Last Monday, Angel, Me, Ann and Jamaica went to Crossing to buy the give aways. Kasi yung unang plan Fan yung ipamimigay namin sa meeting de Avanze kasi ngayon lang dapat kami pupunta ng divisoria kaya lang napagisip isip namin na masyadong magastos saka hindi lahat makakatangap so alam na yung iisipin ng Students.

Saka mejo nahihiya pa dn ako sa mga ka-partylist ko kasi ako yung president so I should shoulder majority of the works kaya ayun, after namin mag meeting nung Monday kami na yung pumunta sa crossing. Yung give aways pala namin is yung telephone wire.

Inisip kasi namin na nasa uso siya tapos 4 colors naman yung nirerepresent namin, Saka it symbolizes us. We're flexible and convenient as leaders, we can be their friends, their advisers and as well as leaders at saka hindi kami nababali :) LOL, joyful pa yung colors.

So we first entered the 1st year students, para GV daw sa umaga kasi first year mababait pa saka hindi kami mababastos dun and there would be much interaction between. Nung una tinatanong ko muna silang lahat ng `Okay ka lang ba?` `Kinakabahan ka? Ayos lang yan` kasi I want them to feel at ease before we start the campaign para hindi magmukang ako lang yung prepared di ba, saka I'm also concern sa nararamdaman nila lalo na kapag hindi maganda.

The interaction between the first year students was AWESOME :) mejo friends friends na nga kami, Our goal for this year is to break the ice between leaders and followers, our goal is to make them feel comfortable for giving suggestions and opinions for us. We want to emphasize that Leaders are also followers too and we can relate to them.

Sa simula ng campaign papakilala muna syempre, yung tono ko is `I'm Z to the A to the I,R,A. Then uulitin ko tapos sila naman :) so ayun, parang recitation na rin and nagpaparticipate naman sila. We want the campaign to be less boring so may mga batuhan ng jokes :)

Natapos kami sa 6 na first year around 9:00 so 15 minutes pahinga muna kami then sinunod na namin yung section ko kasi yung sa second year may mga teachers na maabala kami, nkakahiya naman kung dodoble kami ng pasok sa kanila. hehe :) Dun sa section ko syempre ina-at ease ko muna yung mga kapartylist ko tapos hindi na rin sila gaanong ilang dahil sa nakita naming pag tanggap ng mga first year :) Ayun, si Lorielle may tanong =)) ang tanong niya in english pa ha, sabi niya `If you were a part of SBO last year at walang nagawa, how can you make sure that you can fulfill your platforms` and sagot ko naman `Yes, but I WAS JUST A PART last year but now I am the ONE leading it` may emphasis talaga yung WAS A PART. haha :) then ayun, mahaba yung sagot ko eh. Basag naman siya, tapos may tanong din na `Ano sa tingin niyo ang lamang niyo sa kabilang partido` which is natanong din sa kanila, ang sagot ko naman `Because we are not afraid to make mistakes and accept corrections, because we believe that it what makes us an effecient leader. I can say that it's an advantage that we are not PERFECT because perfection has no place for improvement. Oha pang Ms. Universe. LOL =))

Pagdating namin sa 2nd year it went smoothly :) kasi yung mga 2nd year sa kabila wala namang issues samin :) so ayun. Masaya ulit. haha =)) Before lunch dumerecho muna kami sa 3rd year C at dun kami mejo nabastos. Sabi kasi namin na they can approach us anytime dahil hindi naman kami mga Suplada at Suplado tapos may mga nag Weeeeeh, so si Ate Faith, my secretary, siya na lang yung sumagot. Nakakabastos lang kasi they keep on murmuring on each other habang nagsasalita kami, parang nagiisip sila ng tanong na hindi namin masasagot =)) Sorry na lang sila. HAHA :) Nakakabastos lang yung mga babaeng kala mo kung sino wala namang K :)

LUNCHTIME was great! Tatlo kaming sabay sabay nag lunch kasi hinintay pa namin matapos yung teacher sa classroom namin bago pumasok. Habang papasok kami sa canteen may mga nakasign na Glee tapos tinatawag kaming `Go ate Glee` ng mga first year :) LOL, ang sarap sarap sarap nun sa feeling, nakakawala ng pagod :) kaya to the tenga yung smile ko nun. Tapos may isang student akong nadaanan na nakasmile saken so nag Hi ako :) LOL talaga, sabay tanong naman ni Erispe ng `Kilala mo yun`?. So sagot ko hindi, haha, nag hi lang ako dun sa bata, basta masaya :"> Crush ko pa yun. hahahahaha

Nung tapos na kami kumain tapos pabalik na, yung mga nakakasalubong naming 1st year students nag sisign ng Glee tapos nagsasabi ng `Gleeks kami` :) ang super super heart warming. Feeling ko pwede na kong matalo. So nung magkakasama na kami kwentuhan muna, laughtrip =))) pinagtatawanan namin yung bloopers every classroom, may nakanganga daw kasi habang nagsasalita kami =))) LULZ talaga. Iniiwasan na kasi naming isipin yung mga nambabastos, tulad nung isang bond paper na dinikit namin sa classroom, nakuha nila Joy na may nakasulat na kabalikat =)) tapos mag nagsabi din na yung mga kapartylist ko daw walang alam at sarili ko lang iniisip ko. :) Sabi ko sa kanila Hayaan niyo na lang yun. Wag kayong magpaapekto kasi may mga ganung tao talaga, kaya ayun :) Tawanan na lang kami hangang dumating sila Ate Faith.

