Template : Development and Communication
Sunday, January 20, 2013 ? 1 Watchasay? ?
Hi dear blog, I know I've been taking you for granted because I have yet again failed my responsibility of updating you. huhu. So I think you deserve to know what's eating my time. It's Acads!
Development AND Communication are indeed simple words and they actually sounds good. And that's one of the reason why I wrote Development Communication in my UPCAT form. But who would think that those two simple words are one hella course when combined? Clearly, I didn't. I thought it would not be as hard as BS Math. lol
A coursemate and friend of mine one said "Mas mahirap ang Objective course kesa sa Subjective. Nakakainis lang pag di alam ng marami kung gaano kahirap ang DevComm". DEVCOMM 11, our current pain in the butt, proves her statement to be true. Grabe. Sobrang matrabaho, sobrang skill based, sobrang objective kaya todo todo rant ang friends ko sa twitter at facebook. Hahahaha.
But I guess the only way to lessen the difficulty of passing this course, one must love doing it. Free coffee and pandesal during our lab is one of the things that I love about devcomm, and the people and professors too. It's like everyone is a family and walang KJ! People are open minded, warm and friendly too.
One thing I'm starting to realize through DEVC 11 is that writing should be something you enjoy doing. I enjoy writing, I love it but because sometimes I overthink and worry too much about the technicalities of it, I lose the natural way of doing it. So last lab work, I just went with the first idea that came into my mind. I went with the way I wanted to write my experience making my own coffee and I think, for the longest time I haven't been satisfied with my performance, I felt relieved just doing it, just writing and sharing my thoughts about the experience.
So I guess writing is just being yourself. And I think I have to take DEVC 11 easy and just write and write and write, go with the flow and edit when finished. :D
Labels: 1, 13, 16, course, UPLB
Wants and Needs
Sunday, July 1, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Here I am again, torn between what I want and what I need and what I'm so bothered about is that I don't know if what I want is good for me.
Have you ever felt that? that you're torn between what you want and what you need to do? I have felt exactly like that today, specifically this night.
I have read something somewhere that we humans have this habit of wanting things that are not really good for us. Do you agree? I do. Haaaay.
I somehow know myself and kept a letter as a reminder of what I have to keep in mind before I entered college.
So the reason why I have felt this awful today is because I'm tempted to join an organization or be a part of something bigger. I don't know, I've heard opinions that it isn't gonna benefit me. I think it's fun to ba a part of it and I think it's gonna bring me happiness. I also think it's something unique about college that I wouldn't have the opportunity to be in when I graduate.
I don't know.
I think I have lost what I felt strongly earlier tonight because my dormates keep in talking and I can't concentrate very much about writing this.
I am not really comfortable with the thought that some people, particularly people who knows me personally and gets to be with me in personal, know what my feelings and a lot about what I think.
So I'm writing this now in a very small version of a notepad because I'm concious they might get a glimpse of it.
This entry ends here, I don't have much privacy and time to think too much in here so I seldom blog or write entries. You know, there's really a certain mood a writer have to be in to be able to write completely about her feelings.
I miss writing and I miss making myself feel a lot of things. I couldn't do it in here. I'm really not comfortable exposing my emotions to people who could make a comment. Ugh, I'm happy yet uncomfortable in here. A lot of adjustments really needed.
And now this post has become too random. I apologize for that, there's just so much to say and to type yet limited time and inappopriate place to really be my serious self.
Homesick
Saturday, June 16, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
I'm now writing this out of fvcking boredom.
It's too quiet here and it's just past the hour of 9.
My roommates are now asleep and I'm too shy to talk to anyone else right now.
The hardest part of now is taking a bath and changing my clothes >_<
And another con is that it's to hot but I have to wear t shirt because it's what most of them wear.
Theres a wifi but it's password protected. dafuq.
I don't know if I'll just sleep now and I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO TOMORROW. ughhhhhh. I am a good blogger now because there's no internet. harhar
Labels: 11, 12, June, Personal
Iskolar Para sa Bayan
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We had our Almusalan ang Freshmen convocation this morning.
Nakakalula men! Wagas yung pila para sa almusalan tapos naguumapaw sa food! As in libre. Drinks, bread, may lugaw pa nga tas pwede ka kumuha ng kumuha ng kumuha, nanghihinayang ako di ako nagdala ng bag. Haha. As in kanina sobrang amazed ako dahil libre yung ganun karaming food! Labeled pa yung iba:D yung tipong Chuckie, McDo tapos Krispy Kreme at Jollibee.
Tapos ayun convocation na. Ang dami lang sinabi. Nakakapagod i-elaborate pa. Hahaha. Inaantok na ko. Puro kasi lakad lakad lakad tapos yung weather pa eh Uulan, aaraw. Iinit at lalamig. Wew.
Pero yun nga, the speakers all pointed out how lucky we are to be certified Isko and Iska. Ako naman kinakabahan pa sa mga klase ko na darating :D
Hello College :)
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I'm off to ship my things and myself to UPLB tomorrow. I'm sad and excited at the same time. I don't know.
But right now I'm so happy and so in love with my MacBook Pro :) I would blog about everything when my blogging self isn't lazy anymore.
Haaay. I haven't even updated my story yet, I wish I'll have my motivation back.
