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Saturday, May 29, 2010 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Have you ever wondered why I named my blog bumdebum? ((:Eh kasi ganito yan. Actually matagal ko na gusto mag blog, yung seryosong usapan talaga, yung may katuturan kumbaga, yung may magbabasa at may mapapala sila =)) LOL. I know I'm not a celebrity or an icon to look up to, my life isn't that wonderful also.
I was talking to my fellow teentalkers who are bloggers and I asked them about stuffs until I become interested on doing what I really wanted. I open this blog and figure things out with the help of Tepai. I was thinking of a good name, yung masarap pakingan at yung hindi common. I though of something bittersweet but declined the idea because it's been used already.
Then a word suddenly popped on my head; BUM. It's a word na napulot ko lang kung saan at napagalamang ang meaning nito ay [kayo na bahalang mag seach] =)) then I guessed I can't put that simple word for my url, so isip isip ulit. I though of Rihanna's song, Disturbia because of the `bumbumbedum` part (: I know you know it. So there, my Random thought gave me the name `BUMDEBUM` :)
Why am I blogging this? Wala lang, because It's summer when I made my blog and It's turning a year on June 12, yes. Independence day. haha.
I'm blogging about this because I've been so Lazy this past few days to blog something decent. HAH. I've been posting random stuffs on Tumblr and I don't think if I should post it here also, I've been doing nothing >.<>Because our visitors got home already last thursday.
I'm TAGGED :)
Thursday, May 20, 2010 ? 3 Watchasay? ?
Thanks to Nice for this :) You are really Nice.
Please read first before you scroll down :)
1. What time did you get up this morning?
- uhm, 2 pm actually :)
2. How do you like your steak?
- burger steak na lang :D
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
- Shrek :)
4. What is your favorite TV show?
- Phineas and Ferb, Spongebob, PBB and Suite Life on Deck
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
- Europe :) or Paris
6. What did you have for breakfast?
- It's already lunch when I woke up, so none :)
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
- Japanese and Filipino
8. What foods do you dislike?
- Buro :) and Shrimps because I'm allergic
9. Favorite place to eat?
- anywhere with food :D
10. Favorite dressing?
- Ceasar and Mayonnaise
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
- uh, BIKE :D
12. What are your favorite clothes?
- Shirt and Jeans :) I'm not really into dresses.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
- Moon :P
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
- A half full, of course.
15. Where would you want to retire?
- Countryside.
16. Favorite time of day?
- 3 to 5 am :)
17. Where were you born?
- Quezon City
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
- Volleyball
19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
- Yung Inactive, though I hope everyone will tag me back :)
20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
- Idk, yung una sigurong mag o-online
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
- No one in particular.
22. Birdwatcher?.
- Di ko gets :)
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
- I'm nocturnal :)
24. Do you have any pets?
- Fish, guinea pigs and two dogs.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
- uh, Wala naman.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
- Doctor or a Teacher
27. What is your best childhood memory?
- nung nahulog ako sa Kanal :) and every time I'm free to bathe under the rain :)
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
- Dog
29. Are you married?
- No
30. Always wear your seat belt?
- Nope, I'm uncomfortable with it.
31. Been in a car accident?
- Nope
32. Any pet peeves?
- None
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
- Pineapple, beef, pepperoni and olives
34. Favorite Flower?
- Sunflower
35. Favorite ice cream? .
- Keso :) or Strawberry
36.Favorite fast food restaurant?
- Shakeys and McDo
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
- I haven't taken any yet.
38. From whom did you get your last email?
- Facebook :)
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
- Guess, Chanel, LV aaaaaand Forever 21
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
- Nope
41. Like your job?
- I don't have a job.
42. Broccoli?
- Will do.
43. What was your favorite vacation?
- Boracay `07 :)
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
- Relatives.