After Lunch may 7 na classrooms pa kaming papasukan, 19 kasi lahat lahat. so yung 7 na yun kailangan nming pagkasyahin sa 2 and a half hours eh malas dahil lunch karamihan ng papasukan namin, so bandang 1 na kami nakasimula. Nagsimula kami sa 4-a kung saan yung kalaban ko na pres. Ang tagal namin dun kasi ang dami niyang tanong, nag sunod sunod pa :) pero lahat naman nasagot ko :) sabi nga ng Vice ko na taga dun din sa classroom na yun parang Hot na Hot daw siya magtanong saken =) so Ayun, successful naman kaya lang nagmadali na kami pagdating sa iba, tapos na-short pa yung giveaways namin :)

Ayun, all in all masakit ang paa naming lahat :) tapos after nun hindi pa ako umuwi kasi nagbalot ng ballot boxes, pero yung mga kapartylist ko hindi ko na nirequire mag stay kasi alam kong pagod na sila. It was fun :) majority naman maganda yung naging result. Siguro 3-4 sections lang kami alangan :)

Off Topic;

Last Saturday we went to Canlubang to visit Gillian saka para icelebrate na din yung Birthday niya, Hindi na kasi namin siya classmates :( It was FUN, 14 kaming lahat so Isang JEEP. LOLZ talaga :) ang ingay namin sa Jeep tapos katabi ko pa si Crush, super super super kilig. hahahaha :) Kasama rin namin si Ranniell na lumipat na ng school :( Bumili na rin kami ng silver bracelet as a gift to Jayvee, sayang hindi siya nakasama. So yun nga :) nag status ako sa FB na I've lost one but gained many :) Sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko na hindi siya deserving para iyakan ko dahil hindi niya ko kayang irespeti bilang kaibigan :)

I ran because of my friend's support and encouragement, pero 1 special person yung talagang inasahan ko. I cried last Thursday because of her. Sabi niya kasi saken `Zaira tumakbo ka tapos kunin mo ko sa partylist mo para hindi na tayo magkalaban` so I held on to her word. Inasahan ko yun kasi sa kanya nanggaling, I ran because I was confident she'll stand by my side tapos nung balikan ko sya, bigla ko nalaman na nakuha na siya sa kabila.

My heart broke, feeling ko lobo akong pinalobo tapos biglang pinutok. Right that moment hindi ko na napigil yung iyak ko, I was already feeling helpless dahil ang lakas na ng kalaban and no one seems to like me or running with me. I mean it was a shock for me, nanginginig pa nga ako habang humahanap ng pwedeng ka-partlylist. Of course inuna ko yung lower years kasi confident na ko sa mga kaibigan ko, confident na ko na tatakbo siya with me, tapos biglang BOOM :( Ang sakit sakit nun. I was not myself last friday, kaya na delay yung meeting namin, nakalimutan ko pa ngang magbayad dun sa tricycle driver sa kakaiyak. Hay. Iyak tawa ako nun with my friends habang naguusap tapos paguwi ko sa bahay ayun. Haaay.

Kahit nag sorry siya masakit eh, akala ko nga ok na nung araw na yun pero pagpasok ko sa classroom kahapon :(( eto na si parinig. Haaaay. I can't understand why I was to blame even though I was the one hurt. I mean lumalabas na ako pa yung masama dun sa group of friends niya, Can't she just cut it out? Masakit pa saken yun paparinig pa sya! Haaay. If it was a different situation, if she didn't marked her words and promised, It wouldn't hurt this bad.

The issue would have been through, I would just let it go and move on, madali lang yun kung hindi niya ipapamuka at ipapamuka na ako ang masama. Kanina nag gm pa sya ng Goodluck daw samen, I mean, yeah the objective was good but it was damn insulting.

Sana man lang kahit hindi bilang kaibigan, bilang tao na lang irespeto niya ako at tigilan yung pagsasabi ng kung ano ano, wala na nga akong ginagawa eh. Nilululon ko na lang yung mga insulto niya, hindi sana masakit eh, kung hindi ko sya kaibigan :(

As expected, I'm running for SBO, and not just a position, BUT THE TOP POSITION :( It has been both overwhelming and emotional for me.

I've already said on my previous blog that if possible, I wouldn't want to run, pwede siguro kung lower positions but being a President isn't a joke. I mean okay, kaya ko kung sa kaya but it's not where everything counts, most of all I'm not that popular, I'm still a junior tapos kalaban ko Senior, tapos matagal na siya dun sa school. I mean WTF =))))))))) I can see the results already. haay.

I won't elaborate anymore. I'm both happy and sad for today. I'm not afraid to lose, I'm afraid to hurt those people who trusts me so much to put me in this position :(

Next friday would be the election so It would be busy days for me starting tomorrow.

Please pray for me :( or talk and give me advice right this time. I really need a helping hand. Thank you fellow bloggers.

I was re-elected as the President again. YIEEEE =))) It's overwhelming, really, being elected consecutively for president for three years in my HS life. Haha, it just means my classmates trust me. Aww =)) Or maybe they see me as more considerate than some of my competitors.

So because it was classroom election today, tomorrow would be the meeting for SBO offcials, it was a tradition since last year that SBO officials would come from class officers. Kaya ayun, maraming nag-uudyok na tumakbo daw ako, even some of my teachers say so.

I'm still undecided yet because as much as I can, I want to focus on my studies and avoid complications by this year and our Guidance Counselor already asked me for his Peers Councilor Club, so yeah, I don't know If I would be running again because it would be a lot of work and it depends on the SBO adviser for this year. Kasi nga nasabi ko na din dito sa blog na yung Adviser last year wala namang nagawa, edi pati kami walang nagawa.

During Lunchtime, a friend asked me or rather talked to me. Si Obsequio, yung Boy trying not to be Gay na nai-blog ko. Haha. He asked me 'sino bago?' so syempre obvious na yung tanong niya, sabi ko naman wala but he still insists na may tinatago daw ako. LOL =)) sabi ko naman pano niya nasabi na meron nga? eh kasi lagi daw ako online tapos lagi daw ako nakasmile tapos lagi daw akong blooming. echos. haha. Ganun lang talaga ako, I hate complicated things and frowning won't lessen the problems in the world.

