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Friday, May 18, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
I haven't blog about mother's day. So now I'm gonna blog about her. I want it to be special so I'll do it today, para nagiisa lang ako. haha. I can blog anyday about my mom because every day should be mother's day. We can't really keep them forever so might as well keep it special while we still can :)
A mother is our guardian angel, I think god gave them us to them to take care of and love and that someday, we will know that it's the other way around. They are like trust funds of God. We don't know how much they're worth until it's the right time and when we need them most. They're our builders, lovers, best friend in this world. They are our soulmates and the only thing in this world that would stick with us no matter what the situation is. I know that not all moms stay with their kids, but all moms love their kids no matter what. Kahit yung mga nagpaabort, nag pabaya, nagpaampon at kung ano ano pa. They love their kids because it's theirs, it's a part of who they are and they love them no matter how they show it.
I am thankful for my mom. She isn't the perfect mom nor the best mom in the whole galaxy, but she is the best mom for me. My mom and I have misunderstandings. But I guess moms have that special phone number in our system that whatever we do and whatever we feel or think, they have a way to know things. They are moms for a reason. I am lucky I have her, I am lucky I can still kiss, hug and talk to her unlike some kids.
There are times that I sort of hate my mom. There are a lot of times I do fail to understand her. Sometimes I just don't understand why so I feel bad about her. But whenever it passes, I'll realize that whatever she does and whoever she is and whatever desicion she makes, she is my mom and I love her. That's the only thing that matters most.
My mom is on the top of the reasons why my heart stops my brain from wishing I had a different life, live in a different place and become a different person. I admit there were instances in the past that I have thought "Sana si ganito na lang ang mommy ko" There were times the younger me wanted that because my mom always scold me, disappoints me even and cannot give everything I wish for. But now that I understand things, situations and point of views more, I feel ashamed of ever thinking that way. I now realize what a mom goes through just for her kid. I now see how much my mom have gone through to stay with us, to make us happy by doing all she can. Now I know how much my mom gave up for us, how much a mom compromises to give her child everything. Now I oity those kids who take their mom for granted. I pity that part of me who took my mom for granted. I regret the times I've made her feel bad. I feel ashamed of the times I blamed my mom for the things she isn't to blame for. Now I know my mom did everything she can to give me what I wanted.
When I look at the bigger picture, my rants and reasons are no match for what my mom did for me. I regret the moments I've hurt her or made her feel bad. The times I have disappointed her and the times that I talked back.
I wanted to write her a lotter but I think it's too cheesy. Hehe. I am never a thoughtful person. I'm not an expert of showing my feelings, even to my mom. I seldom tell her I love her, but I do. So much. Sometimes I tell her jokingly that I would take care of her, give her the things she wants. I'm gonna do that and I hope, wish to God that let me have that chance. Let me have the chance to take care of my mom in her old age. Give her everything she deserves for molding me and loving me. This mothers day I wish for more time. Plenty of time with my mom.
Last mother's day we served her breakfast and bed. It was actually my brother's idea and I just helped :) The morning that we served it, I felt like crying. Hehe :) We greeted her good morning and a Happy Mother's day and that was it. :) My brother is really sweet and I guess I often forget the little things that would make my mom happy. I'm not sweet because I think it's uneccessary and silly. I find it a form of weakness and I don't know. I'm just this way. I have so many things in my mind I fail to do and say because I'm afraid. I'm afraid to get hurt when I show people how I feel.
I love you so much mommy. Kahit ganito ako love na love kita, kahit suplada mataray at masungit ako. I will do my best to make you happy. To give you the best things in life. I'm sorry if I always fail to show you how much I do love you. I hope you feel it even if I'm like this. If I find it hard to tell a lot people how much they mean to me. I'm sorry if I don't always show and tell you how much I love you. But please keep in mind that I do and will always love you. Just trust me okay? I promise you wouldn't end up in a home for the aged. I promise I'll take care of you. Happy Mother's Day. I know you wouldn't read this. You will when I go yo UP :) I love You :*
Labels: Mother's Day, Personal
A Collection of Rare and Obscure Words
Thursday, May 17, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Cheiloproclitic - Being attracted to someones lips.