Nakakaasar. Kasasabi ko lang sa note to self ko na hindi ako dapat tamarin. Hay.
But well, my self is stubbon :D
Labels: 11, 12, College, June, UPLB
You Are Good Enough
Friday, June 1, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
This for is for me and lot of teens out there who feels they aren't good enough and someone is always better than them.
You know, there's this constant idea that always pops in my head and makes me feel depressed.
The idea to be someone else. The idea that they are so much better than me. The idea that makes me want to be like them.
Whenever I see a pretty girl, I sort of like "She's so pretty. I wish I'm that pretty too". Whenever I heard someone sing so good, I feel "Why is my voice like this? ughhh". Whenever I read a good story I feel insecure about the way I write.
I guess it's wrong to feel the urge to be someone else. Sometimes we think we're not good enough. Maybe we're just seeing things the wrong way. We think we're not good enough because we try to please someone who doesn't really care. We try so hard to be good enough we forget that we're enough. That we actually matter to someone. Someone finsds you pretty, someone finds you sexy, cute, smart. We are good enough.
I'm a frustrated writer *_* I write, and actually sometimes I try to have a different style in writing, but it just doesn't feel right. So I tried sticking to my style, and some people actually liked and loved my story *_* I can't even believe it =))))))) It made me feel so good about myself. I can't believe somebody actually liked it and appreciated me, or the way I write.
And it made realize some things.
I guess some teens lose their identity, or lose theirselves because they try to be someone else. All of us have insecurities, I guess even the most interesting and the most beautiful girl. I guess insecurities are what makes us not good enough, perfection is just a concept that we all try to define and somehow try to achieve.
When we're insecure about who we are, we tend to stop trying to be better and get lost in our sadness. We tend to just sit there and be miserable because we're not good enough, because we'll never gonna get things done, because we're never gonna be happy, because someone's never gonna love us. We let our insecurities eat us.
When we're insecure about what we do, we tend to stop doing it even if it makes us happy.
Someone sees you the way you are. You are good enough. Kanya kanyang taste lang naman ang tao, Maybe you should try looking at the other direction, maybe those people will see your worth and make you feel you're good enough. It's a waste of time wishing and trying to be someone else just because we think they are so much better. They have imperfections and insecurities too. Stick with who you are, it's a lot easier and people will like you and love you that way. And when you start neglecting your insecurities and start noticing those people, You'll feel great.
I'm saying this because I want to stop feeling bad about myself. And I felt great when someone told me they loved my story. :)
And when people suddenly tells me "I'm cute" I find it hard to believe then, but I guess I should believe them. Maybe I'm cute to some and not to the others. But I have to make myself believe "I'm cute" to make it more believable, and to make myself feel good.
You are beautiful. You are good enough. You just have to believe it yourself :)
Dear Zai,
Wednesday, May 30, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
You're off to College! Yay :) give yourself a shoulder pat for going after what you want and taking risks.
I hope you're realizing that this is real, this is the big thing. When you start to pack your things off to college, you're on your own. This is where you begin to shape your future and become who you've always wanted to be. I know you have big dreams, now is your chance to go after them.
Please! Wag ka ng tamarin =))) Please don't lose motivation to do the things you do. Don't lose motivation to do things you know you're good at. Just don't give up when you start feeling like a lazy-ass person you are. Please just go on, be consistent. Please! and even if you do feel down, have something to believe in. Have something to make you keep going.
I know it's going to be tough. College is fun they say, but I know you'll be expecting a lot of bumps ahead too. And when you do, re-read this letter. Keep this is your wallet or your inbox or wherever. Okay?
Here, I've made a list of things you should always keep in mind. I know you to be easily distracted and you always change your mind.
1. Don't rush things - You can't be best at something at first try. Alam ko na gusto mo ganun, gusto mo magaling ka kaagad sa isang bagay. Nawawalan ka ng pagasa kapag nakikita mong mahirap sa simula. Don't rush okay? Don't stop trying at your first error. Lunukin mo muna lahat ng insecurities mo at walang kwenta mong pride =)) Iwasan mong panghinaan ng loob. Ganun talaga di ba? It's always hard in the beginning. Lahat naman, pero kapag okay na magagawa mo na rin yan ng tama.
2. Embrace failures - Alam ko na hindi ka sanay magkamali. Hindi ka sanay na hindi ikaw ang tama. College would be different. Alam mo naman yun, maraming tao na ang nagsabi sayo. It would be full of different people and diversed opinions. Don't lose yourself among the crowd. You're going to be wrong a lot of times. You'll fail! It would hurt, like the first time you failed your Physics exam. Try to accept it. Move on and improve yourself. You know that Failure is just a part of life, ACCEPT IT AND LIVE WITH IT. Please, I hope you're tough enough to get up when you fail. Don't disappoint me. Don't disappoint yourself
3. Prioritize - habang sinusulat mo to, alam kong malinaw sa'yo ang mga priorities mo. Ang mga gusto mong maabot. Ang gusto mong maging kinabukasan. Pero naninigurado lang ako, there's gonna be a lot of things that may and will change you. Okay lang. Pero wag mong kakalimutan ang goal mo. Baka kasi mawala sa isip mo to. Ikaw pa naman, madaling ma temp ;D Basta ang priority mo is GOD, FAMILY, SCHOOL. Bahala ka na sa mga susunod. Okay?
