Last week was one of the memorable weeks of my HS life so far because it was our Periodical week and also our Acquaintance Party.

Ayun, emo na naman ako :))) there's just a lot of things going on my mind right now, on what's happening on my life and I'm just sort of missing something. I badly want something I can't have. :) Oh well, siguro meron ako pero hindi ko pa napapansin :) I just miss the feeling :D

I'll kwento more further when I'm on the mood :D The Party was fun but I wasn't happy :)) I laugh, I smile, it was good but It wasn't the happy me :D

From first year up to now we're a loser in Sabayang Pagbigkas though this year was the only year I got active, wala lang, I guess it's just not our genre as students and yesterday the Freshmen won :D

The higher years were like `aww. UNFAIR` because we all thought that the fourth year would won as champion because we've witnessed how great they were but not as good as last year's senior. :) We were sort of pissed because those First year students had their trainor who was a teacher and we though there's some bolahan among the judges that happened :D haha.

Though for me, as I look at those kids faces yesterday I didn't felt envious of their victory because I remembered I was exactly like this two years ago, We were this Happy and blooming and enthusiastic two years ago and I miss it. :( The outcome of the program was clearly obvious for me since the beginning of our practice because I was annoyed everyday. Haha :) I just agreed to joined despite the consequences of it because of the teacher who insisted and the 2 points incentive :D

The first year of my high school life was the best as well as the worst. My first year was joyful, my first year was exciting and as never boring. :) Yes, I had conflict with friends, I had misunderstanding with them but through it I learned, I saw those persons who never let me go. I saw those people who truly deserve me. It has been two years but the memories are just like yesterday. The campus has changed, the familiar faces have faded but whenever I see that place we used to `tambay` the field we used to run on, the rooms we once lived was still on my mind :( nakakalungkot lang ulit, Everything is different now, more difficult, more complicated but it still leaves me empty, bored of what happens everyday. I guess I just miss those persons who left and the fact that things will never be the same again is just hard to accept.

When you're sad then it's your choice, because you can always divert it or do something that would make you happy but when you don't feel anything you just don't know, it's as if losing the base of your happiness. You're not happy but you're neither sad. It sucks.

I think I'm on that phase again. I just can't give a name to what I feel everyday. I laugh at jokes, I smile at friends but when it's gone, nothing remains. Parang hallow na hallow yung pakiramdam ko. LUTANG. I feel so tired but I haven't done anything, I have loads of stuff to do but I don't feel fullfilled. Haaaaay.

We had our baking activity yesterday although it wasn't realling baking. We just prepared pancakes and we'll just decorate it, tapos yun na yung i-gegrade. Tsk. Me and my groupmates have been ready since last weekend, we spend the whole weekend planning what to do for the activity and asked Angel's mother how to do the icing. I've decided that instead of cooking the pancakes at home and just bring it because our teacher said the time was too short so I asked Therese to bring the WAFFLE MAKER. Ayun, we rushed yesterday but luckily we finished. Maganda nga yung gawa namin eh, may icing talaga compared sa iba na ginawa lang nilang bedding but we got a low score of 87 tapos 2 lang yung 90 which is considered as highest. :( Our teacher said the pancake needs more water kasi `Maganit` daw :( I regret not presenting the cake myself instead, sana may `bola` factor pa saka sana naexplain namin na `Ganyan po talalaga kapag waffle` haay :( Oh well let's move on. Ang importante nairaos namin ng maayos :)

Today was just like the other days, Practice for Sabayang Pagbigkas which I'm always pissed because of Crystel. The only consolation for the Practice is the dismissal :) kasi kasabay ko si crush. haha :))) Pero hindi naman ako umaasa, I'm just sort of looking for something or that feeling that I would feel at least happy or the butterflies. hehe :))

GTG now, we have a quiz on Chemistry tomorrow. THE FREAKING PERIODIC TABLE :(

These past few days, or I mean since the classes have started I have felt nothing but stress.

My last entries shows how pissed and annoyed I am on what's happenning everyday inside the class and I think It's still as is. Everyday would be ordinary bla bla bla and I'm often pissed and starting to get tired of the same routine and attitude everyone else keep on doing.

Minsan pagpasok ko tatamarin ako, lahat nagtatanong anong assignment, may quizz ba or bla bla bla. Eh minsan badtrip din ako at wala sa mood sumagot or magentertain ng mga masyadong obvious question kaya ayun, nakakatamad. Pagdating naman ng uwian lahat maingay magtatanungan ng kung anong meron bukas. Hay.

Ewan, may topak ako lately, I want something new with my life, madalas din ako emo kasi parang na o-OP na naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko pero hindi naman. Haaaaay.

There's just a lot of things that happened and I was hesitant to blog about it because I don't want to reread by blog and see negative thoughts of events that happenned. Pero kahit naman stressful may mga consolation pa din :) last friday was Jamaica's Birthday so kahit sobrang HAGGARD na pumunta pa din kami. Meron kasing SABAYAN :( and it's another frustration to blog about. haaay. These last days I was just trying to distract myself by playing BAKING LIFE and MILLIONAIRE CITY at FACEBOOK. hehe :)

I'll try to update this again as often as I can :) nakakatamad din kasi minsan kapag wala ng nagbabasa and everyone seems to be so busy too :)

Last week was one of the memorable weeks of my HS life so far because it was our Periodical week and also our Acquaintance Party.