Quidnunc - One who always has to know what is going on.
Ultracrepidarian - Of one who speaks or offers opinions on matters beyond their knowledge.
Apodyopis - The act of mentally undressing someone.
Gymnophoria - The sensation that someone is mentally undressing you.
Tarantism - The urge to overcome melancholy by dancing.
Autolatry - The worship of one’s self.
Cagamosis - An unhappy marriage.
Gargalesthesia - The sensation caused my tickling.
Capernoited - Slightly intoxicated or tipsy.
Lalochezia - The use of abusive language to relieve stress or ease pain.
Cataglottism - Kissing with tongue.
Basorexia - An overwhelming desire to kiss.
Brontide - The low rumbling of distant thunder.
Grapholagnia - The urge to stare at obscene pictures.
Agelast - A person who never laughs.
Wanweird - An unhappy fate.
Dystopia - Am imaginary place of total misery. A metaphor for hell.
Petrichor - The smell of dry rain on the ground.
Anagapesis - The feeling when one no longer loves someone they once did.
Malapert - Clever in manners of speech.
Duende - Unusual power to attract or charm.
Concilliabule - A secret meeting of people who are hatching a plot.
Strikhedonia - The pleasure of being able to say “to hell with it”.
Lygerastia - The condition of one who is only amorous when the lights are out.?
Ayurnamat - The philosophy that there is no point in worrying about events that cannot be changed.
Sphallolalia - Flirtatious talk that leads no where.
Baisemain - A kiss on the hand.
Druxy - Something which looks good on the outside, but is actually rotten inside.
Mamihlapinatapei - The look between two people in which each loves the other but is too afraid to make the first move.
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Birthday Bash
Monday, May 14, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Last Friday night was zooooo ahmazing. Hahahaha. May 12 was Joanne Alyssa Plata's birthday. She's my classmate and we're just a few steps away. harhar.
The Birthdaaay Girl <3 I woke up around two pm and hurriedly took a bath because I'm already running late. Pero pagdating ko dun wala pa mga kaklase ko :D So Jeric and I went to VJ and Rinze's house. Mejo madami na kami. Kumain na kami and kulitan. Sobrang iniiit! Hahahaha.
Nagbalat kami ng maraming mangga and sang karaoke, tapos siguro after ng mga 2 hours na kantahan, Joanne asked if we want The Bar. Syempre Oo ako saka si Jeric. Hahahahaha. Though mejo malakas kami uminom, controlled naman. Yung iba mejo weak eh. So inuman while kantahan. Nung naubos na yung isang bote, lumabas muna ako at nagpalamig. Then naisip ko, may bote nga pala kami. Sabi ko "Laro tayoooo"
Nilibas ko yung bote. "O pwesto na yung sasali. Ang di nakaupo sa sahig hindi kasali" Yung ibang boys KJ talaga. So kami na lang =)))
Nung mga unang rounds, puro Truth lang. Mga tanong about crush and love and kung virgin pa ba. Hahahaha. Then nung lahat na kami naka "truth" Sabi ni Jha ata, o ako. ewan. Basta may nagsabi "Dare na lahat" So Dare =))) Grabe mga dare. Hahahaha. Yung kay Caster, Sexy Dance kay Ann na hindi naman niya nagawa. Tapos may dare kay Ann na magkiss sila ni Cas. Smack lang naman. 10 seconds. Grabeeee. Hahahahaha. May dare din Kay Jenny na kiss sa cheeks si Vj, dare kay Joanne na kiss si Jeric sa forehead at ganun din Si Mimi kay Bin. Tapos Dare na Sexy Dance kay Jeric. Grabe tawa namin. Then may dare sa`kin na mag Dougie. Hell =)))) Ginawa ko naman pero di ko maimagine ano ichura ko. Hahahaha. Saka dare pa na magsexy dance kay Rinze :D Grabe. Hahahaha. It was the wildest night of my life yet. Hahaha.
