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Thursday, October 14, 2010 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
One bad quality I'm aware of myselft is my lack of patience. I mean I'm moody at times and I don't like it.I get pissed easily by stupidity and I hate it when people or my classmates don't get things at one try.
I'm aware of it and even though I badly want to hold my temper, I just can't.
Then one day, I realized I have to do something about it, most specially that I was never fond of complications and conflicts. I just thought it will do no good to anyone. I also tried to think things through because I have this habit of always hating something about a person, or an act. I always have a comment on it although most of the time I just keep it on myself, and then I realize I'm just stressing myself and wasting my mind thinking about it. I realized that a good leader isn't perfect, he just makes way to work things out. A good leader isn't always right, he just consider things and broaden his mind. I realized that to work things out, I should stop complaining and rant and rant on things I don't like. Instead, I should look at the good side of it, if it's not what I expect to turn out, maybe I should think of an alternative, maybe I should be the one to compromise and try to understand more because I want things to work out with less drama and `kampihan`. I don't want to divide a group into a group. We're one section, a family, we should not get into each others nerves.
I ended up with this though through a help of a very good friend, Therese. We had this group activity in Mapeh involving everyone in class. It's a dance number mixing different kinds of ballroom, at first I got pissed of those `nagmamagaling` and you know how things happen in the first section, there's always competition.
But that day, I was so pissed and offended and tired and everything that I tried to calm myself. The usual me would rant and tell every bad things I hate about it, but instead of ranting I approached Therese and ask what should I do, she simply said `wag mo lang pansinin` and I tried. It worked. I got home, ate then slept, then the next morning I was okay again, as if nothing happened.
Therese was right, we were never united, that's why we always lost. We always get into each others nerves, the three of us. Then I told myself if I'm better than them, there's no need to compete, there's no need to quarrel. Because at the end of the day we still end up needing each other, so I tried to think things through again and I realized maybe I'd just compromise, try to understand them. Try to let things through, sabi ko sa sarili ko dapat di ko na patulan mga drama nila kasi mapapagod lang ako. Arguing with them would lead me to nowhere, it would just make us uncomfortable with each other and that kind of feeling have no place when you're inside one room always seeing each others face.
If I want us to be united, then if they can't compromise with us, then maybe we can. We should. We've been together for three years and it's already becoming a cycle. Away bati. Backstabbing, kung ano ano sinasabi sa isa't isa pero lumilipas din naman. I thought that maybe we should not let our words harm our relationship, specially when those words are results of spur of the moment anger.
I realized that hate or inis is just as normal as our breathing, considering the fact that nobody's perfect. All we can do is let it pass, don't let it harm anyone's feeling by crule and rude words. The world is beautiful, we just can't see it the moment we open our eyes. Just like babies, when they came to this world their eyes are still close. Just like when we wake up, everything has to be blurry first and let it pass until we see clearly.
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