Ayun, emo na naman ako :))) there's just a lot of things going on my mind right now, on what's happening on my life and I'm just sort of missing something. I badly want something I can't have. :) Oh well, siguro meron ako pero hindi ko pa napapansin :) I just miss the feeling :D

I'll kwento more further when I'm on the mood :D The Party was fun but I wasn't happy :)) I laugh, I smile, it was good but It wasn't the happy me :D

From first year up to now we're a loser in Sabayang Pagbigkas though this year was the only year I got active, wala lang, I guess it's just not our genre as students and yesterday the Freshmen won :D

The higher years were like `aww. UNFAIR` because we all thought that the fourth year would won as champion because we've witnessed how great they were but not as good as last year's senior. :) We were sort of pissed because those First year students had their trainor who was a teacher and we though there's some bolahan among the judges that happened :D haha.

Though for me, as I look at those kids faces yesterday I didn't felt envious of their victory because I remembered I was exactly like this two years ago, We were this Happy and blooming and enthusiastic two years ago and I miss it. :( The outcome of the program was clearly obvious for me since the beginning of our practice because I was annoyed everyday. Haha :) I just agreed to joined despite the consequences of it because of the teacher who insisted and the 2 points incentive :D

The first year of my high school life was the best as well as the worst. My first year was joyful, my first year was exciting and as never boring. :) Yes, I had conflict with friends, I had misunderstanding with them but through it I learned, I saw those persons who never let me go. I saw those people who truly deserve me. It has been two years but the memories are just like yesterday. The campus has changed, the familiar faces have faded but whenever I see that place we used to `tambay` the field we used to run on, the rooms we once lived was still on my mind :( nakakalungkot lang ulit, Everything is different now, more difficult, more complicated but it still leaves me empty, bored of what happens everyday. I guess I just miss those persons who left and the fact that things will never be the same again is just hard to accept.

When you're sad then it's your choice, because you can always divert it or do something that would make you happy but when you don't feel anything you just don't know, it's as if losing the base of your happiness. You're not happy but you're neither sad. It sucks.

I think I'm on that phase again. I just can't give a name to what I feel everyday. I laugh at jokes, I smile at friends but when it's gone, nothing remains. Parang hallow na hallow yung pakiramdam ko. LUTANG. I feel so tired but I haven't done anything, I have loads of stuff to do but I don't feel fullfilled. Haaaaay.

We had our baking activity yesterday although it wasn't realling baking. We just prepared pancakes and we'll just decorate it, tapos yun na yung i-gegrade. Tsk. Me and my groupmates have been ready since last weekend, we spend the whole weekend planning what to do for the activity and asked Angel's mother how to do the icing. I've decided that instead of cooking the pancakes at home and just bring it because our teacher said the time was too short so I asked Therese to bring the WAFFLE MAKER. Ayun, we rushed yesterday but luckily we finished. Maganda nga yung gawa namin eh, may icing talaga compared sa iba na ginawa lang nilang bedding but we got a low score of 87 tapos 2 lang yung 90 which is considered as highest. :( Our teacher said the pancake needs more water kasi `Maganit` daw :( I regret not presenting the cake myself instead, sana may `bola` factor pa saka sana naexplain namin na `Ganyan po talalaga kapag waffle` haay :( Oh well let's move on. Ang importante nairaos namin ng maayos :)

Today was just like the other days, Practice for Sabayang Pagbigkas which I'm always pissed because of Crystel. The only consolation for the Practice is the dismissal :) kasi kasabay ko si crush. haha :))) Pero hindi naman ako umaasa, I'm just sort of looking for something or that feeling that I would feel at least happy or the butterflies. hehe :))

GTG now, we have a quiz on Chemistry tomorrow. THE FREAKING PERIODIC TABLE :(

These past few days, or I mean since the classes have started I have felt nothing but stress.

My last entries shows how pissed and annoyed I am on what's happenning everyday inside the class and I think It's still as is. Everyday would be ordinary bla bla bla and I'm often pissed and starting to get tired of the same routine and attitude everyone else keep on doing.

Minsan pagpasok ko tatamarin ako, lahat nagtatanong anong assignment, may quizz ba or bla bla bla. Eh minsan badtrip din ako at wala sa mood sumagot or magentertain ng mga masyadong obvious question kaya ayun, nakakatamad. Pagdating naman ng uwian lahat maingay magtatanungan ng kung anong meron bukas. Hay.

Ewan, may topak ako lately, I want something new with my life, madalas din ako emo kasi parang na o-OP na naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko pero hindi naman. Haaaaay.

There's just a lot of things that happened and I was hesitant to blog about it because I don't want to reread by blog and see negative thoughts of events that happenned. Pero kahit naman stressful may mga consolation pa din :) last friday was Jamaica's Birthday so kahit sobrang HAGGARD na pumunta pa din kami. Meron kasing SABAYAN :( and it's another frustration to blog about. haaay. These last days I was just trying to distract myself by playing BAKING LIFE and MILLIONAIRE CITY at FACEBOOK. hehe :)

I'll try to update this again as often as I can :) nakakatamad din kasi minsan kapag wala ng nagbabasa and everyone seems to be so busy too :)