4. STUDY HARD - Gets mo na yan =))) Kahit maraming tukso sa kolehiyo, sige okay lang na patulan mo (pero wag lahat. Hahaha). Basta wag mo kakalimutan na pagkatapos ng gala at happy trips, may pagaaral kang dapat gawin. Okay? Please! sana wag matigas ang ulo. Sundin mo to! =)) Sorry kung sinasabi ko sa'yo to, alam ko kasi na nalulula ka pa rin sa dami ng magbabago sa college. Tandaan mo na gagraduate ka with flying colors! Gaano man kahirap makarating dun. Love your course, keep in mind what you learn. At wasan mo nang isumpa kung gaano kahirap ang pagaaral =))) Love UP.
5. Be consistent - HOY ZAI! wag kang ningas kugon ah =))) kung ano nasimulan mo, sipagan mo ng imaintain. Alam ko na alam mo na sa lahat ng bagay, sa Maintenance ka mahina. Lagi kasing ang nangyayare sayo, nawawalan ka ng gana. nawawalan ka ng motivation ibigay ang best mo sa lahat ng ginagawa mo. Please, this time don't lose it. If you do, do something to have it again.
6. Enjoy your Freedom - Malaya ka na! Haha. Alam ko na independent ka na rin naman sa sarili mo. Pero mas bongga ngayon, aalis ka na sa bahay niyo, magkakaron ka ng bagong environment, ikaw na ang hahawak ng sarili mong pera. (YAY!) Alam ko na matagal mo ng gusto gumawa ng napakaraming bagay, magsimula ng mga bagay ng hindi nagdadalawang isip dahil kailangan mo pa ng approval ng magulang mo. Enjoy your freedom because finally, you can do what you want and you already have the chance and resources to do them. Simulan mo ng ilista ang mga bagay na pagiipunan mo =))) Take advantage of this freedom for you to improve yourself, not destroy. Stay responsible.
7. Know your limitations - That's what your mom always tells you. Sundin mo siya, kahit minsan nakakainis siya. Nanay mo yun at kailangan mo siyang sundin. You're lucky to have a mom who lets you do things because she trusts you. I know you're never ever done something to defy her. And I hope you keep a clean slate till you graduate. Okay lang na magenjoy ka at gawin lahat ng gusto mo. Make mistakes! Make a lot of them. Pero siguraduhin mo na hindi nun maapektuhan ang pagaaral mo o ang kinabukasan mo. Siguraduhin mo rin na kaya mong panindigan ang kasalanan mo. Basta, know your limitations.
8. Stay grounded - Don't ever ever ever ever lose yourself. You're gonna meet a lot of people. Hear a lot opinions. Experience a lot of things. These may change you, but always remember who you are. Keep yourself in tact. WAG LALAKI ANG ULO MO! PLEASE! =)))) or WAG KANG MAGPAPADALA SA MALALAKI ANG ULO! =))) Just please, I like who you are now, if something's gonna change you in college, make sure it's for the better you.
9. Love Yourself - Bago ka magkandarapa sa mga gwapong lalake na makikilala at makikita mo sa college. Mahal mo muna sarili mo ha =)) Feeling ko kasi you don't love yourself enough. Kulang ka pa sa tiwala sa sarili mo. Sana sa college maniwala ka sa mga kakayahan mo at iwasan mong mainsecure sa mga tao at bagay sa paligid mo :)
10. Keep all these in mind :)
P.S.
Don't forget home - wag kang masyadong matuwa sa kalayaan mo, umuwi ka pa rin regularly ha! =))))))))
Love,
Your Sixteen Year Old Self .
Labels: 12, 31, College, May, Personal, UPLB
Mommy
Friday, May 18, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
I haven't blog about mother's day. So now I'm gonna blog about her. I want it to be special so I'll do it today, para nagiisa lang ako. haha. I can blog anyday about my mom because every day should be mother's day. We can't really keep them forever so might as well keep it special while we still can :)
A mother is our guardian angel, I think god gave them us to them to take care of and love and that someday, we will know that it's the other way around. They are like trust funds of God. We don't know how much they're worth until it's the right time and when we need them most. They're our builders, lovers, best friend in this world. They are our soulmates and the only thing in this world that would stick with us no matter what the situation is. I know that not all moms stay with their kids, but all moms love their kids no matter what. Kahit yung mga nagpaabort, nag pabaya, nagpaampon at kung ano ano pa. They love their kids because it's theirs, it's a part of who they are and they love them no matter how they show it.
I am thankful for my mom. She isn't the perfect mom nor the best mom in the whole galaxy, but she is the best mom for me. My mom and I have misunderstandings. But I guess moms have that special phone number in our system that whatever we do and whatever we feel or think, they have a way to know things. They are moms for a reason. I am lucky I have her, I am lucky I can still kiss, hug and talk to her unlike some kids.
There are times that I sort of hate my mom. There are a lot of times I do fail to understand her. Sometimes I just don't understand why so I feel bad about her. But whenever it passes, I'll realize that whatever she does and whoever she is and whatever desicion she makes, she is my mom and I love her. That's the only thing that matters most.