Pero actually meron, hindi ko lang feel kung meron pa ba talaga, parang wala na lang. Edi much better kung hindi ko na lang intindihin, Isa lang naman talaga yung inintindi ko eh =))) And I think he still thinks about me because of that `relationship request' on facebook. HAH =)) but we haven't talk for a long time now. So ayun, dahil ayaw ko naman sabihin at wala naman talaga akong sasabihin, we end up shooting clues about our crushes :"> syempre I won't blog about everything na kasi mahaba saka madetalye, but it was super tawa scene :"> Kasi adik ako eh, lol.

I know I'm a private person, some people even see me as mysterious. LOL =)) Pero siguro I just don't want too much people in my personal life, I just give high regard for my privacy and I'm also aware that not every people can understand you, so to avoid misinterpretations and complications, I'd rather not let anyone carry my cross. It would be useless and can be a problem for me. If I would have a special someone in the future, I would probably share it on my blog instead on the real people in my life. I don't want people minding my business that much, It may cause bankruptcy. Haha, specially in high school. I don't want everyone talking about US =)) I don't want too many people know about us because It may be used as a weapon against me, lalo na kapag mag competition sa classroom :D So ayun lang, only a few people knows majority about me, and it doesn't also mean that what I show people as me is Fake, It's true, but not the whole true me. I hope you know what I mean :)

Another shitty thing about school is the competition, lalo na pag sa first section, I mean it's already normal pero sana naman walang personalan di ba? =)) Typical of us filipinos, we don't want anyone better than us even its your friend or fellow citizen. Db sana be happy for each other na lang? Aware naman siguro sila na we have our abilities and liabilities, nagkataon na mas magaling lang ako sa kanila =)) chos. haha. Pero ayun nga, since they are/were my friends, I tried not to always participate para hindi masabihan ng kung ano, for their sake, pero alam mo yun? Wala na nga ako masyadong ginagawa, hindi na nga ako naka full effort grabe pa rin sila makapuna sakin. ): Included na yung position ko sa classroom since 1st year. TSK =)) Oh well, Maybe they get more irritated when I seem unaffected by their stare and issues about me. I still laugh hard and it seems to annoy them more =))) lulz. Okay, ano naman kasi mapapala ko kung papansinin ko yung mga reklamo nila saken? as far as I'm concerned is just I'm doing my best and It's not my fault if I seem dominant around the class. tsk.

I'm not boasting, I just know how to accept things mildly.

kthnxbye :) I have lots of research, reports and HW, just wish me luch for tomorrow :) GOOD DAY BLOGGERS :)

I can't update everyday because of stess and fatigue I feel even though the day was pure of boredom. Grabe ang init, nowadays it's already a necessity to brink pamaypay with you.

Kanina nagusap kami ni Jayvee, Bakit kaya ganun noh? Kahit wala naman kayo masyadong ginawa sa buong araw pag uwi mo sa bahay drain na drain yung feeling mo. Super pagod, eh wala naman kayong ginawa? Lulz.

Last year yung baon kong tubig hindi pa umaabot sa kalahati hanggang uwian, ngayon bumibili pa ako ng tubig every lunch kasi kulang.

Grabe noh? Over over na talaga sa panahon ngayon. Samahan mo pa ng nakakaantok na subjects. Jusmiyo =))))

Andy is now a 17-year-old and is heading off to college. The toys have long been stored inside a toy chest and are scheming out plans to make Andy play with them. Finally, Andy has to pack his things for college and decide whether he would want to store the toys in the attic or donate them to the local day care.

Eventually, Andy decides to bring Woody with him to college (wrong move, bruh) and store everybody else in the attic. The toys end up being thrown away by Andy’s mom, but the toys manage to escape. Thinking that Andy doesn’t care about them anymore, the toys decide to donate themselves to the day care.

The film kicks off its major plot after the toys arrive at Sunnyside Day Care. This little strategy that the film employed allowed the film to be literally filled with colorful toys that are equally endearing like those in the films before. At first, the main boss of Sunnyside, an old sweet-smelling pink teddy bear named Lotso, is welcoming to them, until things turn for the worse when it is revealed that he is really a conniving sonuvabitch. (via Tumblr)

Yesterday was Father's day so we went to SM to watch Toy Story 3.

I was already sobbing from the very start, from the part where they tried to get Andy's attention just to play with them, I remember my toys, my childhood memories and everything. What woody said about Andy was the best, he wasn't selfish. Kumbaga nasa itaas na siya pero tumalon siya pababa para sa mga kaibigan niya. He was at that College box but decided to get off just to explain things with his friends.

When they went to Sunndyside I also thought it was a cool place with cute little children but they were wrong, so was I. So Woody, even when he was in a safe place already, he came back to save his friends. walang iwanan.

It was one of the best prison break pixar movie, it was one of the funny parts, specially with Mr. Potato head and Ken, lulz =))) It's amazing how toys plan it in a playful manner. Ang cute cute nung naging Pickle head si Mr. Potato. haha

And another tearjerking part was at the garbage factory, when they were about to get burned and they just end up holding each others eyes. Aww, I cried hard there. Haha, iniisip ko na `at least sila pa rin magkakasama hangang huli` tapos biglang umepal yung aliens and rescued them.

Super nakakaiyak din yung last part. When Andy was describing how each one of them became part of his childhood, how each of the toys was special. It was also touching when Dolly held Woody and he instantly get it. Parang ayaw pa niya I-let go si Woody, Tapos sabi niya `He's special, and one special thing about him is that He'll never gonna give up on you. Ever.`

The movie made me realize lots of things, I remembered my childhood and my friends who became a part of my life.

I realized that we have to let go of things that's already through.

I realized that we have to release things that's too much for us to handle, because it would just be a burden for both parties. We have to break things to make it better.