Sobrang saya. Frieeeends :) Buti nga kahit mejo "iba" Kami ni Crystel, parte ng buhay namin ang mga nakakalokang ito :D
Labels: 12, Friends, fun, May, Personal
My Remaining Bum Days
Thursday, May 10, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
"Haay, ano ba yan. College na ako"
Sabi ko sa kapatid ko. Nagmomovie marathon kasi kami ngayong madaling araw araw at bigla ko lang nasabi. Naisip ko na "So many things will change"
Haaaay. Four remaining weeks of summer. A month of sleepless nights and boredom. Ang daming magbabago pagtuntong ko ng college. Iba na, ibang mundo na.
Natatakot ako na naeexcite. Pumapasok sa isip ko ang mga bagay na mamimiss ko. Yung paguwi araw araw at ang unang dialogue. "Si mommy?" Ang walang humpay na mood swings ng kapatid ko. Hay.
This is just so random :D
Pre College Orientation
Tuesday, May 8, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Kanina habang nagoorientation, syempre pumasok na naman sa isip ko ang "Oh my god, I am so gonna blog this" tapos ngayon, tinatamad na ako isipin ang mga iniisip ko kanina. Haha.
Ibubullets ko na lang ang mga nangyare ;D
- Arrived there 30 minutes earlier so we had to wait. Namamangha lang talaga ako sa mga tao. Hahaha. So different. May mukang artista, may mukang okay lang. At may mukang... pwede na ;D
- Pagpasok na pagpasok sa hall. Ang chorva nung speaker. Feeling close c agad? Hahaha. Mejo awkward ang feeling ko kasi total loner talaga. Wala akong kakilala eh. So I greeted my seatmate. Loner din siya, taga Bicol. Grabe ang layo. 13 hours ang byahe, land and water ;D
- Nagsimula na. Ang pangunahing activity is to know 10 people. Their course and kung taga saan sila. Grabe. Mejo nakakahiya pa saka awkward. Hehe. tapos grabe! Ang lalayo nila, as in from different parts of Luzon. May galing Bataan, Bicol, Zambales, Baguio, Isabela, Ilocus Sur pati nga Cordillera eh. Grabe. Nahiya naman ako kasi from Cabuyao lang tapos magdodorm na ko ;D
- Get to know each other chuchu. Ang sayaaaaa. After nun nagtawag si Kuya Speaker ng tatayo at ituturo lahat ng nakilala niya :D
- Pagkatapos ng getting to know, naglaro ng "Bahay, Baboy, Bagyo" Parang open the Basket. Pag bahay, magpapalit ng basket, pag baboy yung tao sa loob ang papalitan and pag bagyo naman magrurumble lang ang bahay at baboy :D
- They grouped us into seven. Tapos parang nagkaroon ng open forum each group. Nag introduce yourself tapos yung dalawang face nag intoduce samin ng Do's and Don'ts inside the campus and the classroom. Tapos nagkwento din sila kung gaano kasarap at kahirap sa UPLB. Total Freedom daw talaga. Kahit ano gusto mong trip walang pakealaman. May teacher daw na pumapasok ng nakabikini top, may students daw na pumapasok ng nakainom. Keribels lang. Pero depende din daw sa Prof ang rules. Wag daw umabsent ng first day para malaman na lahat :D Mahirap umabsent, pahirapan sa pagkuha ng excuse slip. Hay, kala ko pwede na =))
- Bumalik na ulit kami sa function Hall. Naglaro kami ng ibang version ng bato bato picks per group. Hahaha, ang tawag naman "Archer, Rabit, Wall" Talo ng Archer ang Rabit, talo ng Rabit ang wall at talo naman ng wall ang rabbit :D
- After ng game, balik speaker na ulit pero ibang speaker na. Ngayon naman diniscuss niya ang Advantages ng UPLB at ng Student Affairs. Mga eklavu sa mga ORG, bawal mag Org ang Freshie :D Tapos yung mga University Fees. Mga programs. Mga dorms. Saka yung Student Council and Student Online System. Amazing, ang gagaling nila mag speak. Mga aktibista talaga. Haha