My mom is on the top of the reasons why my heart stops my brain from wishing I had a different life, live in a different place and become a different person. I admit there were instances in the past that I have thought "Sana si ganito na lang ang mommy ko" There were times the younger me wanted that because my mom always scold me, disappoints me even and cannot give everything I wish for. But now that I understand things, situations and point of views more, I feel ashamed of ever thinking that way. I now realize what a mom goes through just for her kid. I now see how much my mom have gone through to stay with us, to make us happy by doing all she can. Now I know how much my mom gave up for us, how much a mom compromises to give her child everything. Now I oity those kids who take their mom for granted. I pity that part of me who took my mom for granted. I regret the times I've made her feel bad. I feel ashamed of the times I blamed my mom for the things she isn't to blame for. Now I know my mom did everything she can to give me what I wanted.
When I look at the bigger picture, my rants and reasons are no match for what my mom did for me. I regret the moments I've hurt her or made her feel bad. The times I have disappointed her and the times that I talked back.
I wanted to write her a lotter but I think it's too cheesy. Hehe. I am never a thoughtful person. I'm not an expert of showing my feelings, even to my mom. I seldom tell her I love her, but I do. So much. Sometimes I tell her jokingly that I would take care of her, give her the things she wants. I'm gonna do that and I hope, wish to God that let me have that chance. Let me have the chance to take care of my mom in her old age. Give her everything she deserves for molding me and loving me. This mothers day I wish for more time. Plenty of time with my mom.
Last mother's day we served her breakfast and bed. It was actually my brother's idea and I just helped :) The morning that we served it, I felt like crying. Hehe :) We greeted her good morning and a Happy Mother's day and that was it. :) My brother is really sweet and I guess I often forget the little things that would make my mom happy. I'm not sweet because I think it's uneccessary and silly. I find it a form of weakness and I don't know. I'm just this way. I have so many things in my mind I fail to do and say because I'm afraid. I'm afraid to get hurt when I show people how I feel.
I love you so much mommy. Kahit ganito ako love na love kita, kahit suplada mataray at masungit ako. I will do my best to make you happy. To give you the best things in life. I'm sorry if I always fail to show you how much I do love you. I hope you feel it even if I'm like this. If I find it hard to tell a lot people how much they mean to me. I'm sorry if I don't always show and tell you how much I love you. But please keep in mind that I do and will always love you. Just trust me okay? I promise you wouldn't end up in a home for the aged. I promise I'll take care of you. Happy Mother's Day. I know you wouldn't read this. You will when I go yo UP :) I love You :*
Labels: Mother's Day, Personal
A Collection of Rare and Obscure Words
Thursday, May 17, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Cheiloproclitic - Being attracted to someones lips.
Quidnunc - One who always has to know what is going on.
Ultracrepidarian - Of one who speaks or offers opinions on matters beyond their knowledge.
Apodyopis - The act of mentally undressing someone.
Gymnophoria - The sensation that someone is mentally undressing you.
Tarantism - The urge to overcome melancholy by dancing.
Autolatry - The worship of one’s self.
Cagamosis - An unhappy marriage.
Gargalesthesia - The sensation caused my tickling.
Capernoited - Slightly intoxicated or tipsy.
Lalochezia - The use of abusive language to relieve stress or ease pain.
Cataglottism - Kissing with tongue.
Basorexia - An overwhelming desire to kiss.
Brontide - The low rumbling of distant thunder.
Grapholagnia - The urge to stare at obscene pictures.
Agelast - A person who never laughs.
Wanweird - An unhappy fate.
Dystopia - Am imaginary place of total misery. A metaphor for hell.
Petrichor - The smell of dry rain on the ground.
Anagapesis - The feeling when one no longer loves someone they once did.
Malapert - Clever in manners of speech.
Duende - Unusual power to attract or charm.
Concilliabule - A secret meeting of people who are hatching a plot.
Strikhedonia - The pleasure of being able to say “to hell with it”.
Lygerastia - The condition of one who is only amorous when the lights are out.?
Ayurnamat - The philosophy that there is no point in worrying about events that cannot be changed.
Sphallolalia - Flirtatious talk that leads no where.
Baisemain - A kiss on the hand.
Druxy - Something which looks good on the outside, but is actually rotten inside.
Mamihlapinatapei - The look between two people in which each loves the other but is too afraid to make the first move.
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Birthday Bash
Monday, May 14, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Last Friday night was zooooo ahmazing. Hahahaha. May 12 was Joanne Alyssa Plata's birthday. She's my classmate and we're just a few steps away. harhar.
The Birthdaaay Girl <3 I woke up around two pm and hurriedly took a bath because I'm already running late. Pero pagdating ko dun wala pa mga kaklase ko :D So Jeric and I went to VJ and Rinze's house. Mejo madami na kami. Kumain na kami and kulitan. Sobrang iniiit! Hahahaha.