I realized that it doesn't matter who leaves and who's left, because it still hurts in both parts.

I realized that we all have to move on, and by moving on, there are things that won't suit to be with us anymore. Another thing is friendship, Woody was there for Andy, The toys were ready to stay at the Attic as long as they're with him. I guess it's a friend's commitment to be with each other no matter what. Through thick and thin, They all stick together till the end.

The fact that people come and go is sad, but it all happens for the better. :(

Toy Story 3 was worth the wait, though I wasn't really expecting it to be that touching =))

Most of my mom's friends have been saying na `Yan na ba yung anak mo? Pumayat siya` tapos ako mag s-smile na lang :)) Lalo na nung before recognition tapos pagsasabi ng nanay ko na top 2 ako edi syempre ganun. Tapos sa school, a lot of new faces have been greeting me tapos some of my friends nag cocomment ng magaganda sa facebook, tapos pati teachers :))) lol talaga.

I mean, it's not that I hate receiving compliments, I'm just afraid with the consequences it might bring. Kung sasabihin ko naman na di ako natutuwa sa napapansin nila kalokohan na yun, natutuwa ako syempre, pero ayoko lang masyado tumaas yung expectations ng tao saken. I don't want other people or people around me to see me as lucky or perfect, yung ibang Parents ng classmates ko sasabihin `Ayan tingnan mo si Zaira, dapat ganyan ka din` ayoko ng ganun kasi minsan mahirap maging role model ng iba, kasi hindi naman ako perfect, saka ayoko ng may qouta palagi, minsan nakakapagod na din magisip everytime may gagawin ka kasi baka biglang mag iba yung tingin ng tao sayo.

Ayoko din masanay sa ganito, na laging proud yung tao saken, kasi baka biglang bumagsak sa isang iglap na pagkakamali ko. Ayoko masanay sa ganito kasi pano pag nag College ako? :) Ayoko lumaki ulo ko :)) I mean minsan kasi di maiiwasan na umakyat yung iba dun, ayoko masanay. Ayoko masanay na inaabot lahat ng expectations. Ayoko masanay na lahat ng gagawin ko bilang. Minsan nasosobrahan na ako sa perception ng mga tao saken.

I'm not that perfect, lalo na ngayon. Ayoko mawalan ng karapatan maging mahina.

I haven't made anything yet, kahit nung mother's day hindi ako gumawa. Because I feel that Tumblr or Blogger won't justify how grateful I am for them even at times they are annoying to the highest level.

I can't find one adjective enough for them and I don't want my entry to look absurd. I love them, and I know I can make everyday special for them. Just study hard, masarap yung feeling na pinagmamalaki ka rin ng parents mo kahit minsan nakakahiya :"> at nakakainis din.

Happy Father's Day daddy. Kahit nakakainis ka minsan. :)))) Alam ko namang bumabawi ka lang. Sorry sa inyo ni mommy kung hindi ako kasing sweet ni Ading, pero sa ibang way naman ako bumabawi :)

We went to MOA to fix the iPod and my Laptop and bought some things. Wala lang, napagod lang kami, It was really big na mabibitin ka lang. Ang daming sosyal =)) I was sight-seeing most of the time. Hah! Ayun, we also went to my lola in Pampanga and I saw my cousins again tapos ayun, puro kwentuhan lng over the weekend. We got home Monday morning tapos derecho bili ng school supplies kaya ayun, super puyat before tuesday. >_<>

Third Day - MAJOR BV. Nagpa assignment ng bonggang bonga, buti na lang hi-tech na magkopyhan ngayon, via Facebook at Y!M na. =))

Ayun, the same routine. Thank god for bloopers because I'm major sabaw =))) I mean parang sobra sobra yung adrenaline ko na automatic yung jokes at humor ko. So not me, the serious look type na umeenglish pa =D Haay, I mean yun yung masaya eh, yung hindi sinasadyang joke or yung singit na mga banat :D Laughtrip. Minsan I feel stupid, yung kapag nag mumulti task, lalo na kapag puyat feeling mo talaga groggy. We had this grouping on English, syempre counting yun di ba? so nag count in eh may ginagawa ako, kaya pagabot saken nagkamali =)))) Instead na 1 ulit nasabi ko yung kasunod na number which is 7, eto naman si Jayvee tawa agad. LOL =)) Okay na din, sabay sabay kaming magugutom at naghihiraman ng pamaypay.

Fourth Day - TGIF :D today was okay, ewan. Most of us feels like it's already the middle of the schoolyear, pano ba naman may quizz na. Tapos BV sa MATH =))) I SWEAR, nahihirapan ako. It's effin confusing. Parang umiikot ikot lang yung rules, Imagine sasabihin mo lang kung Function or Not major nakakalito. Hay nako.

Then ayun, Lunch tumambay lang kami sa hallway tapos laughtrip, bawat dumadaan magtatawanan kami. Ang dami talagang bago, =))) may kamuka pa yung ex ko. LULZ =)) I mean it feels like so different yet familiar. We tried to play volleyball nung uwian pero ewan, hindi na ako sanay kasi wala na si Gillian :( wala na din yung adviser namin. Haaay. Nakakamiss, yung mga wala na. Major nakakamiss kasi honestly once upon a time nag wish ako na umalis na sila, Last memory na namin yung swimming nung March at yung Fieldtrip. It feels odd to see new faces sa dati mong classroom. IDK, maybe I just attach myself so much to things that occupied a special phase in my life. TGIF!

Being a Junior, It still feels like the same. Siguro I would say that the best year was Freshmen year, kahit may mga conflicts it was the most enthusiastic and unexpected and exciting year, alam mo yung feeling na your just so full of it :)) Haaaay, I wish this year would be fun and smooth for all of us, despite the changes.

And It was also my blog's first birthday last June, 12. Independence Day :D Sorry if I wasn't able to blog anything about independence.

