAST practice na namin yun with all the costume and props pero yung mga MALALANDING BABAE make up ang inaatupag, sabi ko naman `3rd to the last tayo, bago tayo mag perform, lusaw na yang make up na yan` saka hello? mga 30 seconds nga lang sila dun eh BWISIT eh, FEELING SILA. tss, hindi na lang ako nagsasalita kahapon dahil ayaw ko na ng away.
Luckily, my performance was good daw, yung Story telling naman ok din, kahit papano nakaraos kami. tapos kanina may REVIEW kami ng NAT tapos Birthday ni Aerian. Talk about STRESS :|
Respect others opinion.
Know when to be SENITIVE
SHUT UP when you have to
Learn to Listen
Accept your Mistakes
Know you LIMITATIONS
Put FIRST things FIRST
Stand with your decision.
Mean what you SAY
Act first before you COMPLAIN
So okay, Lesson Learned. Even though I went through hell.
As I've promised, I'll post about this right after the exact day but I was too tired last Saturday and the coming days would be so hectic because of the upcoming literary contest on Friday so I'll just rant about it now.
It was so FUN although I thought it would be BORING.
Right after the last day of exam which was thursday, We had an orientation about the should and should not to do`s at the fieldtrip and also about the 98% percent incentive in our exam and as a result many of us was pissed off because there are so many `BAWAL` so we though `WTF, nag pa fieldtrip pa sila` and the seating arrangement was messy. :|
When Friday came, we had a 5 am assembly at the gym because the supposed time of departure is at 5:30 but because of latecomers, we were able to depart at almost 6 am.
Our bus was FULL kasi kami lang yung bus na puno ang jumpseat :) we were with first year. I was quiet at the beginning of the trip because I was thinking of my brother, nagaalala ako kasi baka hindi sya okay dun and bla bla bla, plus my camera's flash is broken so I wasn't able to capture photographs at the bus. But as the trip went on, ang ingay na =))) kasi our seating arrangement is yung pahaba, isang pahaba kaming second year, from front to back then everyone was passing food all over the bus =)) laging `pasa mo to` then babalik dun na owner na wala ng laman =))) Hindi ko nga nagalaw yung mga baon ko dahil pasa sila ng pasa =))
Me, Jayvee, Angel
First Destination - our first destination was the Bangko Sentral, but before we got there, a super FUNNY scene happened =)). Ayun nga, on the way kami papunta dun kaya syempre may mga sasakyan kaming nakakasabay, but one Bus caught our eye, kasi ka bus number namin sila which is BUS #6 =)) eh malalakas ang trip nung iba, kaway dito kaway dun, tapos may nakapost na number pala dun sa bintana ng kabilang bus =)) edi ako naman sabi ko `kunin niyo kunin niyo, ang gwapo nung nakasakay oh` =))))))) eh kinuha naman nila :D kaya ayun, instant textmate daw. haha =)) It was so Hilarious!
When we were already inside, camera's are not allowed so wala, BORING. tapos napahiya pa ko :D GRABE! kasi I was looking for my brother, so nung nakita ko yung classmate niya kinalabit ko `ui, nasan si Edrian` then nung hindi siya sumagot, I realized na kamuka lang pala niya yun =))))) edi strike 1 na yun kaya ang ginawa ko, niyakap ko yung nasa unahan ko sa sobrang pagkapahiya. sabi ko `shit! nakakahiya.!` tapos nung lumingon siya saken. GAAAH! first year pala yun~ akala ko classmate ko =)))) grabe. :D I apologized immediately then walked away. LOL =)) tawa tuloy kami ng tawa ng classmates ko habang pabalik na sa Bus.
2nd Destination - The National Museum, out tour guide told us na isang ikot na lang daw kami dun then balik na agad sa bus kasi nag exceed yung time namin sa BPS. Nothing much happened, nakita lang namin yung Manungul Jar =)) LOL
3rd Destination - we went to fort Santiago to have Lunch, so eto na yun =)) picture taking then we rode kalesa :)
Crystel and Me
Cathy, Crystel, Me
muka kaming tanga dito :D
(L-F: Angel, Crystel, Ann, Me. Lorielle,Joanne)
4th Destination - Malacanang Palace. as usual, camera's are not allowed inside so wala lang =)) namangha lang kami dun sa laman ng museum.