- After ng Speak, nagpakilala silang mga volunteers isa isa. Ang kukulit lang. Lahat sila may "say" yung talagang Ma-ere ang dating. Typical UP. May nagtanong, "Bakit the Best ang UP?" ang sagot nung gay "Dahil nandito tayo. Nandito kayo at nandito ako" oha, pang miss gay :D Ang dami niya sinabi, halos lahat sila kahit iba iba ang course binibida ang kanya kanyang course. Mahalin mo daw ang course mo dahil syempre, yun ang the best. Grabe lang talaga. nakakapressure na nakakaamaze ang confidence nila. Mahihiya ka mahiya =))
Kaya siguro mejo maeere ang people and confident and sinasabi ng iba na mayabang, dahil may K naman talaga sila. Haha, sabi nga nung bakla. Hindi pagyayabang ang pagsasabi ng totoo :"3. Talagang dun pa lang ipapafeel nila sayo na you should feel you are the best because you truly are. Parang bawal ang insecure. Dapat sabihin mo na sa sarili mo na "Talagang magaling ako" Grabe. Nakaka pressure, pero at the same time naeexcite ako :D
Labels: 12, 8, daily, May, Personal, UPLB
Teenage Whatabouts.
Monday, May 7, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
I just got home from my classmate's Birthday. Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYANG! Christian Fred Erispe.
Actually pagod na ako at masakit ang puson ko. Haha, pero gusto ko mag-blog. Kasi baka tamaan na naman ako ng katam kapag may pasok na at araw araw akong pagod.
So si Crystel ang kasabay ko pumunta, tapos dun kami sa 7-11 naghintay ng mga kaklase dahil hindi namin alam ang exact address ni Kyang. Habang naghihintay pa sa iba, pinagusapan namin College life. Ano course ni ganito at kung may schedule na ba siya. Saka kung saan magaaral.
Nung kumpleto na kami, umalis na kami sa 7-11. Tapos habang naghihintay kami ng Jeep, may kumalabit sa`kin. Si Micah Quinay, classmate ko nung elem. Nagulat ako kasi akala ko sa ibang place na sila nakatira, dito pa rin pala sa`min. So usap saglit, tinanong ko kung san siya nag HS kasi ang tagal ko na siyang di nakita. Tapos biglang sabi niya *ang cute mo*. Mejo naspeechless ako. Haha, nagthank you ako tapos sakay na ng jeep. :)) Natuwa lang ako. Haha. GV eh.
Pagbaba namin ng jeep naglakad na kami papunta sa bahay nila Kyang, tapos biglang may tumalon sa harap namin ni Joanne =))) siya kasi kasilong ko sa payong. Hahahaha. *tumalon kasi may railing, so parang talon bakod ginawa nung mama* Laughtrip, poker face na lang kami kasi masyadong papansin si Kuya, tapos sinusundan pa kami. Parang ewan lang. Mejo nagfe-freak out pa si Jo pag nakikita niya, haha. tawa pa din ako, di naman siya makakaano eh. lol. Tawa pa rin ako ng tawa habang nasa daan kasi talagang hindi ako makagetover. Ang init init pa. =)))
Sobrang saya ng birthday kasi nagkasama sama kami ulit. Kwentuhan at kulitan. Iba talaga ang HS friends eh. Nagusap rin kami ng mga takot at excitements namin about college. Mejo nakakalungkot nga kasi wala akong kasama sa school ko :\
Nagusap din kami tungkol sa lovelife. Kasi yung si Jam may bagong boyfriend, edi tinanong namin kung pogi, ayos lang daw. tanong ko mas pogi sa ex mo? Oo daw, ang panget naman daw nun eh. Hahaha. Sabi ko, ganon talaga kapag ex na. Panget =)) Pero kapag boyfriend mo pa di mo masasabi yan. Pag tinanong ka "Gwapo?" "Mahal ko yun!" ang sagot. Hahaha. Saka Sex life, hahahaha. Pero hindi pa kami handang lumevel up sa mga ganung bagay, biruang usapan lang. Mga in case in case at green jokes. Kasi si Cas na boyfriend ni Ann sa manila magaaral, eh dun nga maraming tukso. Haaay. marami kaming kinatatakutan sa college. Saka yung mga ganitong bagay napaguusapan na namin kasi nga, normal na din talaga. Mas maiging napaguusapan kesa hindi alam ang gagawin :D
Pagkatapos ng PBB, wala na kami magawa kanila Kyang, kaya gumala kami sa subdv. Pumunta kami sa playground tapos nakita namin yung mga naglalaro. Eh gusto ko magswing. Hahaha, ayun, naisipan namin pumunta kay Baja na taga Gran Seville. Ang ganda kasi ng playground dun.