Last Monday, Angel, Me, Ann and Jamaica went to Crossing to buy the give aways. Kasi yung unang plan Fan yung ipamimigay namin sa meeting de Avanze kasi ngayon lang dapat kami pupunta ng divisoria kaya lang napagisip isip namin na masyadong magastos saka hindi lahat makakatangap so alam na yung iisipin ng Students.

Saka mejo nahihiya pa dn ako sa mga ka-partylist ko kasi ako yung president so I should shoulder majority of the works kaya ayun, after namin mag meeting nung Monday kami na yung pumunta sa crossing. Yung give aways pala namin is yung telephone wire.

Inisip kasi namin na nasa uso siya tapos 4 colors naman yung nirerepresent namin, Saka it symbolizes us. We're flexible and convenient as leaders, we can be their friends, their advisers and as well as leaders at saka hindi kami nababali :) LOL, joyful pa yung colors.

So we first entered the 1st year students, para GV daw sa umaga kasi first year mababait pa saka hindi kami mababastos dun and there would be much interaction between. Nung una tinatanong ko muna silang lahat ng `Okay ka lang ba?` `Kinakabahan ka? Ayos lang yan` kasi I want them to feel at ease before we start the campaign para hindi magmukang ako lang yung prepared di ba, saka I'm also concern sa nararamdaman nila lalo na kapag hindi maganda.

The interaction between the first year students was AWESOME :) mejo friends friends na nga kami, Our goal for this year is to break the ice between leaders and followers, our goal is to make them feel comfortable for giving suggestions and opinions for us. We want to emphasize that Leaders are also followers too and we can relate to them.

Sa simula ng campaign papakilala muna syempre, yung tono ko is `I'm Z to the A to the I,R,A. Then uulitin ko tapos sila naman :) so ayun, parang recitation na rin and nagpaparticipate naman sila. We want the campaign to be less boring so may mga batuhan ng jokes :)

Natapos kami sa 6 na first year around 9:00 so 15 minutes pahinga muna kami then sinunod na namin yung section ko kasi yung sa second year may mga teachers na maabala kami, nkakahiya naman kung dodoble kami ng pasok sa kanila. hehe :) Dun sa section ko syempre ina-at ease ko muna yung mga kapartylist ko tapos hindi na rin sila gaanong ilang dahil sa nakita naming pag tanggap ng mga first year :) Ayun, si Lorielle may tanong =)) ang tanong niya in english pa ha, sabi niya `If you were a part of SBO last year at walang nagawa, how can you make sure that you can fulfill your platforms` and sagot ko naman `Yes, but I WAS JUST A PART last year but now I am the ONE leading it` may emphasis talaga yung WAS A PART. haha :) then ayun, mahaba yung sagot ko eh. Basag naman siya, tapos may tanong din na `Ano sa tingin niyo ang lamang niyo sa kabilang partido` which is natanong din sa kanila, ang sagot ko naman `Because we are not afraid to make mistakes and accept corrections, because we believe that it what makes us an effecient leader. I can say that it's an advantage that we are not PERFECT because perfection has no place for improvement. Oha pang Ms. Universe. LOL =))

Pagdating namin sa 2nd year it went smoothly :) kasi yung mga 2nd year sa kabila wala namang issues samin :) so ayun. Masaya ulit. haha =)) Before lunch dumerecho muna kami sa 3rd year C at dun kami mejo nabastos. Sabi kasi namin na they can approach us anytime dahil hindi naman kami mga Suplada at Suplado tapos may mga nag Weeeeeh, so si Ate Faith, my secretary, siya na lang yung sumagot. Nakakabastos lang kasi they keep on murmuring on each other habang nagsasalita kami, parang nagiisip sila ng tanong na hindi namin masasagot =)) Sorry na lang sila. HAHA :) Nakakabastos lang yung mga babaeng kala mo kung sino wala namang K :)

LUNCHTIME was great! Tatlo kaming sabay sabay nag lunch kasi hinintay pa namin matapos yung teacher sa classroom namin bago pumasok. Habang papasok kami sa canteen may mga nakasign na Glee tapos tinatawag kaming `Go ate Glee` ng mga first year :) LOL, ang sarap sarap sarap nun sa feeling, nakakawala ng pagod :) kaya to the tenga yung smile ko nun. Tapos may isang student akong nadaanan na nakasmile saken so nag Hi ako :) LOL talaga, sabay tanong naman ni Erispe ng `Kilala mo yun`?. So sagot ko hindi, haha, nag hi lang ako dun sa bata, basta masaya :"> Crush ko pa yun. hahahahaha

Nung tapos na kami kumain tapos pabalik na, yung mga nakakasalubong naming 1st year students nag sisign ng Glee tapos nagsasabi ng `Gleeks kami` :) ang super super heart warming. Feeling ko pwede na kong matalo. So nung magkakasama na kami kwentuhan muna, laughtrip =))) pinagtatawanan namin yung bloopers every classroom, may nakanganga daw kasi habang nagsasalita kami =))) LULZ talaga. Iniiwasan na kasi naming isipin yung mga nambabastos, tulad nung isang bond paper na dinikit namin sa classroom, nakuha nila Joy na may nakasulat na kabalikat =)) tapos mag nagsabi din na yung mga kapartylist ko daw walang alam at sarili ko lang iniisip ko. :) Sabi ko sa kanila Hayaan niyo na lang yun. Wag kayong magpaapekto kasi may mga ganung tao talaga, kaya ayun :) Tawanan na lang kami hangang dumating sila Ate Faith.