45. What are you listening to right now?
- The sound of TV :)
46. What is your favorite color?
- Purple
47. How many tattoos do you have?.
- None
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
-
49. What time did you finish this quiz?
50. Coffee drinker?
- Yes
Almost There
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Julian's Birthday was a blast. The place was an exclusive resort in Cavite and the view was awesome. I didn't swam that long because my skin's burnt already and I don't want to get any darker. HAH! :) I just took many many pictures of the place :)
My mom also invited them to stay with us for a week :) so moving on, I still have this feeling of, uhm, I don't really know. Pero alam mo yun? after that awesome day, I still ended up thinking of him before I sleep. tsk, he even texted me last night and I'm grateful not to feel `really excited` to reply :)) My feelings are cooling down :)
We also just got home from watching SHREK Forever After.
The story is really touching; You don't know what you've got until you lost it :)
The story is about Shrek signing a contract with Rumpelstiltskin to have a chance to be a REAL OGRE again, because eventually, Shrek became tired of family life, of the same routine everyday and bla bla bla. He wants to have his life back, before he rescued Fiona from that tower. Fiona and Shrek fought and I really got touched with what Fiona said.
"You have three beautiful children, a loving a wife and friends who adore you. You have everything, yet the only person who can't see that is YOU"
Rumpelstiltskin is a magician who made a contract with the King and Queen of forever after to hand him over the Kingdom in order for Fiona's curse to be broken, but he never succeeded because Shrek rescued Fiona.
When he offered Shred a contract, he told him that he can give Shred ONE DAY to be an ogre again of exchange of any day from Shrek's past, a Day from his childhood specifically. He signed the contract and everything changed. No one knows him, even his True Love, Fiona. Far Far away was devastated under the reign of Rumpelstiltskin.
He realized that Rumpelstiltskin took the day of his birth. So he doesn't really exist and he needs a day to turn the contract null and void, and that is true loves kiss. After a day he would vanish without the kiss because he doesn't exist anymore, all he had was a day to change everything and kiss Fiona.
While Fiona turned into a leader of a group of ogres who wants freedom. He did everything to Kiss Fiona and to make her believe that he's her true lobe. They kissed, but nothing changed because Fiona doesn't love him anymore. Fiona became bitter and doesn't believe on True love's kiss anymore.
Shrek; I AM YOUR TRUE LOVE!
Fiona; Then where were you when I needed you? No Prince Charming saved me. I saved myself from that tower!
It was hearbreaking.
So shrek signed a contract again for a wish with Rumpelstiltskin, he wished to free every ogre, and with that Fiona was touched. On and On with the fight scene until sunrise then Shrek slowly faded ): then Fiona kissed her! and He transported with the same place again, His triplets first Birthday :)
The story was really good. Touching :) It's very common with a guy, specially a Bachelor. Because a man is like an eagle, mahirap sila ikahon because they can never stay on one nest. But when a man truly loves you, he may do mistakes, he may miss his life outside marriage but he'll still be with you.
It's really inappropriate to change someone you love into your standards because when you do, he will never be exactly the one you love from the start. Typical for us girls, Boys usually hates commitments because they feel suffocated and that's what we want. We want them to be our possession, but really. It near impossible :)
THE END :)
The story was really good. Touching :) It's very common with a guy, specially a Bachelor. Because a man is like an eagle, mahirap sila ikahon because they can never stay on one nest. But when a man truly loves you, he may do mistakes, he may miss his life outside marriage but he'll still be with you.
It's really inappropriate to change someone you love into your standards because when you do, he will never be exactly the one you love from the start. Typical for us girls, Boys usually hates commitments because they feel suffocated and that's what we want. We want them to be our possession, but really. It near impossible :)
But sometimes change is good, because time changes so even we don't want to change, we have to, To be able to cope up with things.
When we love someone, It's really not an obligation to change. Sometimes we just have to make adjustments to make things work to make the relationship last. We don't really have to Sacrifice, We just need to Compromise :)
Lesson? We need to try not to take things for granted. Be thankful of what we have now and stop ranting about what happened already. Let's just try to accept the facts we cannot change :) for the pain to subside.
When we love someone, It's really not an obligation to change. Sometimes we just have to make adjustments to make things work to make the relationship last. We don't really have to Sacrifice, We just need to Compromise :)
Lesson? We need to try not to take things for granted. Be thankful of what we have now and stop ranting about what happened already. Let's just try to accept the facts we cannot change :) for the pain to subside.
PS.
I'm almost there :) I'll be over you when time permits.