Nagbalat kami ng maraming mangga and sang karaoke, tapos siguro after ng mga 2 hours na kantahan, Joanne asked if we want The Bar. Syempre Oo ako saka si Jeric. Hahahahaha. Though mejo malakas kami uminom, controlled naman. Yung iba mejo weak eh. So inuman while kantahan. Nung naubos na yung isang bote, lumabas muna ako at nagpalamig. Then naisip ko, may bote nga pala kami. Sabi ko "Laro tayoooo"
Nilibas ko yung bote. "O pwesto na yung sasali. Ang di nakaupo sa sahig hindi kasali" Yung ibang boys KJ talaga. So kami na lang =)))
Nung mga unang rounds, puro Truth lang. Mga tanong about crush and love and kung virgin pa ba. Hahahaha. Then nung lahat na kami naka "truth" Sabi ni Jha ata, o ako. ewan. Basta may nagsabi "Dare na lahat" So Dare =))) Grabe mga dare. Hahahaha. Yung kay Caster, Sexy Dance kay Ann na hindi naman niya nagawa. Tapos may dare kay Ann na magkiss sila ni Cas. Smack lang naman. 10 seconds. Grabeeee. Hahahahaha. May dare din Kay Jenny na kiss sa cheeks si Vj, dare kay Joanne na kiss si Jeric sa forehead at ganun din Si Mimi kay Bin. Tapos Dare na Sexy Dance kay Jeric. Grabe tawa namin. Then may dare sa`kin na mag Dougie. Hell =)))) Ginawa ko naman pero di ko maimagine ano ichura ko. Hahahaha. Saka dare pa na magsexy dance kay Rinze :D Grabe. Hahahaha. It was the wildest night of my life yet. Hahaha.
Sobrang saya. Frieeeends :) Buti nga kahit mejo "iba" Kami ni Crystel, parte ng buhay namin ang mga nakakalokang ito :D
Labels: 12, Friends, fun, May, Personal
My Remaining Bum Days
Thursday, May 10, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
"Haay, ano ba yan. College na ako"
Sabi ko sa kapatid ko. Nagmomovie marathon kasi kami ngayong madaling araw araw at bigla ko lang nasabi. Naisip ko na "So many things will change"
Haaaay. Four remaining weeks of summer. A month of sleepless nights and boredom. Ang daming magbabago pagtuntong ko ng college. Iba na, ibang mundo na.
Natatakot ako na naeexcite. Pumapasok sa isip ko ang mga bagay na mamimiss ko. Yung paguwi araw araw at ang unang dialogue. "Si mommy?" Ang walang humpay na mood swings ng kapatid ko. Hay.
This is just so random :D
Pre College Orientation
Tuesday, May 8, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Kanina habang nagoorientation, syempre pumasok na naman sa isip ko ang "Oh my god, I am so gonna blog this" tapos ngayon, tinatamad na ako isipin ang mga iniisip ko kanina. Haha.
Ibubullets ko na lang ang mga nangyare ;D
- Arrived there 30 minutes earlier so we had to wait. Namamangha lang talaga ako sa mga tao. Hahaha. So different. May mukang artista, may mukang okay lang. At may mukang... pwede na ;D
- Pagpasok na pagpasok sa hall. Ang chorva nung speaker. Feeling close c agad? Hahaha. Mejo awkward ang feeling ko kasi total loner talaga. Wala akong kakilala eh. So I greeted my seatmate. Loner din siya, taga Bicol. Grabe ang layo. 13 hours ang byahe, land and water ;D
- Nagsimula na. Ang pangunahing activity is to know 10 people. Their course and kung taga saan sila. Grabe. Mejo nakakahiya pa saka awkward. Hehe. tapos grabe! Ang lalayo nila, as in from different parts of Luzon. May galing Bataan, Bicol, Zambales, Baguio, Isabela, Ilocus Sur pati nga Cordillera eh. Grabe. Nahiya naman ako kasi from Cabuyao lang tapos magdodorm na ko ;D
- Get to know each other chuchu. Ang sayaaaaa. After nun nagtawag si Kuya Speaker ng tatayo at ituturo lahat ng nakilala niya :D
- Pagkatapos ng getting to know, naglaro ng "Bahay, Baboy, Bagyo" Parang open the Basket. Pag bahay, magpapalit ng basket, pag baboy yung tao sa loob ang papalitan and pag bagyo naman magrurumble lang ang bahay at baboy :D
- They grouped us into seven. Tapos parang nagkaroon ng open forum each group. Nag introduce yourself tapos yung dalawang face nag intoduce samin ng Do's and Don'ts inside the campus and the classroom. Tapos nagkwento din sila kung gaano kasarap at kahirap sa UPLB. Total Freedom daw talaga. Kahit ano gusto mong trip walang pakealaman. May teacher daw na pumapasok ng nakabikini top, may students daw na pumapasok ng nakainom. Keribels lang. Pero depende din daw sa Prof ang rules. Wag daw umabsent ng first day para malaman na lahat :D Mahirap umabsent, pahirapan sa pagkuha ng excuse slip. Hay, kala ko pwede na =))
- Bumalik na ulit kami sa function Hall. Naglaro kami ng ibang version ng bato bato picks per group. Hahaha, ang tawag naman "Archer, Rabit, Wall" Talo ng Archer ang Rabit, talo ng Rabit ang wall at talo naman ng wall ang rabbit :D
- After ng game, balik speaker na ulit pero ibang speaker na. Ngayon naman diniscuss niya ang Advantages ng UPLB at ng Student Affairs. Mga eklavu sa mga ORG, bawal mag Org ang Freshie :D Tapos yung mga University Fees. Mga programs. Mga dorms. Saka yung Student Council and Student Online System. Amazing, ang gagaling nila mag speak. Mga aktibista talaga. Haha
- After ng Speak, nagpakilala silang mga volunteers isa isa. Ang kukulit lang. Lahat sila may "say" yung talagang Ma-ere ang dating. Typical UP. May nagtanong, "Bakit the Best ang UP?" ang sagot nung gay "Dahil nandito tayo. Nandito kayo at nandito ako" oha, pang miss gay :D Ang dami niya sinabi, halos lahat sila kahit iba iba ang course binibida ang kanya kanyang course. Mahalin mo daw ang course mo dahil syempre, yun ang the best. Grabe lang talaga. nakakapressure na nakakaamaze ang confidence nila. Mahihiya ka mahiya =))
Kaya siguro mejo maeere ang people and confident and sinasabi ng iba na mayabang, dahil may K naman talaga sila. Haha, sabi nga nung bakla. Hindi pagyayabang ang pagsasabi ng totoo :"3. Talagang dun pa lang ipapafeel nila sayo na you should feel you are the best because you truly are. Parang bawal ang insecure. Dapat sabihin mo na sa sarili mo na "Talagang magaling ako" Grabe. Nakaka pressure, pero at the same time naeexcite ako :D
Labels: 12, 8, daily, May, Personal, UPLB
Teenage Whatabouts.