After Lunch may 7 na classrooms pa kaming papasukan, 19 kasi lahat lahat. so yung 7 na yun kailangan nming pagkasyahin sa 2 and a half hours eh malas dahil lunch karamihan ng papasukan namin, so bandang 1 na kami nakasimula. Nagsimula kami sa 4-a kung saan yung kalaban ko na pres. Ang tagal namin dun kasi ang dami niyang tanong, nag sunod sunod pa :) pero lahat naman nasagot ko :) sabi nga ng Vice ko na taga dun din sa classroom na yun parang Hot na Hot daw siya magtanong saken =) so Ayun, successful naman kaya lang nagmadali na kami pagdating sa iba, tapos na-short pa yung giveaways namin :)

Ayun, all in all masakit ang paa naming lahat :) tapos after nun hindi pa ako umuwi kasi nagbalot ng ballot boxes, pero yung mga kapartylist ko hindi ko na nirequire mag stay kasi alam kong pagod na sila. It was fun :) majority naman maganda yung naging result. Siguro 3-4 sections lang kami alangan :)

Off Topic;

Last Saturday we went to Canlubang to visit Gillian saka para icelebrate na din yung Birthday niya, Hindi na kasi namin siya classmates :( It was FUN, 14 kaming lahat so Isang JEEP. LOLZ talaga :) ang ingay namin sa Jeep tapos katabi ko pa si Crush, super super super kilig. hahahaha :) Kasama rin namin si Ranniell na lumipat na ng school :( Bumili na rin kami ng silver bracelet as a gift to Jayvee, sayang hindi siya nakasama. So yun nga :) nag status ako sa FB na I've lost one but gained many :) Sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko na hindi siya deserving para iyakan ko dahil hindi niya ko kayang irespeti bilang kaibigan :)

I ran because of my friend's support and encouragement, pero 1 special person yung talagang inasahan ko. I cried last Thursday because of her. Sabi niya kasi saken `Zaira tumakbo ka tapos kunin mo ko sa partylist mo para hindi na tayo magkalaban` so I held on to her word. Inasahan ko yun kasi sa kanya nanggaling, I ran because I was confident she'll stand by my side tapos nung balikan ko sya, bigla ko nalaman na nakuha na siya sa kabila.

My heart broke, feeling ko lobo akong pinalobo tapos biglang pinutok. Right that moment hindi ko na napigil yung iyak ko, I was already feeling helpless dahil ang lakas na ng kalaban and no one seems to like me or running with me. I mean it was a shock for me, nanginginig pa nga ako habang humahanap ng pwedeng ka-partlylist. Of course inuna ko yung lower years kasi confident na ko sa mga kaibigan ko, confident na ko na tatakbo siya with me, tapos biglang BOOM :( Ang sakit sakit nun. I was not myself last friday, kaya na delay yung meeting namin, nakalimutan ko pa ngang magbayad dun sa tricycle driver sa kakaiyak. Hay. Iyak tawa ako nun with my friends habang naguusap tapos paguwi ko sa bahay ayun. Haaay.

Kahit nag sorry siya masakit eh, akala ko nga ok na nung araw na yun pero pagpasok ko sa classroom kahapon :(( eto na si parinig. Haaaay. I can't understand why I was to blame even though I was the one hurt. I mean lumalabas na ako pa yung masama dun sa group of friends niya, Can't she just cut it out? Masakit pa saken yun paparinig pa sya! Haaay. If it was a different situation, if she didn't marked her words and promised, It wouldn't hurt this bad.

The issue would have been through, I would just let it go and move on, madali lang yun kung hindi niya ipapamuka at ipapamuka na ako ang masama. Kanina nag gm pa sya ng Goodluck daw samen, I mean, yeah the objective was good but it was damn insulting.

Sana man lang kahit hindi bilang kaibigan, bilang tao na lang irespeto niya ako at tigilan yung pagsasabi ng kung ano ano, wala na nga akong ginagawa eh. Nilululon ko na lang yung mga insulto niya, hindi sana masakit eh, kung hindi ko sya kaibigan :(

As expected, I'm running for SBO, and not just a position, BUT THE TOP POSITION :( It has been both overwhelming and emotional for me.

I've already said on my previous blog that if possible, I wouldn't want to run, pwede siguro kung lower positions but being a President isn't a joke. I mean okay, kaya ko kung sa kaya but it's not where everything counts, most of all I'm not that popular, I'm still a junior tapos kalaban ko Senior, tapos matagal na siya dun sa school. I mean WTF =))))))))) I can see the results already. haay.

I won't elaborate anymore. I'm both happy and sad for today. I'm not afraid to lose, I'm afraid to hurt those people who trusts me so much to put me in this position :(

Next friday would be the election so It would be busy days for me starting tomorrow.

Please pray for me :( or talk and give me advice right this time. I really need a helping hand. Thank you fellow bloggers.

I was re-elected as the President again. YIEEEE =))) It's overwhelming, really, being elected consecutively for president for three years in my HS life. Haha, it just means my classmates trust me. Aww =)) Or maybe they see me as more considerate than some of my competitors.

So because it was classroom election today, tomorrow would be the meeting for SBO offcials, it was a tradition since last year that SBO officials would come from class officers. Kaya ayun, maraming nag-uudyok na tumakbo daw ako, even some of my teachers say so.

I'm still undecided yet because as much as I can, I want to focus on my studies and avoid complications by this year and our Guidance Counselor already asked me for his Peers Councilor Club, so yeah, I don't know If I would be running again because it would be a lot of work and it depends on the SBO adviser for this year. Kasi nga nasabi ko na din dito sa blog na yung Adviser last year wala namang nagawa, edi pati kami walang nagawa.

During Lunchtime, a friend asked me or rather talked to me. Si Obsequio, yung Boy trying not to be Gay na nai-blog ko. Haha. He asked me 'sino bago?' so syempre obvious na yung tanong niya, sabi ko naman wala but he still insists na may tinatago daw ako. LOL =)) sabi ko naman pano niya nasabi na meron nga? eh kasi lagi daw ako online tapos lagi daw ako nakasmile tapos lagi daw akong blooming. echos. haha. Ganun lang talaga ako, I hate complicated things and frowning won't lessen the problems in the world.

