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Cheers for a New Year

Friday, December 31, 2010 ? 0 Watchasay? ?

Today is the last day of 2010 and the last day of this decade. So this is probably my last post, of course. I am deeply sorry for not posting any entry this past few weeks or even months because of some teenage bullshit that occured to me.

I think I've lost my sense of blogging. I got lazy, almost on everything, it's like my mind went to a long pause that everytime an idea comes to my mind, a part of it shuts it down and I end up being `sabaw` :)

I've been through a lot of emotional stress lately that I can't find a way to summarize, really. And I think It's the reason why I can't make a decent post with one thought. Okay, Tama na :D basta masyado akong nasabaw :D

Moving forward, I would tell you about how I spent this christmas.
I would say that this year has been the loneliest and the worst year yet to come because it's been a roller coaster ride. From school to everything I've been through a lot. I've been thinking a lot about what I want for my life, about the decisions I have made and decisions I have to think of.

Christmas this year didn't feel like christmas at all, during Christmas eve I went outside our house and felt nothing, The houses were dull and the ambience was just too lonely and very different from the previous Christmases. I reminisced a lot of memories, of how we spent our christmas the other years, of how different it was. I also thought what would it be like if my dad was here to celebrate with us.

I was almost sad and furious with our overall situation this christmas because my mom was almost broke and I can seriously feel the world crisis everyone is suffering too. Our Noche Buena was just the basics, nothing glamorious unlike our last years and basta, It's too hard to describe how dull it was, but nevertheless we were able to pull it off. My mom told me it's okay at least we're still lucky to have something to eat and to be able to celebrate it with the family. We're still lucky to have food on our table.

After Christmas my dad's package came so viola :)) party party :DD lol, we've got lots of supplies again so It wasn't that sad afterall eh :) The next day we went to Pampanga to visit our lola and my cousins too :D Nanay was still the same and we thank god that she's still here with us, still strong ang kicking :D We stayed there for two days just talking about Nanay's frustration about my Uncles Family and my elder cousin who's taking the wrong decisions in life. So all in all, our family is hanging by a thread since my lolo died :( and my cousing and I were just remiscing how good life was before, how happy we still were when lolo was still here. ah, good times. :)

Happy New Year Everyone :) I still got a lot of pending entries and I don't want to mix it all up with one entry so see you all next year :)

Labels: Family, Holiday, Personal