Labels: movies, Personal, SHREK.
The Best Trips are Free
Monday, May 17, 2010 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
I'll be doing a series of posts because my mind's so random I can't mix it up with one title :)
I'll start with this one, our Summer outings.
First Trip; Last week we went to Batangas where my mom was invited to a Fiesta. It was a spur of the moment decision because no definite plan was held before that day, My mom just told us to ready our things if ever the plan would be pushed through. It was supposed to be overnight, we would attend to the fiesta first then proceed to the beach for a night swimming.
Honestly, I was annoyed and Irritated with the trip. It was full of `WAITING`. haha, we were supposed to depart at 7 am but unfortunately we went off almost 10 am. Kasi yung pupuntahan namin anak ng friend ng mom ko, so yung friend ng mom ko yung magtuturo ng daan and blah blah and we were so pissed already dahil prepared na kaming lahat tapos siya wala pa. Tapos no definite plan pa >.<>
We arrived at almost 3pm. so Imagine the heat! Tapos nagover heat pa yung sasakyan namin when we're at Tagaytay so we have to wait for the Mekaniko to fix the problem. Ang init init nun and we were already hungry >.<>
Before we pack our things, we roam around hangang dun sa isang buntot ng beach kasi parang ang ganda, pero malumot so we decided to head back the cottage :) the place was beautiful.
I hope my complexion would get back to normal before school starts. :))
There's this big bangka far the shore that would carry visitors and tour around as their tradition. The experience was awesome even it's creepy at first because we have to ride a small bangka first that will bring us to the big bangka. I don't have pictures because Mamang bangkero said it's dangerous to bring gadgets it might get wet ;D It was creepy at first, It's like a ride on some amusement park because the waves were big ;D
When we reached the big bangka, it was awesome! The view was great, the air was fresh and it feels like flying, kasi may mga upuan dun sa bandang taas ng bangka. Basta, It's really hard to explain. :)) It's just so sad we we're not able to take pictures :))
After the boat experience we're already wet, because the small baot is so creepy. Yung bangka na ginagamit ng mga mangigisda (: so It's really inevitable for us not to get wet. After that we were told to wait for sometime kasi inaayos pa yung pupuntahan namin, so dahil fiesta, the place was oozing with food, specifically seafoods. I'm just unlucky to be allergic of shrimps. aww.
We had another waiting sessions. ANG TAGAL! I was feeling itchy already because of sea water and I wanted to take a bath already. Ang tagal namin naghintay. Super dami pa inayos kasi nga hindi pa settled lahat. I thouugh the place would be THAT awesome para naman masulit yung paghihintay namin. I also though that the place would near our current location already but it was NOT! feeling ko ang layo layo pa~ Good thing it's dark already so hindi na mainit.
Super daming bangka :"> and the fish was so mura.
haha, the place was like `buntot` of an island
I woke up a couple of times that night kasi ang ingay din, nagiinuman kasi sila. So when it's about 5am we decided to swim na. I was relieved, maganda naman kasi yung place, kumbaga hindi lang enhanced pero okay lang. Free naman eh ;D The water was awesome, malinaw although the sand is not that clear, typical beach sand. Another good and weird fact was the depth :)) I mean the water was so shallow, the ground was almost flat. :)) We were already far from the shore pero hindi pa rin tumataas yung tubig ((: It was awesome, All I did was float kasi walang waves so it's perfect time. I can't swim because the water was salty, the thing I hate about beaches. Salty water. :)) Ilang beses ko atang tinanong na `Maalat ba dito? sana Hindi` HAHA ((: The feeling was awesome. Swimming at 5am in the morning and waiting for the sunrise while floating.
Alam mo yung feeling na you're laying on the beach, ears covered with water and I can hear my heart beat. Magical feeling. I felt so light that day, parang lahat ng bad spirits sa katawan ko nawala. LOL>.<>
They asked us kung pwedeng ipagpaliban muna yung paguwi our car is tinotopak ;D Tapos yung daan paakyat, so It would be risky. :))
We stayed at their house for a while, BV because there's no TV, no nothing. The only good thing about it was the FOOD! Yes, the food was overflowing. Ang daming mangaaaaaa and APPLE-MANGO too:)) All we do was eat and then eat again.