Pero actually meron, hindi ko lang feel kung meron pa ba talaga, parang wala na lang. Edi much better kung hindi ko na lang intindihin, Isa lang naman talaga yung inintindi ko eh =))) And I think he still thinks about me because of that `relationship request' on facebook. HAH =)) but we haven't talk for a long time now. So ayun, dahil ayaw ko naman sabihin at wala naman talaga akong sasabihin, we end up shooting clues about our crushes :"> syempre I won't blog about everything na kasi mahaba saka madetalye, but it was super tawa scene :"> Kasi adik ako eh, lol.

I know I'm a private person, some people even see me as mysterious. LOL =)) Pero siguro I just don't want too much people in my personal life, I just give high regard for my privacy and I'm also aware that not every people can understand you, so to avoid misinterpretations and complications, I'd rather not let anyone carry my cross. It would be useless and can be a problem for me. If I would have a special someone in the future, I would probably share it on my blog instead on the real people in my life. I don't want people minding my business that much, It may cause bankruptcy. Haha, specially in high school. I don't want everyone talking about US =)) I don't want too many people know about us because It may be used as a weapon against me, lalo na kapag mag competition sa classroom :D So ayun lang, only a few people knows majority about me, and it doesn't also mean that what I show people as me is Fake, It's true, but not the whole true me. I hope you know what I mean :)

Another shitty thing about school is the competition, lalo na pag sa first section, I mean it's already normal pero sana naman walang personalan di ba? =)) Typical of us filipinos, we don't want anyone better than us even its your friend or fellow citizen. Db sana be happy for each other na lang? Aware naman siguro sila na we have our abilities and liabilities, nagkataon na mas magaling lang ako sa kanila =)) chos. haha. Pero ayun nga, since they are/were my friends, I tried not to always participate para hindi masabihan ng kung ano, for their sake, pero alam mo yun? Wala na nga ako masyadong ginagawa, hindi na nga ako naka full effort grabe pa rin sila makapuna sakin. ): Included na yung position ko sa classroom since 1st year. TSK =)) Oh well, Maybe they get more irritated when I seem unaffected by their stare and issues about me. I still laugh hard and it seems to annoy them more =))) lulz. Okay, ano naman kasi mapapala ko kung papansinin ko yung mga reklamo nila saken? as far as I'm concerned is just I'm doing my best and It's not my fault if I seem dominant around the class. tsk.

I'm not boasting, I just know how to accept things mildly.

kthnxbye :) I have lots of research, reports and HW, just wish me luch for tomorrow :) GOOD DAY BLOGGERS :)

I can't update everyday because of stess and fatigue I feel even though the day was pure of boredom. Grabe ang init, nowadays it's already a necessity to brink pamaypay with you.

Kanina nagusap kami ni Jayvee, Bakit kaya ganun noh? Kahit wala naman kayo masyadong ginawa sa buong araw pag uwi mo sa bahay drain na drain yung feeling mo. Super pagod, eh wala naman kayong ginawa? Lulz.

Last year yung baon kong tubig hindi pa umaabot sa kalahati hanggang uwian, ngayon bumibili pa ako ng tubig every lunch kasi kulang.

Grabe noh? Over over na talaga sa panahon ngayon. Samahan mo pa ng nakakaantok na subjects. Jusmiyo =))))

Andy is now a 17-year-old and is heading off to college. The toys have long been stored inside a toy chest and are scheming out plans to make Andy play with them. Finally, Andy has to pack his things for college and decide whether he would want to store the toys in the attic or donate them to the local day care.

Eventually, Andy decides to bring Woody with him to college (wrong move, bruh) and store everybody else in the attic. The toys end up being thrown away by Andy’s mom, but the toys manage to escape. Thinking that Andy doesn’t care about them anymore, the toys decide to donate themselves to the day care.

The film kicks off its major plot after the toys arrive at Sunnyside Day Care. This little strategy that the film employed allowed the film to be literally filled with colorful toys that are equally endearing like those in the films before. At first, the main boss of Sunnyside, an old sweet-smelling pink teddy bear named Lotso, is welcoming to them, until things turn for the worse when it is revealed that he is really a conniving sonuvabitch. (via Tumblr)

Yesterday was Father's day so we went to SM to watch Toy Story 3.

I was already sobbing from the very start, from the part where they tried to get Andy's attention just to play with them, I remember my toys, my childhood memories and everything. What woody said about Andy was the best, he wasn't selfish. Kumbaga nasa itaas na siya pero tumalon siya pababa para sa mga kaibigan niya. He was at that College box but decided to get off just to explain things with his friends.

When they went to Sunndyside I also thought it was a cool place with cute little children but they were wrong, so was I. So Woody, even when he was in a safe place already, he came back to save his friends. walang iwanan.

It was one of the best prison break pixar movie, it was one of the funny parts, specially with Mr. Potato head and Ken, lulz =))) It's amazing how toys plan it in a playful manner. Ang cute cute nung naging Pickle head si Mr. Potato. haha

And another tearjerking part was at the garbage factory, when they were about to get burned and they just end up holding each others eyes. Aww, I cried hard there. Haha, iniisip ko na `at least sila pa rin magkakasama hangang huli` tapos biglang umepal yung aliens and rescued them.

Super nakakaiyak din yung last part. When Andy was describing how each one of them became part of his childhood, how each of the toys was special. It was also touching when Dolly held Woody and he instantly get it. Parang ayaw pa niya I-let go si Woody, Tapos sabi niya `He's special, and one special thing about him is that He'll never gonna give up on you. Ever.`

The movie made me realize lots of things, I remembered my childhood and my friends who became a part of my life.

I realized that we have to let go of things that's already through.

I realized that we have to release things that's too much for us to handle, because it would just be a burden for both parties. We have to break things to make it better.