Mahabang lakaran, grabe nga eh. nakakapagod pero masaya kasi naguusap at nagbibiruan habang naglalakad.
Nung nakapagswing na ako, ang saraaaaaap. Weeeeeeeeeeee! Parang bata lang. sa tagal ko ba namang hindi nakapagswing. Hindi ko na nga maalala yung last time. Tapos ayun picture picture. Sa susunod ko na lang ipopost mga pics dito. hehehe
Tapos nun sumunod si Jam at yung new boyf niya. Ayun, maya maya umuwi na din kami ;D
Ang saya ng araw na to, nasabihan ako ng cute at di ko talaga malilimutan yung papansin na ewan. Hahaha
Labels: 12, 7, daily, May, Personal
Weird
Saturday, May 5, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Goooodmoooorning :) I haven't slept yet. Okay, ikukwento ko kung bakit. haha.
Last night a friend called. Nagusap kami. Bla bla bla. He knows about ex and he has a girlfriend. And then he tells me about other girls he like. Kwento kwento. Masarap siyang kausap because he keeps the conversation alive. Unlike other guys or friends.
And noon, nung time na kinwento niya sa`kin na yun nga, na dalawang sabay ang girlfriend niya. syempre tawa lang ako, kasi choice niya yun saka di naman siya nanghihingi ng advice, kinukwento niya lang dahil naguguluhan siya. Then napunta sa usapang crush. Sino crush ko, then nung sa kanya. Sabi niya "Maniniwala ka ba pag sinabi kong crush kita?" tawa tawa lang ako. Hahahaha. Kasi, basta masarap siyang kausap.
So ayun, kwentuhan kami basta kung ano ano lang. Tungkol dito, tungkol dun. Tapos minsan minsan, isisingit niya na crush niya ako. Tapos nagtatanong pa na kung manliligaw daw ba siya, mag pagasa ba? Kinikilig ako =))) Sinabi ko na nga sa sarili ko na ayaw ko muna, kasi sakit sa ulo. So sinabi ko rin sa kanya yun. Saka hello, may girlfriend siya. Dalawa pa, so inunumber three niya ako? =))))
Ayun, wala lang. Nakakainlove siya. I mean, ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko sa kanya. Tapos parang sasadyain pa niya na mahulog ako. Pero ayaw ko, kung mahuhulog man ako, problema ko na yun. May girlfriend siya, masarap lang mafall sa kanya pero hindi siya ideal boyfriend.
Ang galing niya kasi magsalita. He makes you feel special. Sinabi niya pa na sayang pinakawalan daw ako ni ano =))) Tapos, bakit ngayon lang daw niya ako kinilala. Haaaaay. Hahaha. Ewan. Hindi pwede. Hindi siya pwedeng maging boyfriend. Masaya na ako na crush niya ako. Mahaba na hair ko dun =))
Labels: 12, 6, daily, love, May, Personal
Prince Charming. Haha
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