It was so boring so we think of something to do while waiting. We asked for cards ;D ayun, nilaro namin. It was ugh, a trip full of good and bad things.
It was Super init pa kasi walang aircon, tapos their generator was broken pa, so our means of water was through the poso! :))))) The night before we got home, we had THE BAR APPLE :"> Yeah, haha. It was hot tapos iinom pa. =)) I don't really know where to count that experience. Kung matutuwa ba ako or maiinis sa dinanas namin :D We took a bath over the poso. HAHA =))) Good thing there was this huge batya there. Salitan kami ng brother ko. Pag siya nandun ako magbobomba :"> =))) Sabi nga namin, `kung alam ko lang na pwede to, hindi na sana tayo pumunta sa beach :))))` We also put ice on the batya tapos sabi pa niya `ganito pala feeling sa titaic. HAHAHA
We got home late na, almost 9pm :)) Kasi umalis kami doon hapon na para daw hindi mainit. The trip was annoyingly awesome. :D
Second Trip; .I was talking to Cae last night because It's her birthday today and made a robo.to for her then a friend of my mom arrived and asked if he could borrow our car because his relatives arrived and wants to rent a private pool just until morning :))
My brother and I went ecstatic :)) We jokingly said. `SAMA TAYO` tapos sabi sige sama kayo :)) AYUN, at first nagalinlangan pa kami kasi wala kaming masyadong kialala dun, yung anak lang ng tito namin na kasama din sa Batangas.
It was another awesome trip. We just dropped by 7-11 to bought necessities. Wala ng kain kain because it was rushed ((: Sinabi ng 9 pm tapos nagayos na kami ng gamit then umalis ng 11pm :D We weren't able to watch PBB :( aww. I don't know who's nominated.
The place was Nice. 3 rooms and we got it for just 3k until 6 in the morning. The pool was cool, may Slide :D ((: though wasn't that deep kasi may mga batang kasama :))))) We got home 7 o'clock this morning. :D I haven't uploaded the pictues yet :))))
And kanina lang, My mom told us to wake up early tomorrow because we'll go to Cavite, It's Julian's Birthday and she said IT'S A SWIMMING PARTY =)))) Ang Itim Itim ko na ;D I post something immediately at facebook sayong `THE BEST THINGS ARE FREE.` :))) and really it is. Kahit wala ng plano plano :D
Labels: Family, Personal, summer, trip
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010 ? 1 Watchasay? ?
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Monday, May 3, 2010 ? 2 Watchasay? ?
Everyday, I would always come up of something to blog about but always end up `empty`. Everyday of this summer, I deal with boredom and random thoughts. Everyday, I kept on thinking plans and productive things to do but always end up thinking about `him`.
Every post I plan to do always end up having him in it. :( that's why I don't blog about it instead. It would be lame.
Summer. I've been reading a lot of books and watching a lot of movies and series to fight boredom, then in the middle of nowhere, I'll cry. It's...absurd.
I feel like I don't know what's happening to me. This is not supposed to happen. My thoughts always lead me to something I don't want to. I feel like loosing myself. I feel so hollow. LUTANG. SABAW :|
I've been drowning myself of sleep because I think my dreams are way better than everything in my life now. Despite all the sleep, I still feel restless. I laugh, I smile but I'm not happy. :| I feel so alone.
I always think about him. It's eating me up and I have no one to tell how bad I feel. nagdadalawang isip naman ako punuin ng drama and rant itong blog ko :|
He. I've met him on Summer two years ago. He's three years senior than me. We started from a dare/trip, I don't know, We're not really serious that time. It was more of an experiment relationship, he just wants someone he can get along and I too want something new.
Ours was like an open relationship then, NO STRINGS ATTACHED. He was having a vacation then so eventually he needed to leave and it turned out to be a long distance relationship. I told him we can go on under certain circumstances like no pressure at walang selosan. Just like that, It was perfect. It wasn't like other relationship overflowing with I love you's. We were so open and honest to each other. May usapan kami na pag ayaw mo na sabihin mo lang. He told me as long as we're happy, we're still together.