I realized that it doesn't matter who leaves and who's left, because it still hurts in both parts.

I realized that we all have to move on, and by moving on, there are things that won't suit to be with us anymore. Another thing is friendship, Woody was there for Andy, The toys were ready to stay at the Attic as long as they're with him. I guess it's a friend's commitment to be with each other no matter what. Through thick and thin, They all stick together till the end.

The fact that people come and go is sad, but it all happens for the better. :(

Toy Story 3 was worth the wait, though I wasn't really expecting it to be that touching =))

Most of my mom's friends have been saying na `Yan na ba yung anak mo? Pumayat siya` tapos ako mag s-smile na lang :)) Lalo na nung before recognition tapos pagsasabi ng nanay ko na top 2 ako edi syempre ganun. Tapos sa school, a lot of new faces have been greeting me tapos some of my friends nag cocomment ng magaganda sa facebook, tapos pati teachers :))) lol talaga.

I mean, it's not that I hate receiving compliments, I'm just afraid with the consequences it might bring. Kung sasabihin ko naman na di ako natutuwa sa napapansin nila kalokohan na yun, natutuwa ako syempre, pero ayoko lang masyado tumaas yung expectations ng tao saken. I don't want other people or people around me to see me as lucky or perfect, yung ibang Parents ng classmates ko sasabihin `Ayan tingnan mo si Zaira, dapat ganyan ka din` ayoko ng ganun kasi minsan mahirap maging role model ng iba, kasi hindi naman ako perfect, saka ayoko ng may qouta palagi, minsan nakakapagod na din magisip everytime may gagawin ka kasi baka biglang mag iba yung tingin ng tao sayo.

Ayoko din masanay sa ganito, na laging proud yung tao saken, kasi baka biglang bumagsak sa isang iglap na pagkakamali ko. Ayoko masanay sa ganito kasi pano pag nag College ako? :) Ayoko lumaki ulo ko :)) I mean minsan kasi di maiiwasan na umakyat yung iba dun, ayoko masanay. Ayoko masanay na inaabot lahat ng expectations. Ayoko masanay na lahat ng gagawin ko bilang. Minsan nasosobrahan na ako sa perception ng mga tao saken.

I'm not that perfect, lalo na ngayon. Ayoko mawalan ng karapatan maging mahina.

I haven't made anything yet, kahit nung mother's day hindi ako gumawa. Because I feel that Tumblr or Blogger won't justify how grateful I am for them even at times they are annoying to the highest level.

I can't find one adjective enough for them and I don't want my entry to look absurd. I love them, and I know I can make everyday special for them. Just study hard, masarap yung feeling na pinagmamalaki ka rin ng parents mo kahit minsan nakakahiya :"> at nakakainis din.

Happy Father's Day daddy. Kahit nakakainis ka minsan. :)))) Alam ko namang bumabawi ka lang. Sorry sa inyo ni mommy kung hindi ako kasing sweet ni Ading, pero sa ibang way naman ako bumabawi :)

We went to MOA to fix the iPod and my Laptop and bought some things. Wala lang, napagod lang kami, It was really big na mabibitin ka lang. Ang daming sosyal =)) I was sight-seeing most of the time. Hah! Ayun, we also went to my lola in Pampanga and I saw my cousins again tapos ayun, puro kwentuhan lng over the weekend. We got home Monday morning tapos derecho bili ng school supplies kaya ayun, super puyat before tuesday. >_<>

Third Day - MAJOR BV. Nagpa assignment ng bonggang bonga, buti na lang hi-tech na magkopyhan ngayon, via Facebook at Y!M na. =))

Ayun, the same routine. Thank god for bloopers because I'm major sabaw =))) I mean parang sobra sobra yung adrenaline ko na automatic yung jokes at humor ko. So not me, the serious look type na umeenglish pa =D Haay, I mean yun yung masaya eh, yung hindi sinasadyang joke or yung singit na mga banat :D Laughtrip. Minsan I feel stupid, yung kapag nag mumulti task, lalo na kapag puyat feeling mo talaga groggy. We had this grouping on English, syempre counting yun di ba? so nag count in eh may ginagawa ako, kaya pagabot saken nagkamali =)))) Instead na 1 ulit nasabi ko yung kasunod na number which is 7, eto naman si Jayvee tawa agad. LOL =)) Okay na din, sabay sabay kaming magugutom at naghihiraman ng pamaypay.

Fourth Day - TGIF :D today was okay, ewan. Most of us feels like it's already the middle of the schoolyear, pano ba naman may quizz na. Tapos BV sa MATH =))) I SWEAR, nahihirapan ako. It's effin confusing. Parang umiikot ikot lang yung rules, Imagine sasabihin mo lang kung Function or Not major nakakalito. Hay nako.

Then ayun, Lunch tumambay lang kami sa hallway tapos laughtrip, bawat dumadaan magtatawanan kami. Ang dami talagang bago, =))) may kamuka pa yung ex ko. LULZ =)) I mean it feels like so different yet familiar. We tried to play volleyball nung uwian pero ewan, hindi na ako sanay kasi wala na si Gillian :( wala na din yung adviser namin. Haaay. Nakakamiss, yung mga wala na. Major nakakamiss kasi honestly once upon a time nag wish ako na umalis na sila, Last memory na namin yung swimming nung March at yung Fieldtrip. It feels odd to see new faces sa dati mong classroom. IDK, maybe I just attach myself so much to things that occupied a special phase in my life. TGIF!

Being a Junior, It still feels like the same. Siguro I would say that the best year was Freshmen year, kahit may mga conflicts it was the most enthusiastic and unexpected and exciting year, alam mo yung feeling na your just so full of it :)) Haaaay, I wish this year would be fun and smooth for all of us, despite the changes.

And It was also my blog's first birthday last June, 12. Independence Day :D Sorry if I wasn't able to blog anything about independence.