Monday, May 7, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
I just got home from my classmate's Birthday. Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYANG! Christian Fred Erispe.
Actually pagod na ako at masakit ang puson ko. Haha, pero gusto ko mag-blog. Kasi baka tamaan na naman ako ng katam kapag may pasok na at araw araw akong pagod.
So si Crystel ang kasabay ko pumunta, tapos dun kami sa 7-11 naghintay ng mga kaklase dahil hindi namin alam ang exact address ni Kyang. Habang naghihintay pa sa iba, pinagusapan namin College life. Ano course ni ganito at kung may schedule na ba siya. Saka kung saan magaaral.
Nung kumpleto na kami, umalis na kami sa 7-11. Tapos habang naghihintay kami ng Jeep, may kumalabit sa`kin. Si Micah Quinay, classmate ko nung elem. Nagulat ako kasi akala ko sa ibang place na sila nakatira, dito pa rin pala sa`min. So usap saglit, tinanong ko kung san siya nag HS kasi ang tagal ko na siyang di nakita. Tapos biglang sabi niya *ang cute mo*. Mejo naspeechless ako. Haha, nagthank you ako tapos sakay na ng jeep. :)) Natuwa lang ako. Haha. GV eh.
Pagbaba namin ng jeep naglakad na kami papunta sa bahay nila Kyang, tapos biglang may tumalon sa harap namin ni Joanne =))) siya kasi kasilong ko sa payong. Hahahaha. *tumalon kasi may railing, so parang talon bakod ginawa nung mama* Laughtrip, poker face na lang kami kasi masyadong papansin si Kuya, tapos sinusundan pa kami. Parang ewan lang. Mejo nagfe-freak out pa si Jo pag nakikita niya, haha. tawa pa din ako, di naman siya makakaano eh. lol. Tawa pa rin ako ng tawa habang nasa daan kasi talagang hindi ako makagetover. Ang init init pa. =)))
Sobrang saya ng birthday kasi nagkasama sama kami ulit. Kwentuhan at kulitan. Iba talaga ang HS friends eh. Nagusap rin kami ng mga takot at excitements namin about college. Mejo nakakalungkot nga kasi wala akong kasama sa school ko :\
Nagusap din kami tungkol sa lovelife. Kasi yung si Jam may bagong boyfriend, edi tinanong namin kung pogi, ayos lang daw. tanong ko mas pogi sa ex mo? Oo daw, ang panget naman daw nun eh. Hahaha. Sabi ko, ganon talaga kapag ex na. Panget =)) Pero kapag boyfriend mo pa di mo masasabi yan. Pag tinanong ka "Gwapo?" "Mahal ko yun!" ang sagot. Hahaha. Saka Sex life, hahahaha. Pero hindi pa kami handang lumevel up sa mga ganung bagay, biruang usapan lang. Mga in case in case at green jokes. Kasi si Cas na boyfriend ni Ann sa manila magaaral, eh dun nga maraming tukso. Haaay. marami kaming kinatatakutan sa college. Saka yung mga ganitong bagay napaguusapan na namin kasi nga, normal na din talaga. Mas maiging napaguusapan kesa hindi alam ang gagawin :D
Pagkatapos ng PBB, wala na kami magawa kanila Kyang, kaya gumala kami sa subdv. Pumunta kami sa playground tapos nakita namin yung mga naglalaro. Eh gusto ko magswing. Hahaha, ayun, naisipan namin pumunta kay Baja na taga Gran Seville. Ang ganda kasi ng playground dun.
Mahabang lakaran, grabe nga eh. nakakapagod pero masaya kasi naguusap at nagbibiruan habang naglalakad.
Nung nakapagswing na ako, ang saraaaaaap. Weeeeeeeeeeee! Parang bata lang. sa tagal ko ba namang hindi nakapagswing. Hindi ko na nga maalala yung last time. Tapos ayun picture picture. Sa susunod ko na lang ipopost mga pics dito. hehehe
Tapos nun sumunod si Jam at yung new boyf niya. Ayun, maya maya umuwi na din kami ;D
Ang saya ng araw na to, nasabihan ako ng cute at di ko talaga malilimutan yung papansin na ewan. Hahaha
Labels: 12, 7, daily, May, Personal
Weird
Saturday, May 5, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Goooodmoooorning :) I haven't slept yet. Okay, ikukwento ko kung bakit. haha.