Final Destination -STAAAAR CITY =)) so eto na, eto na yung pinakahihintay namin pero dahil KJ ang driver, ang tagal pa namin naghintay dun kasi hinintay pa yung ibang bus para daw sabay sabay. tss. tapos sa bus pa lang nagsisigawan na na lahat daw sasakyan, may minus ang hindi sumakay =))
It was so Fun kasi sama sama kami =)) akala nga namin hindi ganun ka crowded kasi nga January na, pero unfortunately ang dami ring students kaya ayun. We decided na Gabi ng Lagim muna kami =)) GRABE =)) tsansing time daw kasi grabe magkapitan tapos tulakan, may mga nadapa pa. LOL. Next was the Anchors Away, This time hindi na kami complete kasi nag back out si Crystel =)) umiyak pa kasi hindi daw niya kaya, so ayun =)) eh ang haba ng pila kaya super tagal namin naghintay saka in order na sabay sabay kami, ang dami naming napauna T_T :D pero GRABE, laughtrip kami habang nakapila kasi nakikita namin yung expression ng ibang nakasakay =)) yung iba ang yabang pa kasi nasa dulo pa sila =)) pero pag baba namumutla. haha =))
Tapos ayun, naaawa ako kay Angel kasi dun siya sa dulo napwesto kasi wala ng iba, ayun tuloy =)) hindi na siya sumakay sa iba kasi baka daw masuka na siya =)). 3rd was the SKY FLYER =)) dito 2 na lang kami ni Jamaica sumakay, kasi yung adviser namin sumingit sa pila kaya nauna tuloy siya :| eh ayaw naman nung iba kaya kami na lang ni Jamaica yung pumila ng halos isang oras =)) pero it was worth it =)) GRABE. =)) then pagbaba namin saktong yung iba nakapila sa Surf Dance =)) eto naman yung ride na super laughtrip =))) namutla talaga yung adviser namin dito =)) pinagtatawanan niya pa kami nung una pero siya namutla na =)) Last was the Wild River :) kasama ko dito yung Crush ko kaya ayun =)) todo kapit ako. LOL =)) pero ayos lang, walang masyadong thrill tapos amoy suka pa yung tubig =))
It was already almost 9pm after the wild river kaya sabi ng adviser namin, mamili na daw kami or kumain para makaalis na =)) So it was ALL :D nag consume kasi ng maraming time yung haba ng pila. But overall it was fun :) kasi sama sama kami :) and it was so different from last year's Trip.
Tapos eto pa pala, kasi si Ex told me days before the trip that he might come that time so ako naman mejo na-excite :D pero nung almost 8 na he texted me na may lakad daw sila kaya di siya matutuloy. At first I was disappointed kasi once in a blue moon chance na yun, pero hindi ko na din pinansin, I was too happy to be sad that time saka naisip ko din na anong sense na magkita pa kami kung wala na rin naman db? :) So again, It's just positivity. LOL.
When we were already at the Bus, our adviser announced that we will not have out NAT review that coming Saturday kaya masaya na =)) Super Sakit ng braso at katawan ko pagdating ng Sat =)) I just slept and slept and slept :)
Mejo Masaya na ulit ako :) because I realized that maybe being positive was all I ever needed to be happy :) pero syempre, all of us can't stop feeling down/negative sometimes.
Positivity started last Monday.
I was really down during the weekend because our adviser already broke the news about the top ten last friday so I was really bothered during the weekend - kaya hindi ako nakapagblog - it was Crystel's birthday last Saturday so mejo hindi ako emo =)) but I really wanted to cry while singing videoke that day. Basta~ sama sama pa kasi yung issue tungkol kay ex tapos yung grades ko pa. I just sang my heart out that day even though I'm a horrible songer. LOL
Monday came and our adviser gave us our Card and Class picture. upon seeing my grades, I was like `ok naman pala eh` :)) and of course I looked at the difference and it was good overall :D malinis pa rin yung records ko.