Then one day he told me we're through. I said `OKAY` because I left a note to myself not to fall deep for him because we're just playing, not sure of anything. We're still young, We have priorities, I can't keep him myself. I told myself not to be `stupid` and to accept that anytime we're bound to end. Magsasawa at magsasawa kami sa isa't isa at hindi ako dapat ma-attach sa kanya.
After that we remained friends, a month almost, then he suddenly said he wants me back. Pumayag naman ako kasi gusto ko dn naman. It happened couple of times, he'll say we're through but still remain the same hangang sa sasabihin niya na `one more chance` tapos papayag ulit ako kasi he's special, he's important to me. Hangang isang araw ayaw ko na. It's was becoming a cycle, I still accept him because I love him and I feel that he still loves me but we just can't compromise. I was hoping he would adjust a little for things to be easier. It was an on and off relationship. It was like kami na parang hindi. hindi na kami pero parang kami pa din. We were like loose threads, parang pareho lang kami nagpapakiramdaman. I can't say `I love you` to him because it's awkward for me. I not a cheesy girl. I was like never sure of anything between us so I decided to call it quits.
I just got tired of the set up. He'll talk to me whenever he wants and I can't complain because I can't be jealous or demanding. I can't demand time from him because I know he has priorities. Pero ano ba naman yung magkusa man lang siya, to give me a little priority without me asking from him. Nagsawa na ko na kami pero feeling ko single ako kasi hindi ko na siya maramdaman. I don't really mind it that time, lalo na nung naging busy ako nung 2nd year. We never really had a closure. :|
I never told anyone about him, only a few friends knows him but I never told the whole story. I never mind it though, I wasn't sure if they would believe me because some people see LDR as a non working relationship. I never boast I have a boyfriend or confess my frustrations to any of them because I DON'T WANT JUDGEMENTS. Ayoko ng relasyon na maraming opinion, maraming nakikisawsaw. I cherished privacy then.
The time I finally said we're over, I was crushed. I was so down but I can't tell it to anyone. Only to Lorielle because she's the only person I know that would understand that kind of things and I know she'll keep it to herself. I wasn't OKAY but I HAVE TO BE. Kasi hindi naman ako pwede umiyak na di nila makikita, I don't want questions that time. I was too tired to explain things to people who doesn't know anything. I kept myself busy. I took over most of the task to be busy.
Sorry If I'm telling this long story now. It's just bothering me so much now. I'm not busy so I end up thinking about him most of the time. We still talk, and everytime we do I still hope we'll be like the way we used to be. Happy.
I want to get over it.
I want to move on.
I want to stop hoping.
I want to replace him already, there are other guys. I have crushes. I have friends. I have choices, but I just can't find `someone` who'll be like him. :(
He's not just an ex. There's a something in him I can't find in others. Yung tipong `you'll never get bored or tired talking to` :( He was the one I talk to till dawn with just random things. No exact topic. He's the one who comforted be when most of my friends betrayed me. He's the reason why I stay up late just to talk. Minsan kahit wala ako load basta magtext lang siya magpapaload na ko. Kahit tumawag siya ng madaling araw ok lang.
He's one of the persons I can really be myself without the fear of judgements. He's one of the only person who understands me. :( he's like the bestfriend I never had.
I'm just so fed up of the same people around me. Some of my friends are not really friends. Some of them would just remember me when they need something. When they need help. Sometimes I feel taken for granted. I never really opened myself to any of them because I can sense what they'll think. They don't really know how bad I feel because they never cared :( I never told them what I feel because they won't understand :( they'll just see it the wrong way.
The people around me are all the same, they see me as if I'm okay to be hurt, to be taken for granted. I feel so alone now. I miss him, although we still talk. It can never be like the way we used to.
I'm tired of people asking me why. I want someone who'll just hug me whenever I cry without questions. I want someone to talk to without asking `ano pong topic`. I want someone who won't judge me. I want someone who'll be there other than my mom. I'm tired of feeling this, taken for granted. used. I miss him, I want to stop hoping we can still be. I want the same feeling of happiness again. I miss the feel of being appreciated.
Prince Charming. Haha
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