Last night a friend called. Nagusap kami. Bla bla bla. He knows about ex and he has a girlfriend. And then he tells me about other girls he like. Kwento kwento. Masarap siyang kausap because he keeps the conversation alive. Unlike other guys or friends.
And noon, nung time na kinwento niya sa`kin na yun nga, na dalawang sabay ang girlfriend niya. syempre tawa lang ako, kasi choice niya yun saka di naman siya nanghihingi ng advice, kinukwento niya lang dahil naguguluhan siya. Then napunta sa usapang crush. Sino crush ko, then nung sa kanya. Sabi niya "Maniniwala ka ba pag sinabi kong crush kita?" tawa tawa lang ako. Hahahaha. Kasi, basta masarap siyang kausap.
So ayun, kwentuhan kami basta kung ano ano lang. Tungkol dito, tungkol dun. Tapos minsan minsan, isisingit niya na crush niya ako. Tapos nagtatanong pa na kung manliligaw daw ba siya, mag pagasa ba? Kinikilig ako =))) Sinabi ko na nga sa sarili ko na ayaw ko muna, kasi sakit sa ulo. So sinabi ko rin sa kanya yun. Saka hello, may girlfriend siya. Dalawa pa, so inunumber three niya ako? =))))
Ayun, wala lang. Nakakainlove siya. I mean, ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko sa kanya. Tapos parang sasadyain pa niya na mahulog ako. Pero ayaw ko, kung mahuhulog man ako, problema ko na yun. May girlfriend siya, masarap lang mafall sa kanya pero hindi siya ideal boyfriend.
Ang galing niya kasi magsalita. He makes you feel special. Sinabi niya pa na sayang pinakawalan daw ako ni ano =))) Tapos, bakit ngayon lang daw niya ako kinilala. Haaaaay. Hahaha. Ewan. Hindi pwede. Hindi siya pwedeng maging boyfriend. Masaya na ako na crush niya ako. Mahaba na hair ko dun =))
Labels: 12, 6, daily, love, May, Personal
Why do I blog?
Thursday, May 3, 2012 ? 2 Watchasay? ?
I blog because it helps me relieves what I feel. I blog because it lets me express myself and what I feel. I blog because I think a blog is the best place to share my burdens and joy without completely affecting anyone in particular. I blog because here, I have my own world. I have something to share who I am without being judged. If people do judge blogs, then I can't do anything about it. Blog is just so much better than letting anyone know so much about you. And turning out being too vulnerable.
I blog because everytime my dad rants about my mom and tells me about it, I get frustrated. I get frustrated because I don't know what to do. well, I sort of do know what to do, I just don't know how to do it or say anything because my opinion doesn't matter that much. They are the parents, I'm just the child. I feel trapped between the two of them, between their sentiments. My mom says one thing then my dad another. I try to understand both sides till I end up being confused whos side to agree with.
These past few days, I'm more in favor with my dad because I sort of understand what he feels about the situation. And it just makes me more frustrated because I can't talk my mom out of it, and I can't really tell her my opinion about agreeing with my dad because she easily gets emotional.
Then I thought that they both tell me their frustrations but how about me? How about my frustrations? I have no one to pass it on. My brother doesn't care much. He sees things too simple and whenever I say "it's not just simple" my argument just becomes invalid.
People thinks that when you open up to them, tell them your problems and frustrations, they think that you want help. They think that you need an advice, a way out. They don't understand that sometimes, when you talk too much, you just want someone to listen. To try to understand what you feel. They don't understand that you just want it all out. You don't need their opinion. You need them.
This is why I like Crystel out of all my friends. Because she listens, she tries to understand me without getting me confused. Without telling me what to do, she's just there for me. When we talk, I talk about this and she listens. She talks about this and I listen. We're not entirely the same. We don't have the same opinions, but we know how to respect each others feelings.
I blog because my blog listens. I blog because when there's too much in me, I have something to put it on. I blog because it starts no argument. When I talk to someone about what I feel, I specifically do a monologue, I'm not after the dialogue. And when that someone tries to act smart pants, I get annoyed.
I was exactly like that back then, assuming to know what to do and what my friend feels and tell them what to do. Then I realized I don't really have to tell them what to do, they know what to do. They just don't know how to. And even if I know what they should do, I don't completely know because I'm not in their shoe. So yeah, I blog because technically, my blog doesn't talk back.
I am thankful that I have a blog. I help myself and maybe help someone out there who reads because it gives them this idea that there's always someone who feesls the way they do. And I don't `promote` my blog in my other accounts because it's like making myself open to the public I personally know. lol
So how about you, Why do you blog?
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Getting There
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UP has been my dream school since God knows when and I was so damn lucky to be given the chance.
Nung pumasa ako, everything was still surreal and at first I didn't want to believe it's really true. Everything just slowly got into me when I recieved my admission letter and the attached forms. GRABEEEE! SOBRANG SAYA TO THE POINT NA NABABALIW NA KO SA KAKATAWA AT KAKATALON. HAHAHAHAHA. Saka iba pa yung feeling ko kasi nakapending case pa ako bago na resolve. So thankful.