In Math, I got 87 out of 91 from last grading and 90 out of 95 for MAPEH. Bio became 90 out of 88 and Makabayan from 92 from 91 and the rest was just 1 point higher/lower. Overall, I only got one line of 8 and the rest is 90-92 :D
That time I already felt relieved kasi wala pa rin naman akong mababa, I just dropped to rank 7 because some of my classmates excelled this grading, pero nung inisip ko ulit yung average nila at average ko, I told myself `babawi na lang ako` kasi my average was about 90.24 tapos yung top two 90.88 or something, yung nauna naman saken .2 points ahead lang =)))) kaya that time pag uwi ko sabi ko agad sa mom ko `babawiin ko na lang ha` tapos ayun, no reaction na :D pero I was already happy kaya hindi ko na pinansin =)) tapos ewan ko, my quizzes are almost perfect, more or less 2-5 mistakes lang =)) siguro nga `failure is the best motivation` kasi kung tao yung magiging motivation mo mahirap dahil `people change` so you don't have stability on your mind, kaya okay na rin to :) determined akong bumawi.
Second; This day was BLOOPERS DAY :)
I had so much fun plus the COOOOOLD WEATHER and it's FRIDAAAAAAAY =))
So ayun, I was really in a good mood today kasi mahaba yung tulog ko.
Biology - our topic was the great REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM and of course it involves FAMILY PLANNING so you know the drill when discussions trigger the `curiosity` of the students. The period was so ALIVE =)) walang tulog. HAHA
English - we have a new teacher since Monday so she conducted a new seating arrangement for her time and the thing is, my seatmate was the GUY pretending to be a GIRL I told you about on my previous entries. I was so annoyed and irritated to him kasi ang INGAY!~ echosero, feelingero at pakielamero pa kaya naiinis ako. Ayun, I was passing notes with Lorielle the whole period kasi ayoko siya pansinin.
MAPEH - we had a quiz then our teacher discussed about baseball/softball. We should have played it today but our teacher said we don't have enough equipments plus it's a little bit dangerous, kaya ayun =)) the Boys played Volleyball instead. SUPER LAUGHTRIP <3.>ang lalakas kasi ng trip nila :D
Values - our values teacher who's also our guidance counselor was busy so he just announced something and gave us the remaining time to PLAAAAAAY.
Math- we had a quiz about quadrilaterals, ratio and proportion and of course, IT WAS BLOODY =)) kasi alam mo yun, kahit pagaralan mo pa, pagdating sa Geometry may mga bagay talagang mahirap intindihin, lalo na pag yung problem parang impossible i-solve saka yung mga basic math operations kasi nakalimutan na namin, specially FRACTIONS! yung how to convert to decimal, tapos may LCD blah blah pa, tapos transposition and integers pa. EFF =)) db db? nakaka~ masasabi mo na lang na `ha? may ganito ba? b'at may ganito? =)) buti na lang may seatmate ako na alam.
LUNCH - lunchbreak is about 2 hours, kasi undertime yung math namin, then wala kaming Computer because it's Friday.
Out of BOREDOM, Angel told me that she wanted to PLAY pero dahil nga wala na yungbola ng volleyball samen ayaw sumali nung iba =)) kaya sabi niya `taya-tayaan na lang tayo, ako taya` =)) ayun, dalawa kaming parang tangang naghahabulan, pero nung mejo tumagal :D marami ng sumali, naging 5 ata kami =))))) then nung super pagod na kami, AYAWAN NA. LOL. After magpahinga, nagyaya na sila mag volleyball kasi may bola na nga kaya sumali ako :D Ayun, BLOOPERS ulit kasi mostly samen hindi naman magaling maglaro =))) madalas pang tamaan. haha
T.H.E - nag recitation lang. Yung isa isa pupunta sa Faculty alphabetically, so buong period petiks lang kami :D laro ulit
Social Studies - masyadong mabait yung sir namin kaya nagsabi lang ng Coverage ng Exam tapos `do-anything-what-you-want` ulit :D
Filipino - eto yung sir namin na PINAKAMABAIT =))) ito yung adviser ng last section saka yung kinwento ko na bantay namin nung sobrang kopyahan kami during exam. Dahil last subject na, almost lahat kami nasa field at naglalaro =)) kaya nung dumating siya ang ingaaay namin sa classroom =)) ayun, dahil 15 minutes na lang, nagbigay na lang siya ng exam =)))))
Everything happened with a blaaaaast =)) tapos may period pa ko. BV =)) pero di ko na inisip, minsan lang naman :D saka malamig eh, ang sarap sarap ng weather =)) parang airconditioned pa yung buong paligid :D
I wish everyone is Happy, even in their own ways :)
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Minsan kahit nakakainis sila, nakakatuwa pa din. Minsan talaga may sumpong ako. Lalo na pag pagod badtrip kulang sa tulog tapos kukulitin pa :)))
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