Then today was my enrollment.
Mahirap kasi ang daming pila, dumaan pa sa medical na pagkatagal tagal para sa requirements. Ang daming requirements na nakakaasar pa dahil may hindi ako alam at nabubwisit ang nanay ko. Ang init. Nakakapagod. Pero nung nakuha ko na yung schedule at class cards, heaaaaaaven :)
Everytime I go to UPLB, am mesmerized. Pero siguro mawawala din to sa pagdaan ng panahon. I am really happy I am now an official "Iska" XD
Annual Fieldtrip.
Monday, April 30, 2012 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
Dated January 28, 2011Places can never bring back those same feelings without the same people around. You know what I mean? Yung makikita mo yung dati mong classroom, papasok ka dun hoping that you'd feel that feeling you miss but you'll just end up dissapointed because no matter how you wish for the people who left, they'll never ever come back and things will never be as happy as it was. :(
We had our fieldtrip last Friday and man, It was very dissapointing. Starting off with our bus, it was horrible. ANG SIKIP MHEN! So much worse than last year then we were delayed for two hours because of some bitch who doesn't know that time is gold.
Another thing is that we're seperated by groups, Bus 1-3, Bus 4-6 and Bus 7 and 8 so It's not cool eh? Ewan, sabi for time management daw dahil hindi pwedeng sabay sabay dun sa iteneraries. ugh. We only got the chance to meet at Enchanted tapos it was too crowded pa. :|
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Our first stop was Bantayog ng mga Bayani and it was Boring with a capital B. I mean, aren't they tired of History inside the four corner of the room that they have to start our trip with sleepy stories? :|
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Bantayog ate our precious time because our target was to get to EK at 2 pm because they're just until 7. Next was QC memorial circle where we had our lunch and argued with one of the guards there because a 2nd year student left a piece of tissue at their table. Ayun, kami yung napagbintangan kasi kami yung malapit dun. tsk.
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3rd was the Myth of the Body Museum tapos napalayo pa kami >.< ewan, yung driver kasi eh :)) It was the `sulit` part of the trip because it was awesome. Kahanga hanga and we learned some things that's close to impossible. Pinakita lahat ng himay na parts of the body. Some of it were gross but still, it's uhmaaaazing :D Too bad camera's not allowed.
We arrived at Ek around 3:30 because we still have to be at Philippine Air Force. Hah :) we didn't actually learned anything. We just picture picture. haha :))
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Our First stop at EK was the space shutte. I was all encouraging about it like, `okay lang yun` `tutulo lang laway mo sa loop` :)))) And they were all `wag muna tayo jan please` but I still went through. We were orinigally 4 who went in line then nung nandun na kami unti unti na silang nagdatingan. SUS :)) I just hate that, maghihilahan pa sasakay din naman. I was pissed because I was considering the time tapos yung mga babae ayaw sumakay ng wala yung boys. Haaay, nakakainis na ewan, wag na lang pahalata. Natural lang siguro sa teens na maglandi, pero sana ilagay sa lugar noh? :)))
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Next stop was the EKstreme. Basically madami kaming sumakay ng space shuttle, pero sa ekstreme 2 na lang kaming babae tas 6 na lalake :D It was cool because it costs an additional 50php for students so we didn't have to wait in line for so long. IT was NERVEWRECKING =)))) Isang bagsak lang siya so bago ka sumakay parang `cool lang yan, sandali lang pala eh` then nung nakasakay na kami Jeric asked to hold my hand pero sabi ko `wag na, mas nakakatakot` :))) those merely 10 seconds of rising up felt like a lifetime. My eyes were closed because the view was. OH GOD :)) It felt like I was falling. Those seconds felt like a lifetime. It was like dying and feeling very much alive afterwards :DDD
After that we saw the others lining up on the Rio Grande so we just `singit` >.< yeah, it's not good pero okay lang yun. konti lang naman kami. Tapos napaaway pa ko. I went extra friendly to super taray because of some jerks who deliberately cheated on the line and worst, kami yung napagbintangan ng mga parents na walang modo at singit ng singit. gaaaah! They see us, teenagers, as a generation of craps and immorality and lack of values why they don't even notice that they are the generation who raised us. So mga graduates lang ang pwedeng sumingit? GRABE, ang kakapal talaga ng muka ng mga yun. May bakla pa! aaaargh.
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Our time worn off there, after nun basang basa kami so I decided to buy slippers and a shirt then the boys decided to play painball so me, Therese and the others decided to ride Flying Fiesta para magpatuyo, we even planned to procede to Rialto but it was already 7 so aww >:( we haven't got the chance. Bibili pa sana kami ng pagkain kaya lang hindi na sila nagaaccomodate. huhu.
We arrived home around 9 pm kasi mga 8:00 na kami nakaalis dun dahil sa hintayan at check check :)
Yeeehaaaaw
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Wow. Blogger had a new face. Magbabalik ako ;D Actually kaya lang naman ako dumalang dito kasi lagi na lang nageerror tuwing magpopost ako. Blogger is my first love and I'm coming back. Magpopost pa rin ako sa Tumblr pero hindi ko talaga feel mag blog dun :D goooood to be back :)Labels: Personal
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Tuesday, May 31, 2011 ? 0 Watchasay? ?
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